Hopeless Two Month Countdown for Treatment

DiehardOptimist

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I've had an on and off three year love affair with meth until January; midsummer last year I quit.

In the fall I landed a really good job but ended up hooked on railing 9mg hydromorph to deal with biking 5 hours a week to work. I'd messed around with a lot of opiates but never became addicted. By the time we got to Christmas break I'd bought a car and decided it was high time to go cold turkey. I made it over a week but I was fed up with being sick. Luckily almost half a year ago I read about the perfect tool to eliminate opiate withdrawl, meth!!

Not too long after that I was laid off for the quarantine. Ever since then it's been a weekly occurrence and no matter how many times I throw it away next week I'm back.

It's been nine months now and I can tell I'm lost without treatment. I keep trying on my own but I don't stick with it for a lot of different reasons, I also think I need to get out of this town for a lot of reasons. I'm willing to save up and I can live in USA or Canada and I have a college education, plus industrial training. However, I have no idea where I'd move.


I should be able to get in within 6 weeks but I'm worried about the fact that the program is only 42 days. Not to mention coming back to the isolation of my apartment and being conflicted since I could make good money here but I know I'm miserable. I used to say hello to everyone before I moved back to this town but people here honestly act ridiculous, almost everyone is stuck up and hostile.

My thinking is kind of muddled but I'm sure I'll make a full recovery after 42 days; until then if anyone has pointers about making it on your own or places to go I'd be grateful
 
Good luck.
It can be though to even stay in place like that, when you know you could just leave.
You better adjust to mindset of "This is my home now for a while - There's no going back."
 
Good luck.
It can be though to even stay in place like that, when you know you could just leave.
You better adjust to mindset of "This is my home now for a while - There's no going back."
Thanks man. I feel you and I know I'll likely have to keep living here for some time after the program but planning to move on from here will give me more of a reason to be sober.

Don't get me wrong there's things I love about this town and I love being near my family. I could really use the change though, even if I end up staying in Ontario.
 
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