Time Of Death 12:35am / 18-3-04

[buzzn_all_nite_long]

Its Common Knowledge
That Everyone Around The World
Is Feeling This Pain
They Need To Be Heard

But No-One Is Listening
To What They Have To Say
That’s Why Their Lives
Are Ending This Way

You Pretend To Know
What They Are On About
But You Cant Hear There Damage
Even When They Try To Shout

It Feels So Pointless
Living This Life
You Do One But Thing
Then Your In Strife

Can You Understand What I’m Telling You
Can You Feel My Pain
Can You Know My Doubts
Can You See My Shame

All They Do Is Criticise
Coz Their Lives Are Just As Fucked
They Make Theirs Look Better
By Making Yours Look Mucked

My Arms Are Bleeding
The Blood Is Flowing
They Are Fucking Me Up
Without Even Knowing

As I Write These Words
My Head Is Spinning
Yes, Fuck You World
You Know You Are Winning

In This Game Of Life
That Everyone Is Playing
These Innocent Kids
You Continue Slaying

If You Knew What It Felt
To Be In My Shoes
Between Your Life And Mine
I Know Exactly Whose You’d Choose

My Hand Is Cramping
My Eyes Are Getting Sore
Im Sorry My Loved Ones
I Cant Take Anymore

The End Is Drawing Now
Drawing To A Close
Im Sorry Asshole
Im No Longer One Of Your Hoes

You’ll Have To Find Another Chick
To Head Fuck With
Cos Its Over With Me
That’s Just It

Im Feeling It Now
As I Take My Last Breath
This Is What Its Like
I Wont Survive Death

By Jessi Miller xo
18-3-04

 

[dr seuss]

as a piece of writing this is really powerful. check your PMs.

 

[ebeneezer_geeza]

very, very powerful and moving.

 

[Chaos Butterfly]

^^ Definitely.

Thanks for sharing this

CB.

 

[pinwheel]

You know, I liked it too, but there a couple of lines that don't agree with each other, and maybe this'll help you:

"Its Common Knowledge
That Everyone Around The World
Is Feeling This Pain
They Need To Be Heard"

I think everyone around the world feels this pain too.

"If You Knew What It Felt
To Be In My Shoes
Between Your Life And Mine
I Know Exactly Whose You’d Choose"

I think you (or the writer) is trying to say, "You'd choose your life, in a second." Well, I'd choose my life in a second, too. Not because I fear being in the writer's shoes, but I just want to own my own stuff.

I think the writer would choose to be in her shoes too...

 

[tha_krazy_pawtie_kid]

that was such a personal thing and i am really honored that i was able to read it. thank you.

 

[hmm]

Yep... sounds like a young woman stressed.

To me this isn't even about suicide, it's about how women react to simple problems like getting fucked over. No reason really, just thoughts of doing personal harm insead of shooting her asshole boyfriend in the knee so it couldn't be attempted murder.

"Its Common Knowledge
That Everyone Around The World
Is Feeling This Pain
They Need To Be Heard"


Most people over 30 don't get this sort of teen "the world is in pain!" stress. It is also common that people under 25 don't WANT to be heard nor do they have the experience in life to say anything worth hearing for the most part. Then when those who can help do listen, "You can't understand!" lol


"If You Knew What It Felt
To Be In My Shoes
Between Your Life And Mine
I Know Exactly Whose You’d Choose"


I don't know.. ever met someone who had no face because of a fire? etc etc.. Ever known someone who died at 30 and NEVER known love or what it was like to be with someone?

grass is always greener blah blah..

nice poem! thanks for sharing it. If it is personal then your really stressing over normal stuff 28-30+ (men anyway) people don't give much thought to.

 

[buzzn_all_nite_long]

hehe thanks for the replies

it was just some thoughts i had, so i wrote them down.
it was either that, or doing something stupid. i know it didnt really make sense, but either does my mind at the moment. thats for the analysing, but not really necessary.
luv jessi xo

 

[killarava2day]

glad your all good, was kinda worried when I first read it...

Take care and, remember, the only constant in life is change., things always get better (or worse, depends where on the cycle you are)

 

[dr seuss]

moved as per request

 

[E-girl]

this was so sad.
it kind of reminded me of a scene in The Rules of Attraction.

 

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

whoa.

so i wrote them down. it was either that, or doing something stupid.

i'm glad you wrote them down.

 

[blahblahblah]

Interesting, to me it sounded like a death (overdose) of a loved one.

 

[Zan-fan]

Thanks for sharing those words. They are hitting pretty close to home about now,that's pretty powerful stuff. I'm glad to see I am never alone, thanks to BL. Keep on keeping on.

By the way, I'm glad you chose to share your writing instead of opting for you alternate option!

 

[j6m6e6]

^^^^ Im with you Zan, I can totally realte to this one. I would like to read it out loud to my friend, but I think if I had to say those words I might start a flood from my eyes! Thanks for sharing that, it is a very powerful piece.

 

[.dR spgeddi]

your best work!
dig deep babe... coz there's quality inspiration down there for sure.
but keep on top of that too, hey?

 

[LahLahGatecrasher]

Every human being goes through the stage of not knowing there place in this world, espeically with men. Remember your only young take this time to look after yourself, get the job you wanted or the course you wanted to study, save that money you want to save for that trip oversea's, you have you selective few friends who are truely here for you. Loved the poem, I know that you would never do anything stupid to yourself, I know we all think of it at some stages in our lives, who you have to much to live for even though you cant see it!

Sharnzxoxo