Hello everyone. I'm new to this forum, so please feel free to add/give feedback to the things I do wrong...
I just recent took my last line of speed (as I've told myself before) - it's the fifth or sixth time overall, and I'm not planning on ever doing it again. Because I'm not sure what I am doing, and it has only been out of being pressured by people close to me, while under the effect of alcohol. It's funny, really... Before I met this "friend" that had all these contacts, I hadn't even laid my eyes on something remotely similar. I had always told myself that "I would not even try out of curiosity." But all that changed...
I can say that I regret. This is not something I picture myself doing.
I'm not having any downers, and of that I am glad. But I'm worried about the after effects. I haven't been taking any large doses, the largest one was 2 lines in a day. And it went 3-4 weeks apart, then months. So it has been very, very little. I've had great pleasures with it, and literally no downsides, except the paranoia of getting irreversible brain damage - because my brain is all I really have.
I've read around a lot, out of fear. And I haven't really found anything to soothe my thoughts. I'm worried about the overall effects, and how long it will take to recover completely. Some says that one line is enough for irreversible damage. Some say it's harmless unless you're a long-time addict. This is confusing...
I've seen people discussing the effects on dopamine and serotonin, and how it will balance after taking speed. Will you never truly recover / balance out? How much damage can 5-6 lines spread out over nearly 2 years have done?
I am not sure if I am doing this correctly, if something is wrong - please feel free to correct me.
I just recent took my last line of speed (as I've told myself before) - it's the fifth or sixth time overall, and I'm not planning on ever doing it again. Because I'm not sure what I am doing, and it has only been out of being pressured by people close to me, while under the effect of alcohol. It's funny, really... Before I met this "friend" that had all these contacts, I hadn't even laid my eyes on something remotely similar. I had always told myself that "I would not even try out of curiosity." But all that changed...
I can say that I regret. This is not something I picture myself doing.
I'm not having any downers, and of that I am glad. But I'm worried about the after effects. I haven't been taking any large doses, the largest one was 2 lines in a day. And it went 3-4 weeks apart, then months. So it has been very, very little. I've had great pleasures with it, and literally no downsides, except the paranoia of getting irreversible brain damage - because my brain is all I really have.
I've read around a lot, out of fear. And I haven't really found anything to soothe my thoughts. I'm worried about the overall effects, and how long it will take to recover completely. Some says that one line is enough for irreversible damage. Some say it's harmless unless you're a long-time addict. This is confusing...
I've seen people discussing the effects on dopamine and serotonin, and how it will balance after taking speed. Will you never truly recover / balance out? How much damage can 5-6 lines spread out over nearly 2 years have done?
I am not sure if I am doing this correctly, if something is wrong - please feel free to correct me.