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cassetoi

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so this past weekend i went to this awesome show that i had been looking forward to for months. i was visiting my friend who lives pretty far and the culmination of our trip was this show. so i went to the show with her, she's not entirely into the same music as i am but decided to come along and check out what it was all about. what should have been an awesome night turned out to be a clusterfuck...

the night of the show, her parents had planned an extended family dinner. i didn't really know anyone and felt kinda strange talking to her grandparents and other people who had no idea that in a few hours i intended to roll face and rage my ass off. so once everyone leaves we get ready to head out. the mood is kind of weird... normally i get super hyped before shows but i wasn't since we just spent the last few hours talking to elderly people and since she wasn't all that excited to begin with since she doesn't like electronic music as much as i do. in fact, i kind of felt like i wasn't even in much of a mood to rage, even though weeks beforehand i'd been sooo pumped for this.

so we get to the show and it starts out pretty fun, i pop the molly and start dancing with my friend, who decides to be sober since the night before she puked her guts out after drinking a shit ton. just when i start coming up she tells me she realized she left her car unlocked, and so we end up having to leave the show and come back. this pretty much killed my roll, i feel bad cause i know she's not having fun, and then when we get back she says she doesnt want to go in the middle of the huge crowd. for the first time in all my experience taking e, i wasn't happy. i felt the heaviness and definitely euphoria but something in my head made me feel more sad than happy. i'm used to the usual effects of e... chatting people's heads off, extreme empathy and sense of closeness with others, like everything is perfect and we are all one (oh how i love mdma :D), but i didn't experience ANY empathy or happiness. i didn't even really wanna talk to anyone. I'm guessing it was cause of the major bad vibes and clusterfuckery of the night, but i'm worried that this will somehow have a bad effect on future rolls... is it even possible for one bad time to do that?

maybe i'm just being a little paranoid because i love my mdma and don't want one bad night to ruin future nights, lol. in any case, i'm laying off the e for several months. i guess i've learned that it's not always a guaranteed make-everything-better happy pill... don't waste a roll if there are bad vibes, and don't underestimate the important of set and setting for any drug.
 
Yes your state of mind and environment play a big part in determining what kind of experience you will have. When you are in the mood, everybody feels comfortable, there are no other responsibilities to take care, the experience is much more enjoyable.

Don't worry about having all unpleasant rolls from now on. I sounds like a normal reaction based on the night you described :)
 
Haha i feel you man! I rolled for the first time like a month ago with my best friend(girl), my other friend(girl too), and my mexican(relevant?) friend. It was all of our first times and long story short my best friend starts to roll first, pukes at my mexican friends house, his mom is trying so hard to convince us she needs warm rags on her neck to calm down cause she thought she was drunk and she took nursing classes, making her trip out(me too a little), we finally left and i had to talk to me dad(tripppy buzzkill), then when we left my house I started to come up completely and got into a loop(pretty sure it was MDA, intense acid visuals and trip) while driving and listening to dubstep (turrible idea on drugs) which stopped when I saw deer way the fuck up the road and slammed the breaks getting stuck in a snowbank(on a gravel road its ok) so we had to get a ride from some drug hating friends of my best friend(trippy as fuck). What ever buzz I had left was killed when I was the only one rolling really hard and everything I thouched felt like it was fucking my brain and I couldn't talk because I felt like everything was already said telepathically, and I would start a sentance right in the middle before I relized I was talking. Really tripp tho :D like bombing a shit ton of mephedrone and a pinch of acid :P
 
It's all about your mindset my friend. Your mindset wasn't the best as your friend wasn't rolling with you and you seemed to have been concerned that she wasn't into electronic music. I am sure if she was rolling with you, the night would have been completely different - she would have enjoyed the electronic music a lot more, you guys would have been on the same wavelength... etc

MDMA is an awesome drug, but it's not like H/speed/coke where you're going to feel good regardless of what you do. You have to take MDMA in an environment where everyone is excited to drop and everyone is looking forward to whatever you guys are going to be doing while rolling. MDMA is not a magic bullet that makes everything awesome (well maybe the first few times, but even then if your set and setting aren't perfect something is going to be bothering you).

Next time get her to drop or go to an event with people who understand the MDMA vibe.
 
MDMA simple enhances the mood - if you had a tough time, friend wasnt really into it then the MDMA simply enchanced the alread tense/wierd vibe.

Dont worry about it - just next time avoid any old people before you rave (or tell them where your going and what its all about). I can remember explaining that I was going to an event to an elderly couple, they understood it was like a nightclub and were really confused about where everyone was going to sleep :D. I didnt have the heart to tell them that I would be awake for the next three days dancing !
 
Bearlove said:
MDMA simple enhances the mood - if you had a tough time, friend wasnt really into it then the MDMA simply enchanced the alread tense/wierd vibe.

Dont worry about it - just next time avoid any old people before you rave (or tell them where your going and what its all about). I can remember explaining that I was going to an event to an elderly couple, they understood it was like a nightclub and were really confused about where everyone was going to sleep :D. I didnt have the heart to tell them that I would be awake for the next three days dancing !
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i find this to be especially true
 
Bearlove said:
MDMA simple enhances the mood - if you had a tough time, friend wasnt really into it then the MDMA simply enchanced the alread tense/wierd vibe.

Dont worry about it - just next time avoid any old people before you rave (or tell them where your going and what its all about). I can remember explaining that I was going to an event to an elderly couple, they understood it was like a nightclub and were really confused about where everyone was going to sleep :D. I didnt have the heart to tell them that I would be awake for the next three days dancing !
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Old People..........sometimes they just don't get it! I would avoid people not like me for this reason alone. If you can't hang then your gonna bring me down because I am very in tune with others and how they feel affects how I feel.
 
I can know that my roll is coming to an end, then perhaps have to fullfill an obligation then get bummed about it while still rolling...having to leave a concert or show because my acquaintance felt they needed to check their car and or lock it would bum me out, knowing i'll mis 40 or more minutes of my roll and of the concert.

I time my trips so diligently that any unexpected interruption usually will peeve me off because I trip so seldom compared to how much I desire to trip, which is an unhealthy amount, keeping it at healthy intervals makes me want and plan for PERFECT trips.
 
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