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take this is as the ending of this now my last tears i will evere cry over him and anything

http://youtu.be/01vO_P0dMQc sophia

what happened to y 13th birthday present john wagstaff stole that yet you hang around with him what happened to the lasst tape you gave me out side the minster in york your fucking preciousness that is that animal fukcing joe stole it then taped over it

your family taht you didnt even have or need till you walked out me ruined everything up you just claim i am not who iam why because i slit my wrists and throat yet i opend that gate on my 22 birthday adn what did you do fuck all


this is my suicide note to you john squires and i bet you sat their smiling like the fucking coked up sicko you are fuck you fuck ian brown fuck alan wren and manii i was you baby brother

that giant squid stole your wife and kid but the fish left us alone on you just left me alone from 13 till today and i need you more tahn you could vere under stand john i loved you were all i had at first till lizzy came in and you let bones and my father destroy it because of your sickening jealousy it wasnt my fault she was falling for me remember the fights over you how it took you sidfe most of the time i wish i never had junk cunt


[video=youtube_share;nSLk6QeyXks]http://youtu.be/nSLk6QeyXks[/video] walked out on me at 13 but then a very rare chance i bumped into him 93 and that was it till 99 and he just pretended noot know me guess he had chris helmes and his lies and after the murdering cunt helmes get his bullshit and claws in that was it a john last chance and last words john2457224577 ok and even that twat who knows he aint you this is good bye this time take it or let me go
 
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sorry blue light but something has gone to far this time made of stone channel 4 tomorrow night and not one thing about me or lizzy is just vile we are real she is the n sugar spun sister she is the messiah i take about in love spreads not ian browns bollocks its about her elizabeth my dear is not about the queen and all across the sands is about losing my baby sister

as for sally cinnamon that's about my primary school teacher and how when i told hear bout the sexual abuse i suffered as a 3/4/5 year old how she just vanished not fenick as people try to say but sally not penny the kind napped her and raped and torched her for doing the right thing

yes all fantasy isnt it but what the fuck do i care any more i am out of here very very soon ive got a gangster wanting to off me and il do it myself as soon as charlie is safe

so keep out of it with ring the coppers and likes because il play dumb and say split personality's

just understand this is true and i know it makes you all hate me even more than ever for it

ive got rid of nonce rings after nonce rings trying to make things right with him but to availe
 
[video=youtube_share;yIQwB6Sa1Nc]http://youtu.be/yIQwB6Sa1Nc [/video] heartless am i the guy write some of the most amazing music but ever since 13 all ive got was bullied over it and called murder [video=youtube_share;cixG7Verqkc]http://youtu.be/cixG7Verqkc[/video] and this is why i turned that way pushing people away from me because all that follows me is misery

i lost every thing and i lost every one i ever loved ok iv spent my my whole life alone just abut and i cant take any more yes i am sat here crying now second time i an week first to times in over a year that this has come out me
 
like i said sorry blur light but i am the end of my rope i having ready and this is my last call to him if he has any heart left in him i hope he finds it because mine is dying fast
[video=youtube_share;M0whFVTxZs8]http://youtu.be/M0whFVTxZs8[/video][video=youtube_share;BBsazIACpYM]http://youtu.be/BBsazIACpYM[/video] i guess robing a child was to easy swhen you can just deny his existence
 
no wonder i hated you crying my self ti sleep on a Friday night first tfifriday then when you slagged me off on the word to fall backwards in the arms of your band living just a few miles up the road on top of the hill at stitnam building your little empire of house and studios knowing no one whould ever tell me thats where you were the one time i reached out to and it was how i wasnt ed the money the money lizzy left to me the money you owe me fro when i signed over the 9.6million in92 or the 10storey love songs 10p of my weetabix but no you never had it and why becaue you get off on my misery well this is your last chance squire ive got gangsters wanting to kill me for you amd them sefls and you the alone one who can stop this but tyou wont and we all know this squire

