Things looking up. 4 year on methadone

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I've been taking methadone daily since i was 17. at the beginning of the year i was at 45mg liquid in the morining just to not get sick. and then whatever i could get my hands on later in the day on top of that. about 8 months ago it started to get out of hand after some family past. i was having really bad side effects. NO sex drive, couldn't eat, super sleepy all the time, (took 6 hour naps during the middle of the day) woke up with my arms asleep, couldnt go to the bathroom, no concetration. It was so bad my usually supportive girlfriend was ready to leave me.

then about 2 months ago something just.... changed. i just was over my addiction. its different than every other time ive said "I'm quitting" just like all the kids that say "their never drinking again" after a hard night of partying. they typically are boozin it up the next weekend. i dont crave it like i used to. right now i've managed to taper down to 4.5 mg in the morning and 2mg at night. it just happened i didnt have to fight it, almost like my talerance has gone down a lot. the 4.5 in the morning still gets me feeling good. and the 2mg at night scares off the sweats.

the strange/scarry thing is is that i dont know what to do with myself. i find myself reallllly bored all the time. i feel that might be a really bad thing knowing that i do drugs when im bored. i rebuild motors and work on my cars on my free time, and eat more, but i am having trouble coping with regular life.
time that i would usually be scoring or doing my dumb rituals, or fixating on when my next score will be, im sitting on the couch flipping endless reruns of judge judy, or criminal minds.

anything that you guys know of that might help me adjust?

 

[brutus]

I had a moment like that while I was on MMT around this time last year. If you feel like you are ready to quit, then stop taking methadone all together.

Find hobbies, keep yourself busy, help other addicts get sober, work out, pretty much do anything to keep the boredom at bay.

Sounds like you are finally ready to get sober, congrats man.

 

[Swimmingdancer]

BDD -> TDS

You may just need some time to get used to drugs not being the focus of your life anymore. As wiggi said, try to do things to keep you busy and things you enjoy. Try to get outside, get exercise, listen to music, engage in any hobbies or interests you have, make new friends who don't use drugs, etc. It is also helpful to practice mindfulness techniques and work on any mental health issues you may have, that were contributing factors as to why you used drugs in the first place (like if you have symptoms of anything like ADHD, anxiety or depression etc). You may also want to take some vitamins and supplements, I can recommend a list if you want. Good for you for getting down to 6.5mg of methadone a day!

 

[maxalfie]

I have recently quit using heroin after over 11 years of use. Like you I found myself not knowing what to do with my time.
I was made redundant from my job a few months ago so I didn't even have work to kill most of the daytime hours.
I found it hard to recall what I used to do to kill time before I had become an addict.
Now I force myself to go out for a walk each day, just for the fresh air and exercise as it gets depressing sitting at home all day.
I walk down to the library and look at interesting books and try to learn about our history etc.
Joining a GYM is a great way to pass time and get healthier.It all seems such an effort at first to get off yr arse and do something but you will be glad that you did