Mellabopper
Bluelighter
i sit, afraid to share
knowing that you might read it
or maybe even just hoping that you do
knowing you will
its all the same
so confused yet so perfect
everything just suddenly fits into place
i cannot describe how you make me feel
at your calls my heart jumps
i have never met anyone like you
in my whole lifetime
i must apologize though
for the fact that i am on my defenses
so many times in the past
things have started much similar to this
emotions toyed with in hope it would work out
but more often than not i am shattered
left in an empty chaos with nowhere to go
no one to turn to
and every time i add one layer of armor
i do not want to feel like i have in the past
so i apologize for the fact that i am scared
i dont want things to turn out for the worse
because this is something i have wanted for so long
and never did i actually think i would have a chance
not with you
so i close my eyes and my mind rushes back to that night
where our lips first met
words cannot describe it
how it was to finally kiss you
and i melted in your arms
but still my past haunts me
and i remain afraid
knowing now that things will never be the same, no matter how things turn out
and possibly that is what scares me the most
because you...
how do i say this
you make me want to be better
you make me want to not let you down
and i'm afraid i will
i'm afraid that i wont be everything you want me to be
and i know it shouldnt matter
but you i do not want to disappoint
i've never met anyone like you before
was it fate?
if we were both cast into another place
would we have found each other regardless?
or am i just a dreamer
am i thinking too deeply here
about what i have felt, what i feel
am i taking this too serious
is it something?
what if its nothing?
i'll admit i'm scared
i dont want to lose you
i dont want to get too attached
i dont know anything anymore
i'm in such a confusion
my feelings are taking over
and my mind has left
a million thoughts rush through me
each one bringin a new fear
a new hope
so into the unknown i cast my heart
please use it well
for it has gone through hard times
and it is very delicate still
one more blow to it might break it forever
but i trust you
and i hope you will do what is right
knowing that you might read it
or maybe even just hoping that you do
knowing you will
its all the same
so confused yet so perfect
everything just suddenly fits into place
i cannot describe how you make me feel
at your calls my heart jumps
i have never met anyone like you
in my whole lifetime
i must apologize though
for the fact that i am on my defenses
so many times in the past
things have started much similar to this
emotions toyed with in hope it would work out
but more often than not i am shattered
left in an empty chaos with nowhere to go
no one to turn to
and every time i add one layer of armor
i do not want to feel like i have in the past
so i apologize for the fact that i am scared
i dont want things to turn out for the worse
because this is something i have wanted for so long
and never did i actually think i would have a chance
not with you
so i close my eyes and my mind rushes back to that night
where our lips first met
words cannot describe it
how it was to finally kiss you
and i melted in your arms
but still my past haunts me
and i remain afraid
knowing now that things will never be the same, no matter how things turn out
and possibly that is what scares me the most
because you...
how do i say this
you make me want to be better
you make me want to not let you down
and i'm afraid i will
i'm afraid that i wont be everything you want me to be
and i know it shouldnt matter
but you i do not want to disappoint
i've never met anyone like you before
was it fate?
if we were both cast into another place
would we have found each other regardless?
or am i just a dreamer
am i thinking too deeply here
about what i have felt, what i feel
am i taking this too serious
is it something?
what if its nothing?
i'll admit i'm scared
i dont want to lose you
i dont want to get too attached
i dont know anything anymore
i'm in such a confusion
my feelings are taking over
and my mind has left
a million thoughts rush through me
each one bringin a new fear
a new hope
so into the unknown i cast my heart
please use it well
for it has gone through hard times
and it is very delicate still
one more blow to it might break it forever
but i trust you
and i hope you will do what is right