So its day 2ish.. And I did another shot to stop the crash.. About .15 give or take.. Well it was pretty much bunk as fuck and didnt really do much but the comedown and a very moderate speed buzz..
So since I'm the captain of common sense lmao I just said fuck it I'm going to take some pills and get some sleep.
I took two 1mg ativans and three 400mg gabapentin because they enhance everything it feels to me..
Everything was fine and dandy and I started for feel idk.. Almost like I took 10x the amount of benzos and I shit you not.. It kicked me into straight hallucinations.. And idc about that.. But they were the more realistic than anything I've ever encountered.. And I've been on 7-9 day/nigut tweak fests before.. They acknowledged me.. Fucked with me.. And when after minutes they'd go away.. Another one would come.. And they're terrifying.. Cept 1-2 who were harmless..but we have..
- the little kid in overalls with long fingers and black eyes that crawls and slides around
- middle aged woman in an off-white dress that can come right next to me and only disappear when I wont listen to her
- a man with a cowboy hat that keeps begging me to join him in my closet
- and FINALLY.. This being with white eyes in a black cloak that always has to stand behind my back.. And never closer than 2-3 feet.. He doesn't talk.. But I he's him laughing sometimes..
Idk.. I'm pretty much curled up with my wife.. And sad thing is I went to curl up with "her" I did but then realized I was downstairs and she was sleeping ik bed upstairs.. It looked like her but the things skin was so loose it hung off her face.. But it smiled until it disappeared lol
So since I'm the captain of common sense lmao I just said fuck it I'm going to take some pills and get some sleep.
I took two 1mg ativans and three 400mg gabapentin because they enhance everything it feels to me..
Everything was fine and dandy and I started for feel idk.. Almost like I took 10x the amount of benzos and I shit you not.. It kicked me into straight hallucinations.. And idc about that.. But they were the more realistic than anything I've ever encountered.. And I've been on 7-9 day/nigut tweak fests before.. They acknowledged me.. Fucked with me.. And when after minutes they'd go away.. Another one would come.. And they're terrifying.. Cept 1-2 who were harmless..but we have..
- the little kid in overalls with long fingers and black eyes that crawls and slides around
- middle aged woman in an off-white dress that can come right next to me and only disappear when I wont listen to her
- a man with a cowboy hat that keeps begging me to join him in my closet
- and FINALLY.. This being with white eyes in a black cloak that always has to stand behind my back.. And never closer than 2-3 feet.. He doesn't talk.. But I he's him laughing sometimes..
Idk.. I'm pretty much curled up with my wife.. And sad thing is I went to curl up with "her" I did but then realized I was downstairs and she was sleeping ik bed upstairs.. It looked like her but the things skin was so loose it hung off her face.. But it smiled until it disappeared lol