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Today I Am Thankful For... Ver. 4 Infinite Chances in an Amazing World

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Feeling very appreciated at work. Even if I don't get paid for half the hours I put in people really appreciate the art I teach their kids how to do. And the kids themselves get so excited. Prepare to see yet another first grade play stage set coming soon in the photo thread.;)
 
^ that sounds amazing Herbavore I can't even imagine the satisfaction you must get from teaching young minds how to express themselves through art. Teachers are by far the most under paid of workers. You have a lot of passion as well as compassion.

Today I am thankful for Mary, my dogs Luna and Ava, my kitties, my fish, and spring which is only just around the corner now :)
 
Xorkoth said:
I agree... being into multiple people doesn't necessarily mean you care less about any of them. I don't know if I would have believed that until I experienced it. I used to be very monogamy-minded and thought it was weird when people would be polyamorous. But I felt strongly about two people recently, one of them is the girl I talked about and another is another girl that I met earlier than her... recently we discussed having a sexual friendship but not sure it's going to actually happen... she's a good friend by now though, we hang out quite a bit, but recently I decided I was just going to try to be her friend because it's less confusing to me (not because of two people but because she's sent a lot of mixed messages). I feel at peace with it now although I do still like her, if she wants to go there sometime when we're hanging out, I'll definitely let it happen. I care about them both, it's just like two entirely separate relationships, both of which are something and unrelated to each other.
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That's cool, a little different to my situation though. I am growing attached to my pretty lady as well now though. I've started missing her when she's not around and whilst that's not new to me I haven't experienced it in a while. Looking forward to getting my post surgery sympathy visit, few back rubs and that=D She's my little baby lion:o

But yeah, today I am grateful for the NHS. It's surgery day!
 
Celebratory Falafel sandwich with my mother,brought to tears at the little bar table when I walked in, seeing me clean
 
For all I have and for those around me that love me despite my failings, I'm truly blessed <3
 
I will always be thankful for my family. My bf is away for a month so my dad told me i can sleep over as much as i want. They even prepared my old room for me and my dad visited me last night to check if i was ready to sleep ♡♡
 
One of my friends who crashed into an 18 wheeler and was in a coma for about 3 weeks is doing okay. The coma was medically induced and I did not know that when I called him and found out what happened from his mother. I was sure he would die and thought the coma was due to brain damage. I found out maybe ten days ago he was awake. I was thinking it could have been a suicide attempt or intoxicated driving (I met him and we became friends in the mental institution after I tried to kill myself). That was not the case. His blood ammonia level was too high, a result of stage 4 liver cirrhosis from his alcoholism - elevated levels of ammonia can cause loss of consciousness. I was going to post about it here on Bluelight the night after I found out when I was feeling suicidal (those feelings did not last long - I handled it pretty well) but I have posted about too many bad things here before and it just seemed like too many bad things had happened and I did not want everyone to think I was making things up and lying.

I have been able to continue gradually reducing my dose/use of benzodiazepines - I do still have a long ways to go though and after that I work on the opiates.

My mom got her test results back and not only is her cancer not growing, but her heart function has also improved. The drug that suppresses the cancer growth (not normal chemo, doesn't make you sick - it targets cells with a certain genetic mutation) causes heart function impairment and she has to stop taking it sometimes while her heart function recovers - I do not recall her heart function ever improving while she was still on the drug before, in the past it only improved when she took breaks from it. She has had stage 4 breast cancer (it spread to her lungs 4 or 5 years ago and is no longer in the breast) for close to 8 years now - stage 4 at diagnosis - a very small percentage of patients last that long. She was given like a 20% of lasting 5 years if I remember right.

Lucky (my raccoon) hurt his right hand, I noticed him having trouble walking on it yesterday - not a good thing - but I have been able to figure out that it is in the hand/foot and not further up the arm/leg, that there is nothing sticking in it, and it doesn't seem to be anything serious. I was worried it could have been broken and am glad he let me check it out this morning. He would not let me feel it yesterday but he put his hand in mine earlier and I was able to feel it good - being sure to be extra gentle with it.
 
For my soberness. One day at the time, many times..
Thankful for the strength during the worst withdraw ever in 20 years!
Thankful for realizing and understanding that being sober and 'normal' on methadone is not really what I wanted for my life..That was dedicated to Blue Light!
Happy to have a tomorrow to look for :)
 
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