Raz
Bluelighter
today the sky is bleeding so i don't have to.
i was working yesterday at my menial data entry job
which is not really a data entry job at all if you ask my manager
but she won't tell me what it is
she won't tell me who i'm supposed to be
only who i'm not
and who to trust
and where the bitches are
with their backstabbing
with their knives
it was at work
where i saw the name
like an invitation
cutter
where i held the paper up to my face
to search for a different meaning
to find only one
cutter
i sat at my desk
where people only notice me as a tool to use against one another
and i was paralysed
tantalised
it felt like a way out
though it's only a way deeper down
or so i tell myself
when that urge licks there
today my arms are bare
my skin has not tasted blood
and i think of the black clothes i will wear
in lieue of those scars
and hope that will be enough
today the sky is bleeding so i don't have to.
i was working yesterday at my menial data entry job
which is not really a data entry job at all if you ask my manager
but she won't tell me what it is
she won't tell me who i'm supposed to be
only who i'm not
and who to trust
and where the bitches are
with their backstabbing
with their knives
it was at work
where i saw the name
like an invitation
cutter
where i held the paper up to my face
to search for a different meaning
to find only one
cutter
i sat at my desk
where people only notice me as a tool to use against one another
and i was paralysed
tantalised
it felt like a way out
though it's only a way deeper down
or so i tell myself
when that urge licks there
today my arms are bare
my skin has not tasted blood
and i think of the black clothes i will wear
in lieue of those scars
and hope that will be enough
today the sky is bleeding so i don't have to.
