Today I am thankful for being 31 days clean from a 10 year opiate habit ending in a sustained, no-breaks three year opiate BINGE. These have been the hardest 31 days of my life (and I've been shot, sexually abused, physically abused, etc etc), and I am grateful every single day that I had the strength & endurance to hold steady. If I die tomorrow, I die clean and with dignity.
I am thankful for sleep. I am thankful for tea. I am thankful for feeling hunger. I am thankful that my brain actually seems to be healing, albeit excruciatingly slowly. I am thankful for clear eyes. I am thankful for seeing my pets and my family, really seeing them, again. I am thankful for the person who took care of me and kept me in clean pajamas and sheets through the first awful weeks of acute withdrawal. I am thankful that for the first time ever, I got clean with lots of opiates left in the house, and flushed them last week.
Lastly, I am thankful for the lessons learned from those I loved and love who didn't get as lucky as me. Rest in peace, my lovelies.