Thinking of the Past

Only leads to sadness. Nostalgia is such a fucking waste of time. Eat shit.

The past always seems better when viewed from the present. The bad gets cut out & the good glossed over. After 15 I turned it to shit & only looked back to mourn.

I cling to that city, because I have this distorted view that once I am there, life will be good. I will be happy. That's irrational, and I recognise that, but it's all I have. One day I will live there & I will be happy.

Well, I must be...

 

I'm trying, Maya. There is only one place in the world where I see myself being happy, and it's all I have.



I'm trying