they're the benzos

[doesntmatter]

my body feels strange
my throat pinches itself closed at the back
my heart sinks
i don't really sleep
i fall between tossing and turning

they give me confidence.
they let me rest.
i feel like i used to
they seem to help

alcohol knows me well, and well...
...will never cease
so to speak.

ill take one instead
feel better, not worse i hope.

they allow me to finish what i was about to say.
i hope someday to get passed all of this. i pray i do.
its not hard to say that this isn't normal
its not hard to say a lot of things

im not addicted
yet.

its not hard to say i don't see myself
i hope someday i get passed all of this

 

[jonO_O]

you have a good voice, and it rings clear and true, honesty

I liked the way you use lines too. Why don't you try mediating poetically on other subjects, perhaps friends, nature, your inner feelings

try it when you're not feeling down, try it all the time, you'll see the improvement in your self and your writing

love