snitchienitches
Bluelighter
i am a wasteoid. can't even get out of bed w/o knowing i have some way of getting high. i felt like shit all day today until i stole 4 k-pins from my loving aunt who would drop dead for me if i asked her. and i'm fucking stealing her meds.
what kind of poor pathetic person does that?
ME.
then i start to think-- well if i had my scrip of valiums (1 month late in arriving) i wouldn't have to do this. endless cycle.
i am an intelligent individual and i know i have a lot of potential- only 55 more credits until my bachelors in environmental philosophy. but here i am being stuck in this RUT of drug use.
seriously, when i have my benzos i am productive, same for my pot. it is quite saddening to me that i feel i need these SUBSTANCES to be productive. wtf? i think a lot of it may be mental. i don't have w/d's from benzos, i just mentally crave them. it is no good.
well any and all advice would be appreciated.
peace. love. kind buds.
what kind of poor pathetic person does that?
ME.
then i start to think-- well if i had my scrip of valiums (1 month late in arriving) i wouldn't have to do this. endless cycle.
i am an intelligent individual and i know i have a lot of potential- only 55 more credits until my bachelors in environmental philosophy. but here i am being stuck in this RUT of drug use.
seriously, when i have my benzos i am productive, same for my pot. it is quite saddening to me that i feel i need these SUBSTANCES to be productive. wtf? i think a lot of it may be mental. i don't have w/d's from benzos, i just mentally crave them. it is no good.
well any and all advice would be appreciated.
peace. love. kind buds.
