Following two Traumatic accidents in 7 years I find myself disabled and in constant pain, one accident involved overturning a 38 wheeler semi trailer with great cunning I used the trucks brakes, a railway bridge and my skull to avert major disruption to the railway system the truck was totaled and my skull was fractured but hey, the trains could still run (bonus eh?) the later incident involved a house fire leaving me on life support in induced coma for 5 weeks, I died in hospital but the grim reaper didn't want me (perhaps he thinks third time lucky) but I have news for him, I don't like his outfit and will never attend his party. History complete now for my questions.....
I am prescribed Tramdol, Ibuprofen both boosted with Paracetomol for pain and also Temazepam for sleep the Temazepam @ 40mg each night as 2x 20mg but it simply does not cut the mustard at less than 200 -240mg which basically is coma country and expends my 56 day supply in around 4 or 5 days which incidentally I recover without noticeable effects. I have access to triazolam. etizolam.xanax and other benzo/benzo derivitives (tho not from legitimate sources) but again if taken alone the dosages required to overcome the underlying pain are so huge I'm afraid that one day I will wake up dead . Sure it won't hurt anymore but I have a wife and custody of four grandchildren for whom my passing by apparent (though in-deliberate) suicide will ruin their lives.
I have no experience of true opiates in fact I am afraid of them so please don't read this post assuming that I am soliciting a source for such a commodity.
To my actual request for advice then: using the medication I have detailed can anyone suggest mixing those meds which would start with the fastest onset closing with the item which would maintain sleep to around 8-9 hours.
If a better solution exists (other than a rope in the outhouse) feel free to elude to it but keep it within forum rules for not only my sake but for your membership too!
I am prescribed Tramdol, Ibuprofen both boosted with Paracetomol for pain and also Temazepam for sleep the Temazepam @ 40mg each night as 2x 20mg but it simply does not cut the mustard at less than 200 -240mg which basically is coma country and expends my 56 day supply in around 4 or 5 days which incidentally I recover without noticeable effects. I have access to triazolam. etizolam.xanax and other benzo/benzo derivitives (tho not from legitimate sources) but again if taken alone the dosages required to overcome the underlying pain are so huge I'm afraid that one day I will wake up dead . Sure it won't hurt anymore but I have a wife and custody of four grandchildren for whom my passing by apparent (though in-deliberate) suicide will ruin their lives.
I have no experience of true opiates in fact I am afraid of them so please don't read this post assuming that I am soliciting a source for such a commodity.
To my actual request for advice then: using the medication I have detailed can anyone suggest mixing those meds which would start with the fastest onset closing with the item which would maintain sleep to around 8-9 hours.
If a better solution exists (other than a rope in the outhouse) feel free to elude to it but keep it within forum rules for not only my sake but for your membership too!
