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Things you don't/won't miss about doing dope

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helloboysandgirls

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yeah yeah i know if you're like me there's probably more things that you will miss than you won't. Here's the things i don't miss about being a professional dope fiend, list yours.


- NUMBER 1Waking up in the morning and having to figure out how i'm going to get out of the gate.

- Holes in all my clothes from nodding out smoking cigarettes.

- Embarassed as hell when I have company over, trying to explain how my bathroom floor, carpet, blankets, sheets, furniture got all burnt up, "how come you can't keep a grip on your Newport?" lol

- Right arm sore to the point where I can't even wipe my own ass with it (i'm right handed) because I done fucked around and hit a nerve trying to pump

- Bank account in the negative the day after I got paid

- Lost another job because I can't stop taking those three hour lunch breaks to go cop



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Are you referring exclusively to dope (heroin)?

I could list a few things, but I'm into meth and benzos, not heroin.
 
^ i feel you man, when you're sick it's like it's totally different kind of cold, like you can feel the chill in your bones. I won't even think of detoxing in the winter because of it
 
The list could go on, but here are a few in my case. The cat and mouse game with the police, worrying about getting low quality dope, and the withdrawal symptoms, especially the chills.
 
It would take me all day, but...

-Wasting all your money
-Being a slave to the dopeman
-Being a worthless junky not living up to any obligations or commitments
-Being super shady to your family/friends/yourself
-The actual act of physically sticking yourself with a needle (which I now find disgusting)
-Not being able to go on vacation or do anything really because you need to plan out your dope supply and you have no motivation to do anything anyway
-Your dick not working/no sex drive
-Looking yellow/sallowish/all disgusting
 
Catchin a panic hard enough to make your heart bust out of your chest and sweat gettin all hot and steamy on the back of your neck every time you even step inside a police station or court house for shit that aint even related to you or a crime you did

Having to worry every time you drive anywhere when a cop get behind you , even if you aint copping, even if you aint carryin dope, becuz A, maybe you gonna look high to him and catch a DWI or B, cuz you know you always pretty careful but you never know if theres a empty dope bag that fell down somewhere in the crack between your seats, or a needle cap somewhere that you forgot about, and theres rubber bands all over the floor of your car that you didnt even realize, how you can never feel 100% completely innocent around cops as a junkie even when you aint ridin dirty

Sittin in traffic on the way to go cop, bein stuck behind th person drivin 25 in a 40mph area, your car breakin down on the drive over, and all the 10000 things you have to do before you finally get your dope...How its never just, get the money, and cop...its, get money, go to the bank to cash a check that they might or might not let you cash, so you gotta go to the check cashing place instead, then stopping and returning 5 things at CVS so you can get a few extra bucks, then going to buy minutes for your phone becuz u couldnt even call your boy yet cuz you was broke, then gettin ahold of him and driving to the spot, and so on and on and on....

How on your car, there is always something, like a tail light or a brake light or a headlight thats burned out, but you cant afford to replace it cuz your money is all going to your dope, so you make yourself into a moving target for police cuz not only are you drivin around the dope spots but you also got something to make you stand out and give them a legit reason to pull you over and harass u, so you constantly "goin into battle" with a disatvantage right from the start...Knowing that that little 5 or 6 dollar bulb, is the difference between you riding thru, only worrying about the wrong place, wrong time police encounter, or the reason that you are gonna get stopped that night and possibly go to jail for a long time. The stakes are so high, and you cant even fuckin get ONE bag less so you got the money to repair the brake light, even when it means that you could lose everything over it, becuz youd rather risk it and get the extra bag than fix it and know that they aint got a REAL reason to pull you over, only a bullshit one. how the dopehead logic is so fucked up and backwards

I could go on and on forever....
 
Haha Lacey, soooo funny you say that.

My ass was driving' in Haledon yesterday and wouldn't ya know it, pulled over for busted left headlight. Officers were actually pretty nice, but it amplified the sketchiness of the rest of my trip (I'm sure you can assume where) by about 10.

P.S. I got the bundle and skipped the light 8(
 
-being a grown ass man and getting talked to all greasy by a punk ass 12 year old kid that happens to be serving.

-long sleeves on a 90 degree day

-waiting for the shop to start hitting

-running all desperate like with the crowd into the hole when they start hitting, because you know they only got 25 pills in the pack and the crowd is about 75 deep and you are not trying to wait on the next pack

-when a shop drops tees, the mayhem and shit that you go thru to get that one free tester

-riding down the ave with your girl or family and all the dope boys hollaring at you to come cop they shit, and trying to explain how you know these people
 
Not getting in depth but after my most recent bender,, the stealing/lying, the track marks, waking up sick :(, idk prettty much everything but the rush and high ( which idk now that im back in deep unless its bomb dope i dont get much of a high), but idk i plan on cutting back my use to like for now friday-sat at most, and then bi weekly, then once a month,, also gonna try after i get down to onc ea month to go back to sniffing and tonight i decided come 1/1/2010, i intend to like only ever do heroin and speed like very very very rarely like at most once every 3 months.. yeah its easier said than done but im tired of all this...
 
^ eventually being complety sober minus an occasional trip and ill smoke bud...
 
Long sleeves and turtlenecks in 80 degree weather, and the constant fear of getting pulled over, knowing I'd go to jail (and get no bail) for default warrants.
 
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