Need Help trying to pack in drinking yet its one of the fewer, easily available, mood boosters. wet brain etc.

[lightblue543]

i made a call told them it may have been wds so they can decide if its just an outpatient thing or urgent. day 3: getting anxiety sweating and shakes bp feels normal, but I feel derlius, when i sense panic, as wasnt bad enough in itself, was a sign of worse things, well at least it was only short use.
packing this use game, especially gabaergics, after im virtually clean, might be something i can do with a bit of help but also on me own (y). histronically i dont know how far gone me noggin is, how long recovery would take even if theres overthinking, i think i got out once, or twice, the drugs was fun, once, or twice, or three times but with enough real world interaction, and this is something my care team noticed, with others and less so in the digital world, that sort of stuff, i think ill make it out. this is a recovery journey for me. have an appointment tomorrow morning they knew what paws was, said contact substance use disorder services and look for worsening signs.

reminds me of that scene from shutter island with the chlorpromazine wd :s

edit: went and discussed they said short use no long term can cause... well you know. no damage, keep off the stuff go to my therapy. 02 and heart rate was normal. hours ago had a drink, guess what nervous feelings rocketed back, no surprise, hard to stop but ill be sober for many hours, at this point its a waiting game so my stresshead levels are returning to normal. not feeling too bad now, the worst is over yes.

edit: ok its been around a week since the last use of a benzo, trying not to drink shouldnt be long now but I might have some kindling stuff going on.

edit: 05/07/24- bit of a log going on here. i feel alreet today not too anxious, no seizure, etc. (?). couple days to go to know for sure but I think ya'll were correct it was just rebound. im good.

 

[thatmf]

I was getting worried without notifications since you just edited your post. That's excellent!

 

[lightblue543]

It's been over a week, I'm starting to get a small amount of anxiety and minor seizure (but not really?) activity. I did have some drinks yesterday and I am aware of kindling. This is probably a contributing factor.(.08/07/24).

Next few days will tell but Im pretty sure drinking might take the edge off, but will prolonge the wd. I'm okay though today, but I am wary.
another edit: be seeing m ygp in a few days, symptoms are vaugly back. today, 09, i was drinking woke up anxious told my gp said it's probably not the benzos at this point. edit: 12/07, woke up a bit anxious, only a few days then the timeline for benzos of a max of 2 weeks should have sorta settled.
yeah guys only use benzos if instructed to in inpatient we all know they can mess up your life, if you wanna wean off drinking outpatient is probably a good idea unless its full blown, alkies are good at being alkies, so with a bit of detox or support they can sometimes taper off drink with drink.
if the goal is to be a happier, non anxious person the benzos especially alp will pretend to be your friend, even if its just a few days non prescribed... but no, they aren't, benzos are the devil except when you seriously need them