ChickonFire826
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Oct 13, 2025
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1. I've skimmed Bluelight for a long while, a year maybe several, can't really recall. Ive just only now registered because this is where the people are at who know what I'm going through with first hand experience and therefore able to show real empathy sans the underlying judgements and unspoken expectations and also see that the the scale from black to white is dominated by 98 different shades of gray between.
2. I don't recall how/who/what originally brought me here.
3. Since i first learned drugs were a thing as a kid in one of those "don't do drugs" school presentations, i became intrigued with how different things could alter the mind and the various experiences became a lifelong bucket list I never pursued with intent, just crossed off as I happened across them with the right persons and safe environment, often disappointed. I haven't done much, addys, weed, molly, ecstasy, LSD, coke, meth maybe one or two others im forgetting.
4. Ive tried different things using various ROAs, oral, snort, inhale, boofing, injecting usually just trying to see if it would get me just to feel any effect with a bit of success or if i was already getting a little something how a different ROA could sometimes completely alter the experience.
One of the issues im having rn is that this past year ive gone from occasional recreational user to a true addict unable to stop it from running my life and (this next bit is just a fact, i 100% own the very deliberate choice I made knowing the risk/guarantee of addiction and if faced with those same options again, id make the same choice consequences accepted without hesitation) the road from recreational user to addict was 95% paved with the fallout from 5 separate nightmarish events dealing substantial damage to my mental well-being and recieving no help from anyone to recover, quite the opposite actually.
2. I don't recall how/who/what originally brought me here.
3. Since i first learned drugs were a thing as a kid in one of those "don't do drugs" school presentations, i became intrigued with how different things could alter the mind and the various experiences became a lifelong bucket list I never pursued with intent, just crossed off as I happened across them with the right persons and safe environment, often disappointed. I haven't done much, addys, weed, molly, ecstasy, LSD, coke, meth maybe one or two others im forgetting.
4. Ive tried different things using various ROAs, oral, snort, inhale, boofing, injecting usually just trying to see if it would get me just to feel any effect with a bit of success or if i was already getting a little something how a different ROA could sometimes completely alter the experience.
One of the issues im having rn is that this past year ive gone from occasional recreational user to a true addict unable to stop it from running my life and (this next bit is just a fact, i 100% own the very deliberate choice I made knowing the risk/guarantee of addiction and if faced with those same options again, id make the same choice consequences accepted without hesitation) the road from recreational user to addict was 95% paved with the fallout from 5 separate nightmarish events dealing substantial damage to my mental well-being and recieving no help from anyone to recover, quite the opposite actually.
