This post here I felt worried for you when I read it. I can’t really speak for others but maybe others felt the same way? Anyways, I know you said you don’t want to stop doing what you’re doing … just be careful okay? I’m not saying that in any judgmental way whatsoever. I know I haven’t really (just happened) to talk to you much but still would never want to see anything bad happen to you amigo, you know what I mean.
Just remember to try to be a bit more careful is all I’ll ask of you okay, it’s better to go slow and take less than take too much. I’m not saying I’m an Angel (even though that’s my name lol) but for real … want to keep seeing you around and okay …. Okay
I definitely agree with you when you say that you found it rather concerning to read his original post, measuring drugs by the "spoonful" is goofy as hell. Buy a scale. If you're so used to something you can eyeball it, that's fine, I can eyeball cannabis in a bowl, hell there have been points in my life where I can eyeball ketamine relative to my own tolerance, but that's just between myself and ketamine, a subjective relationship. Eyeballs are are not scales, and they're bad at trying to act as such in my personal experiences. About 6 weeks ago my scale broke, and I was dead set on consuming an assblasting amount of allylescaline, 2C-B, LSD, and DOM that I had thankfully precapped to 5mg per cap. I poured the allylescaline in a large container of liquid, knowing I had somewhere between 300-500mg total. Took about a third of that liquid. I poured the 2C-B powder into a large container of liquid, and once homogenized I knew I had put ~500mg of 2C-B in there all together, so I took maybe 1/20th of the total liquid's contents. I added a few other things like THC, tianeptine, dropped some liquid acid in my eyes and dove into one of the most intense trips of my life. It was one of the most transformative things I've ever experienced, and it was done with reckless abandon of dosing, but could've been a well recorded tale of XXX.XXmg Allylescaline + XX.XXmg 2C-B + Whatever else, if I had taken better notes. I was confident that the material I was working with was in a similar dose range to what I'd been using weeks past, and I was repeating as such.
Doing stupid shit like this leaves you in situations like I was in, where a friend opened my fridge one day and saw an IBC cream soda with "LSD" scrawled on the lid, yet did not notice and had a wild day as a result. There is currently a 2 liter bottle of Starry containing enough etizolam to black out probably 350+ people right now, less than 5 feet away from me. It's known not to touch shit that's hidden around my desk, it's hidden around there for a reason. I have conditioned those in my life to know that if a drink is near me, don't touch it. My fiancee recently consumed something along the lines of 2-3.5 full grams of THC-O acetate orally without realizing it, because I'd forgotten to add lecithin to the gatorade (lecithin helps to emulsify the oiliness of the THC-O in the aqueous solution of gatorade) I intended to use as a cannabinoid taper over the next month. He knew it was dosed, I warned him. He figured it'd be a normal edible. It was not. Incidents like this can cause serious problems and it's important to do your best to avoid them wherever possible.
People like you are the reason these things get banned.
I understand people like negrogesic in cases like this, and I've been the type of person that he's talking about here obviously. What is important is that we treat our relationships to these substances as an exploration of the use of the exogenous to alter the endogenous and that we do our best to take notes in ways that can be replicated, where confounding factors are mentioned, where set and setting is described as adequately as possible, and where we all try to gain a better undrstanding of what we can do for ourselves with these things by sharing our subjective experiences with them in as useful of a manner as possible.
I used to be an absolutely meticulous, "weigh each bag that comes in, weigh the contents, calibrate the scale, weigh it again" type of person, until one day my fiancee (at the time boyfriend) blacked out on flualp and fucking annihilated a ton of things that were measured, and are now straight up mysteries. I now have no idea how many milligrams of miprocin are in the ~120 caps I precapped. Nor do I know how much etizolam is in this amber vial I've been tipping small swigs out of into 2 liters, but
god, it sure is heady. It's important that when things like this exist, they're treated more like magical items in a Dungeons & Dragons campaigns, where they are kept stored away in dark corners and crevices, barely touched, labeled with an esoteric charm yet with clarity in the information known of the substance. There exist vape cartridges in the state of Maine that I've made that contain fucked up things like 25% THC-H, or 15% THC-P-O Acetate, and they used to be labeled as such, but last I saw the THC-H/THC-PO cart it was just labeled "The Yerkster" by this dumbass hippie I used to live with who kept it as a sort of magic wand, a dab pen where he would say "a single hit would send you to another realm".
I fear that perhaps the real solution is simply to keep everything low dosed and weak, and just work with it from there, as people seem oddly prone to making dosing mistakes, how can we try to shape a drug culture that works around that in the best way possible? Volumetric liquid dosing only goes so far when a reddit thread of a 15 year old cracking 20 old vape carts he heated with a Harbor Freight heat gun, onto a spoonful of peanut butter, saying "See you guys on the flip side", is what we're working with in some cases.