[video=youtube_share;kmAZWKdCvmI]http://youtu.be/kmAZWKdCvmI[/video] you know no one ever cared for you like i did in the end not even lizzy loved you like i did but thats doesnt mean shit its not the book of the roses that you wrote its the dreams i wrote down and the videos of them which you refuse to let any one see because its shows you up doesnt it squire

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You alright there, FG? I'm sensing a bit of dissociation afoot - your posts are a wee bit disjointed and hard to make out. I may have gotten it totally wrong but sounds like you're having a bit of a rough night. Hang on in there and I know it's not really for me to say but maybe consider laying off the redoses. Dissociatives (I know I'm guessing a bit but I think I can spot dissociation when I see it - years of practice ;)) can be pretty dark at times and if you're having a bit of a rough night they may well be adding to that. I hope (and believe) you will feel a bit better once it's worn off a bit and you've maybe gotten some sleep. My apologies if I've misunderstood or gotten the wrong end of a stick <3

(music selections are thoroughly approved of - although you are welcome to the deicide, my delicate lil lugs wouldn't be up to it with a hangover like this ;))
 
now to my frist real album by them the second coming [video=youtube_share;SU71tDrOjfs]http://youtu.be/SU71tDrOjfs [/video] yes totally heatless aint i squire nothing i wrote was ever goo enough shame seeing double the songs were good enough for stewart fletcher and others to steal [video=youtube_share;KoPeS-8tgWo]http://youtu.be/KoPeS-8tgWo[/video] listen closely and it say plaxton iam begging you unless ian has had it removed by now
 
Is it song lyrics or wtf are u writing my friend?

like i said sorry blur light but i am the end of my rope i having ready and this is my last call to him if he has any heart left in him i hope he finds it because mine is dying fast
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nothing disjointed this is one last cfy out to him not to abandon me this tine this is a true tail ok i am the boy in the picture lost his wife and kid refures to me and lizzy and i am at my ending shambles i cant take nay more of this people laugh at the mad man and his ravelings of thing people know to be true just get off on denying this is a cry for help but it aint coming form him yet again he can just sit back and say i throw it all away well fuck him and this world around me today i am ill from this and i aint get better i loved him he was my brother when i had no one or anything just tom walk away and take every godl digging piece of scum with him

[video=youtube_share;JxWohpJfCUw]http://youtu.be/JxWohpJfCUw[/video] time for the sheriff hutton album tunes [video=youtube_share;KEcmKG1q9Ok]http://youtu.be/KEcmKG1q9Ok[/video] ask him who mark devine is and what suicide drive is about bet he knows him and i just get blacked out or called all sorts of sick shit

iam swinging from a tree i was the one saw him hang his self form it
 
sorry but good night and not try to understand or cheer me up this is game over tonight ive had enough i am in pain you cant understand never will

thanks for getting me this far and love to you all but its here its over iam out of this place at last
 
foolsgold said:
sorry but good night and not try to understand or cheer me up this is game over tonight ive had enough i am in pain you cant understand never will

thanks for getting me this far and love to you all but its here its over iam out of this place at last
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Christ, i really hope you mean that metaphorically and not literally. Do I understand correctly that you wrote a lot of the Roses music then they fucked you over for it? I've got a mate who works at the park at the back of Ian Brown's place, I could get him to twat him for you if you like, or set fire to his house or something ;)

Sorry, I don't want to make light of what sounds like a horrible situation you're going through at the moment. Please try and hang in there and don't do anything rash. Take care man <3
 
What F.U.B.A.R said without the firebombing bit (when will I ever find that mysterious arrow key).

Hold hard F.G....alot of people do care what happens to you and how you are. :?
 
foolsgold said:
sorry but good night and not try to understand or cheer me up this is game over tonight ive had enough i am in pain you cant understand never will

thanks for getting me this far and love to you all but its here its over iam out of this place at last
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You got a lot of folk thinking of you FG mate and we all hope you get through this and come out the other side.
Take care mate
 
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