Hi there,
I've been addicted to opiates for 4 years and am finally at the point where I need to choose to start living a real life again or just collapse into some faded meaningless existence for good. I want to pick the first one, and I'm going to.
You see, for me I realize now that I have come to a point where I fully equate fun, happiness, contentment, with being on drugs. It's really depressing, I literally can't go back and put myself into the shoes of myself five years ago, enjoying a regular life. I mean I know for sure I was reasonably happy and had fun like anyone else, but I just simply can't relate to that now.
I live a meaningless life right now. It's just a bland routine which has become pretty much intolerable with drugs, so I know very well I need to shake everything up completely.
If anyone had any specific ideas or suggestions on activities or ways to pass the time, things that got your mind away from old desires and which helped you get back into the game after an addiction I'd be very appreciative to hear about it. I want to find some things I can hopefully derive some real long-term satisfaction from, but I've just decayed into this boring guy with no substance to my existence and I need something.
I'm depressed now and I hope so badly that if I do things right I can kick this garbage and come out the other end with a new drive in me, but I'm really scared that I might go from a depressed addict to a crushed regular guy who without his longtime crutch can't even find a reason to get out of bed in the morning.
Thanks very much, I really do appreciate anyone taking the time to reply,
I've been addicted to opiates for 4 years and am finally at the point where I need to choose to start living a real life again or just collapse into some faded meaningless existence for good. I want to pick the first one, and I'm going to.
You see, for me I realize now that I have come to a point where I fully equate fun, happiness, contentment, with being on drugs. It's really depressing, I literally can't go back and put myself into the shoes of myself five years ago, enjoying a regular life. I mean I know for sure I was reasonably happy and had fun like anyone else, but I just simply can't relate to that now.
I live a meaningless life right now. It's just a bland routine which has become pretty much intolerable with drugs, so I know very well I need to shake everything up completely.
If anyone had any specific ideas or suggestions on activities or ways to pass the time, things that got your mind away from old desires and which helped you get back into the game after an addiction I'd be very appreciative to hear about it. I want to find some things I can hopefully derive some real long-term satisfaction from, but I've just decayed into this boring guy with no substance to my existence and I need something.
I'm depressed now and I hope so badly that if I do things right I can kick this garbage and come out the other end with a new drive in me, but I'm really scared that I might go from a depressed addict to a crushed regular guy who without his longtime crutch can't even find a reason to get out of bed in the morning.
Thanks very much, I really do appreciate anyone taking the time to reply,