They're Lying to Me

[neversickanymore]

Not your fault.. lose the past


I'm sorry for the lose of your friend. But eventually we temporarily lose everyone.. not for good

 

[ScaredofMyself]

I don't know how to do anything.


How to function properly.


How to not fucking go insane.


Everyone here now thinks I'm a fucking asshole.


I only acted that way because no matter where I posted, I was followed and attacked.


Very first time I posted, I was insulted.


But that's whatever now. I'm just not going to contribute to things anymore.

 

[neversickanymore]

Best figure a decent amount of it out... victim much? Self pity much..

 

[ScaredofMyself]

I don't pity myself.

Im not a victim.

I'm the one whose hurt people my whole life.

I accept what I am.

 

[neversickanymore]

Getting there.. get along with yourself lately

 

[ScaredofMyself]

I've been a bit pissy. Mostly due to body spasms.

 

[neversickanymore]

Your lowering your dopamine so much.



What is the cause of the spasms

 

[ScaredofMyself]

Being uncomfortable, upset, loud noises, hearing people getting yelled at in public.


Its extremely inconvenient.

 

[neversickanymore]

I bet Sorry that you facing this. Are your other emotional responses powerful as well.

 

[Moreaux]

You have a lot going on right now. I think the best thing you can do is work with a new doctor, and STOP drinking alcohol. Alcohol may trigger a dopamine response and may initially feel good, but it quickly makes you feel bad (anger, hurt, resentments) and the more you use, the worse you feel.

You need to stop focusing on other people, it seems like you have a lot of resentments and you're so young. Focus on what you have, and what you want, and create a plan to get what you want. If you want love and happiness, you have to change your attitude. Focusing on other people isn't going to improve your life at all, it's going to make you progressively more miserable. I think your biggest focus should be getting your medications correct.

 

[ScaredofMyself]

Finding happiness is hard, when everything makes you mad.

I sometimes go weeks without my meds.

 

[simco]

I sometimes go weeks without my meds.

As others have said--with the patience of Job--taking meds isn't optional. They won't help you without sustained, use as directed.

I'm not saying this to be a dick. It's simply true. You'll feel much better if you take these medications as your doctor intends.

 

[ScaredofMyself]

I don't like the way they make me feel.