These aren't MY panties!

Sitting on the back yard patio listening to ambient-radio.de streaming "chromanova FM ambient and chillout."
Today was one of the first hot days of the year. got up into the low 90s.
The falcon is tethered to its post across the yard from where I sit with my laptop. It keeps looki0ng at me. It just made a baby-bird squack and spread its wings.

Sat night: Drank a coule of glasses of grapefruite juice, then ate some capsules of kratom extract. Unless it is put into capsules, the taste is too bitter to bear. Makes me want to vomit.After about 1 hour, I started to get an actual nod off it.This lasted a couple of hours. The whole time, had some dream sequences that were opiate-like in their vividness and abruptness, I cat really remember. Flashes of real-world imagery. Often of poeple I didn't recognize doing mundane things. Some nature scenes. One was of a beach that ran along high cliffs like those at Marin Headlands.Itchy the whole tiem.
I went for a bike ride today and came back to a bad scene. My gf met me as soon as I walked in the door.

gf: So Socko, I found some lingerie in your stuff this afternoon.

socko: !!
socko: What did you find?
gf: Panties!
Socko: I don't have any panties.
gf: They're Psycho Suzie's (Psycho Suzie was my last gf) arent' they! Why are you saving HER panties?
socko: Where were they?
gf: In one of your boxes of tools by the cat litter. Theyr'e HERS!
socko: They are not. I know what you found. Calm down.
gf Why do you still have your X's panties?
socko: Theyre not hers.
GF: WHAT?!

socko:What you found was an old rag in one of my crates of tools. It was being used as a tie-down to hold together a box of socket fittings. (I had gotten them from a box of miscellanious rags that the previous tenants had left in the basment. I was using rags from that box mostly for cleaning the grease off my bicycle chain, cleaning the toilet, etc... The rag in question was about the right size to use to tie a small socket box shut.]]
GF: BLAH BLAH BLAH!@!!@!@ BLAH BLAH BLAH!@!!@!@BLAH BLAH BLAH!@!!@!@They're Psycho Suzie's and you've been keeping them!@
socko: Wrong. If you dont' believe me, look at the size of them. THey are way too big, like size 4 or something. Psycho Suzie was wore size 2, I think.
gf: BWAHHH! [at this point she burst into tears] I'm fat, am I? I wish I could wear a size 4.


It's been a few hours, and she's still mad at me. I'll be sleeping in the back yard tonight. She wont' even let me sleep i nthe basement this time.

 

Hahaha, ahhh, life. I actually grow Kratom. Well, we farm the trees for lumber. The trees, Mitragynine Speciosa Korth is a decent wood for artchitectural mouldings and certain types of high end furniture. They require almost a freshwater mangrove type environment so we trim our rice paddies with them, and also have a lot growing wild.

Don't know if Gallery is still up, think its being discontinued but have nice pics there.

Grapefruit? Well...I shouldn't say it cause Placebo is a powerful thing and my saying it may ruin the feeling but grapefruit is only viable with codeine (a reaction between the secondary metabolite and the fruit's flavinoids). I get absolutely no benefit from Kratom but many others do, depends on the person.

There is an alakloid worth talking about, 7-Hydroxy-mitragynine. It is a true opioid (Kratom itself is NOT. Kratom is an analgesic indole, like Yohimbe). 7-Hydroxy though is only present in trace amounts. Im working on an efficient synthesis scheme for the alakloid, not only for my business but as a low cost opioid for locals. The country has a real problem with obtaining and distributing standard opiates and opioids.

 

My gf let me back in the house last night, so things weren't as bad as they seemed. I'll pick her some flowers before I go home today too and try to smooth things over.

Interesting on the kratom. I definitely felt something, but it was subtle. I had to go in a dark room and lie down and relax to feel what I felt. I'm not rulign out the placebo effect with the grapefruit juice either. Still, is enough known about this metabolic pathway of any of the compounds present in kratom to rule out any grapefruit bioflavinoid effect?

Could it be possible that certain kinds of extracts (nonpolar solvent like methanol extract?) from certain strains of kratom leaf grown under certain conditions have a high enough concentration of 7-hydroxy-mitragynine to produce an opioid effect? I'm going to have to research this. I'm just now looking at the wiki for kratom.

Also, does 7-hydroxy by itself have any recreational merit? (I'm still not sure which chemical compound in the kratom I ate caused the effect). I'm wondering how difficult it would be to either purify it from the leaf or to synthesize it.

 

Legally, at least where I'm from, being locked out of your house is considered physical abuse. It is the deprivation of what is considered an 'essential of life': shelter. Just thought that I'd put that out there.

 

She didnt' lock me out as in physically lock the door. She was just really upset and didn't want me in the house.
My x-gf, Psycho Suzie, however -- that's a different story. She really did lock me out and bolt the door and make me sleep outside numerous times. I had to sleep under my desk or on rooftops quite a bit then. That is only the tip of the iceberg with her.
Psycho Suzie is the reason I made the tag "misogyny." That relationship was psychologically damaging. Those are the experiences I need to try to get out of my system.