mr_fluffy
Bluelighter
inspired by two random words, those of the title, from a chat i had with a friend.
what do i need?
what is it i want?
searching
for what?
desire what i cannot have
want what i do not know
ideal, image of perfection
can reality ever match?
intellectual construct
emotional yearning
where? when? ever?
so,
learn, achieve, succeed
absorb, cogitate, impliment
knowledge equals power, right?
powerless, restless, submissive
get, accumulate, save, invest
successes compounding, portfolio bulging
respect, admiration, envy
worthless, unsatisfactory, empty.
chase, court, desire
tease, tantalise, fuck
more partners than a law-firm
make a stand!
one night, two nights
month-long epics
bitter, confused, hollow
dissapointed, disillusioned, distressed
many share my bed
few share my heart.
not you, not you, not you
it's me!
but we can still be friends.
meet, greet, mingle
aid, assist, abet
befriend, beguile, belong
help, support, redeem
a joy shared is a joy doubled
a trouble shared is a trouble halved.
partake, be a part, be needed
bored, overwhelmed, neglected
abandoned, abused, useless
unhappy, unfulfilled, unwanted.
mind altering, consciousness expanding
higher than high, lower than low
what goes up, must come down
it's the law!
taste, test, sample
escape, avoid, delay
tolerance, dependence, addiction
justify, blame, deny.
confuse, admit, obscure
reduce, wean, cold-turkey
empty, hollow, ravenous
stuck, bound, repeating.
don't want to be here
so still searching
death, the final frontier?
unfair, unfinished, cowardly
option not available.
sleep evades. eludes. exists?
rest, recuperation, invigoration
elusive.
in bed. alone.
tossing, turning
restless, rejected
tormented.
don't ask, don't know, don't care
apathy, despair, despondent
live, exist, subsist.
yesterday, today, tomorrow
same, indistinguishable, monotonous.
want?
change, progress, meaning
need?
happiness, fulfillment, purpose.
and yet
restless, uncertain, tormented
lifelong quest, forever searching, always yearning.
what do i need?
what is it i want?
searching
for what?
desire what i cannot have
want what i do not know
ideal, image of perfection
can reality ever match?
intellectual construct
emotional yearning
where? when? ever?
so,
learn, achieve, succeed
absorb, cogitate, impliment
knowledge equals power, right?
powerless, restless, submissive
get, accumulate, save, invest
successes compounding, portfolio bulging
respect, admiration, envy
worthless, unsatisfactory, empty.
chase, court, desire
tease, tantalise, fuck
more partners than a law-firm
make a stand!
one night, two nights
month-long epics
bitter, confused, hollow
dissapointed, disillusioned, distressed
many share my bed
few share my heart.
not you, not you, not you
it's me!
but we can still be friends.
meet, greet, mingle
aid, assist, abet
befriend, beguile, belong
help, support, redeem
a joy shared is a joy doubled
a trouble shared is a trouble halved.
partake, be a part, be needed
bored, overwhelmed, neglected
abandoned, abused, useless
unhappy, unfulfilled, unwanted.
mind altering, consciousness expanding
higher than high, lower than low
what goes up, must come down
it's the law!
taste, test, sample
escape, avoid, delay
tolerance, dependence, addiction
justify, blame, deny.
confuse, admit, obscure
reduce, wean, cold-turkey
empty, hollow, ravenous
stuck, bound, repeating.
don't want to be here
so still searching
death, the final frontier?
unfair, unfinished, cowardly
option not available.
sleep evades. eludes. exists?
rest, recuperation, invigoration
elusive.
in bed. alone.
tossing, turning
restless, rejected
tormented.
don't ask, don't know, don't care
apathy, despair, despondent
live, exist, subsist.
yesterday, today, tomorrow
same, indistinguishable, monotonous.
want?
change, progress, meaning
need?
happiness, fulfillment, purpose.
and yet
restless, uncertain, tormented
lifelong quest, forever searching, always yearning.
