Traumatic Experience While on Shrooms

[jfischer218]

The first time I did shrooms I took an 8th and tripped my balls off. It was interesting, a bit overwhelming, but I was able to handle it. Two days later I took a half 8th. I knew my tolerance would be higher and that it would take more than I originally took to achieve anywhere near as good a trip, but I opted for half an 8th anyways. Upon not feeling anything I redosed an hour later, which didnt work either. An hour later after I redosed, my girlfriend of 3 years, my first real girlfriend and love, broke up with me
Now, after years of dissociative use I no longer feel emotions to a real extent, im pretty much blank in that department. However, this news wouldve probably torn me up anyway, but being on shrooms, even a small amount, my emotions were enhanced 100 fold. The whole thing was devastating. About 2 weeks later I decided to try again. I was still in a horrible state of depression, and im fully aware that hallucinogen use while depressed is probably the worst idea, but I wanted feelings back and thought that maybe I could come to some sort of solution if I could feel again. I opted to take an 8th again and my dealer recommended to try the lemon juice TEK, so I did. About half an hour in I threw it up. I really didnt feel any effects besides having emotions again so the purpose was achieved. I didnt mean to throw up but I started having second tthoughts about how much of a mindfuck I was in for so I didnt try to stop it. I wept my heart out and started to feel better within the next few days from the insight I had gotten that day.

Heres my question. If I ever attempt shrooms again, im worried that ill be revisited by my thoughts from the second trip, experience the devastation all over again. Does this sound like something thats possible or is it only possible because id be worried about it?

 

[2002Tii]

It can be possible, and it can be possible just because you focus on it so much. It can also shed a new light and perspective on what happened and help you come to peace with life's hardships.

 

[GolemGolem]

It'll come up most likely. I seem to get different aspects of the same story every time I trip in different ways. It's almost always about operating in multiple dimensions and planes of existance and how much control I have over this. Then new things will happen for better or worse, or I'll just enjoy swirly walls in a bubble bath for a few hours.
If it's one of the big trips, you'll deal with it and go from there.

 

[Si Dread]

You'll need to prepare to have to deal with the old feelings, but if you obsess over it prior to the trip it's almost definite to be unpleasant. Quite a balancing act! I've probably got a little more baggage than the average person, but I rarely have problems tripping. If I do end up facing less than pleasant memories on a trip it's normally in a constructive way. I'm highly attuned to my emotional state prior to any tripping, & I often back out at the last minute. It's not easy for me to say, yeah gonna do a Psychedelic this evening. It's more likely I'll say, IF I'm in the right mood, I MIGHT trip later.

So, I guess you need to keep in mind the possibility of dealing with shit, without spoiling the trip by thinking about nothing else & worrying about it. Either way, regardless of your compound of choice, I'd recomend dosing low to start with, if it is really unpleasant at least it won't last as long.

 

[pofacedhoe]

for some people shrooms are bad news and cause loads of anxiety.

the whole experience was savage and i would guess you would revisit it. try mescaline as its much less heavy on your mind

 

[aussie101]

Just chill man. Focus on your breathing, try some meditation, clear your mind of crap...You know use your fucking common sense.

But i will say I knew a guy in high school when were like 15 who was tripping balls on mushrooms, his GF dumped him and he jumped off the Gap in Sydney (his name was Michael Murphy, may be on the internet somewhere).

Learn to calm your mind during psychadelic experience(s) otherwise do not use them. I'm sure most of us have had traumatic break ups at some point....