Well, I'm taking my evening dosage of suboxone now. I finally got on Medicaid so I can afford to get the two mg strips instead, which is going to be fucking awesome. I'm sick of cutting the brittle eight milligram ones into sixteenths, it's such a god damn nuisance. And my dosages, .5mg, is so small that it occasionally just gets lost in my mouth which is exactly what happened this morning. I must have ended up swallowing most of it because I started to feel some slight withdrawal symptoms hit me an hour ago. But whatever, I used a mirror this time so I know this dose will hit me nicely. But fuck you R&B, youre a bunch of money sucking shit heads, praying off the sickness of millions.
Anyway, I've had a good day so far. It's my fathers birthday today so I helped my mom bake him a chocolate cake, which surprising turned out very well. But Jesus, I calculated the collected coloric content of all the different ingredients, and one sixth of this thing is approximately 4000 calories. Now isn't that something?
I had some friends over from my outpatient program this afternoon and we watched a few episodes of True Blood, a show that I'm liking more and more. When I first started watching it I was a bit skeptical to be honest. I'm really not a fan of vampires honestly (though I do like the first two Anne Rice novels) and feared that True Blood was going to turn out to be a sort of X-rated version of the god awfull Twilight series. The first few episodes were interesting but a little hard to take seriously. The idea of vampires fighting for equal rights just seemed kind of retarded. But a few more episodes in I began to appreciate the absurdity of the show, and see that it's sort of meant to be tongue and cheek.
One thing that I really love about it though is the overall look, or atmosphere I should say. I've always been sort of scared but fascinated by the south, and True Blood really plays that up. And some of the dream sequences are just outright beautifully macabre. Some might not see this, but I feel that it's visually very similar to the feel of the second Evil Dead film, and relies on skillful cinematography to create an eerie atmosphere, rather than expensive computer graphics, that we see in a lot of recent horror films, which to me often look more corny and fake than the costumes and stop motion animation used in films like Evil Dead and the first Nightmare on Elm St.
Anyway, I've got a new project to work on which is good. Im Illustrating the cover for my friends bands first record, which is a privelage and an honor.(plus I'm getting paid.) I've gotten really into using ink washes and light grey charcoal on sienna tinted paper, it's a great way to turn a shitty sketch into what can pass as a pretty nice illustration without having to do to much work, which is great as I'm always into finding an easier softer way. I'd put some images up here but I don't know how, so I'll just leave my art blogs website, maybey get some good criticism, i know a lot of bluelighters tend to be creative people.
So here it is:
Www.zachhorvath.blogspot.com
Oh, and just a final passing thought. Everyday I start to freak out that the powers that be are going to ban RC's altogether. I feel that since I'm not using now, this idea shouldnt bother me, but instead it fills me with terror. The idea of a day when you no longer have the freedoms to buy pretty quality legal stimulants is just to dull and depressing to comprehend.
Anyway, I've had a good day so far. It's my fathers birthday today so I helped my mom bake him a chocolate cake, which surprising turned out very well. But Jesus, I calculated the collected coloric content of all the different ingredients, and one sixth of this thing is approximately 4000 calories. Now isn't that something?
I had some friends over from my outpatient program this afternoon and we watched a few episodes of True Blood, a show that I'm liking more and more. When I first started watching it I was a bit skeptical to be honest. I'm really not a fan of vampires honestly (though I do like the first two Anne Rice novels) and feared that True Blood was going to turn out to be a sort of X-rated version of the god awfull Twilight series. The first few episodes were interesting but a little hard to take seriously. The idea of vampires fighting for equal rights just seemed kind of retarded. But a few more episodes in I began to appreciate the absurdity of the show, and see that it's sort of meant to be tongue and cheek.
One thing that I really love about it though is the overall look, or atmosphere I should say. I've always been sort of scared but fascinated by the south, and True Blood really plays that up. And some of the dream sequences are just outright beautifully macabre. Some might not see this, but I feel that it's visually very similar to the feel of the second Evil Dead film, and relies on skillful cinematography to create an eerie atmosphere, rather than expensive computer graphics, that we see in a lot of recent horror films, which to me often look more corny and fake than the costumes and stop motion animation used in films like Evil Dead and the first Nightmare on Elm St.
Anyway, I've got a new project to work on which is good. Im Illustrating the cover for my friends bands first record, which is a privelage and an honor.(plus I'm getting paid.) I've gotten really into using ink washes and light grey charcoal on sienna tinted paper, it's a great way to turn a shitty sketch into what can pass as a pretty nice illustration without having to do to much work, which is great as I'm always into finding an easier softer way. I'd put some images up here but I don't know how, so I'll just leave my art blogs website, maybey get some good criticism, i know a lot of bluelighters tend to be creative people.
So here it is:
Www.zachhorvath.blogspot.com
Oh, and just a final passing thought. Everyday I start to freak out that the powers that be are going to ban RC's altogether. I feel that since I'm not using now, this idea shouldnt bother me, but instead it fills me with terror. The idea of a day when you no longer have the freedoms to buy pretty quality legal stimulants is just to dull and depressing to comprehend.
