This sucks

Apparently 2 of my meth dealers died in the weeks leading up to Christmas. One died of a heroin overdose, leaving behind a couple of little kids, and the other died trying to run from the cops - he crashed his motorcycle and was pronounced dead on arrival. Feeling pretty crap over it all, not only because it's put a huge dent on my supply, but because 2 lives have been needlessly wasted... they were only in their 30's.

 

Wow. Please think about all the stuff that's been going as a sign that it might be time for you to stop. It's awful that 2 lives were taken, but it could be a good thing that it will be now harder for you to get more.

Take care of yourself, hon.

 

I'm with Spork. The accident, the damage from the accident killing your high, the charges and now your sources being taken fromyou all seem to be glaring signs that the powers that be (whatever they are) think its time for you to move on away from the bullshit and start LIVING your new life with your beautiful new fiance

 

And I'm with both of them.......
It sounds like it is the perfect time for a fresh start and the laying of a healthy foundation for your future marriage!!

 

I think you're right, everyone. Me and DW are planning to score some meth for New Year's Eve (as every self-confessed meth-head does!), but after that I'm tempted just to stop. At least for a while. My financial situation is terrible, I'm struggling to find dealers (most have been killed, busted, or simply disappeared off the face of the earth!), and I'm already facing a number of charges. Maybe it's time to kick the meth monster.