throwing it back in your face.

[Furnace]

I've wandered, actually.
I've looked around, trying to make myself
feel like I'm human again.
I'm not saying that you made me feel
like a human, but you did make me feel
more special than I usually did.
Surrounding myself around people who care
for me, but it's strange when you're still
lonely in a roomful of drunken friends.
A dream about a girl that disrespected my
feelings towards her.
The other night where I ran into her former stalker, who in turn, ruined things for me.
Sometimes I just want out of all this fucking
machinery that keeps running and pumping
its exhaust into my lungs,
replacing my need for air.
I try
filling the
(w)hole with
drugs,
sex,
booze,
books,
movies,
music,
dancing,
love,
hurt,
pain,
but there still remains...
a heart on the mend,
a mind that is trying to forget,
and a soul that continues to search.
----------------
I hate dreams like those.
"Ahh, those two seconds after I wake up before I realize why I'm sleeping on the lawn"
- Homer Simpson

 

[Sara Tonin]

This was wonderful! Although at first it seems painful, a soul in search of something or someone can bring you more creativity and happiness than you have ever known. I wish this for you

 

[ice-9]

and life goes on, whether you want it to or not.

 

[Furnace]

Thanks for your words.
It was a dream that I was thankful to wake up from...if that means anything.

 

[harraser]

nice work. sometimes you need the pain,even though its not pleasant, to make you get over it. you wouldnt take life anywhere near as seriously if nothing hurt and youde fuck up so many more good things. nice writing tho