Things and Stuff

Sometimes that's what gets me through a day of obsessing about drugs. Simply the knowledge that I will obtain a variety of nice, shiny material objects as a result of not indulging in drugs and alcohol.

Yeah, its shallow but whatever it takes to get past the powerful obsession to use on certain days works for me.

The deeper aspect of my desire to stay clean is learning such positives such as:

tolerance
acceptance
honesty
willingness
open-mindedness
humility
integrity
patience

Right now, I just gotta do what is necessary.

I'll say one thing though... I'm beginning to get quite strong as an individual. This strength is coming from each challenge that I have overcome/dealt with thus far.

 

OD-
The list above builds strong character.
It reminds me of this wikipedia thing I once referenced in an email to someone about building a strong core.
I will include the link here and , I myself, found it interesting to click each of the 'list' of what makes up moral character-
Its interesting.Character

 

Thanks for the link, ocean. There are many things I need to work on to become a better person and to live a happy, peaceful life.

Not using alcohol/drugs for 81 days now has shown many areas of my character/persona that I would like to improve.

I'm realizing how selfish and self-centered I have been now and in the past. Its funny how biased we are in our own opinions of ourselves. I used to absolutely HATE myself (but cared for others). I'm still unsure if my care for others was conditional or not.

Bah, I'll investigate my past intentions at a later date. Right now I just gotta take baby steps to getting better and being a better person

 

True.
Very happy you have done so well.
I know there have been hard times, when you have thought about using- It does get easier......
Keep your head up and take care of you!