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Venting The Vent/Rant Thread Vs. You Silly KnuckleHeads Can Go Fly a Kite!!

Fuck the DMV!!! I've had my drivers license suspended AGAIN. Not even DUI's if that's what your thinking. 1st time about a year ago I was involved in 2 accidents (not high). They suspended. Requested a hearing and they made me jump through hoops. 3 medical forms from my 3 different doctors and then a driving test. Passed and unsuspended (it took months!). This time I had a blackout from too high of a PCP dose. My wife thought I had a stroke and called ambulance. A couple daze in hospital. They must have told the DMV about blackout and here I am again. Hearing medical forms and (hopefully drive test). I'm kinda sketch on medical forms. My current docs may not be all on my side like last time. They took a UA this time and I might pop for something. 50/50.

On the greatfullness front: grateful for my wife who I don't know what I'd do with out. Grateful for my disability checks. Grateful for my career working. For you computer game junkies I was a computer games programmer for 25 years (now retired😃). Worked on all kinds of stuff for PC, Playstation, Wii and iPhone. Dream job really. Grateful for Suboxone. Been on it 18 years (I know lots of homies try and get off it, but my docs say you can stay on it like forever. I just look at it like its just another med I need to take and I don't have any side effects). OohAh like the marines like to say.

(oh yeah, grateful for this thread which I've enjoyed reading/lurking).
 
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6am-64-14m said:
ms wastin an hour plus when i coulda been learning something here.
fuckin gettin a little teed
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You don't wanna know how many hours I wasted bingeing this past year I could have been practicing qigong instead of surfing endless music videos
 
Son of a gun it would seem because this is the truth of my cannabis use including derivatives,

When I start using any sort of THC I use it more than I eat. I live and breath it 24/7 waking up in the middle of the night using before going back to sleep even.

That is not healthy for me for any reason and if I dont find a new job or get a grip somehow but I still need to get a new one soon as my workplace eats away at my values as I don't believe in their product line first of all I will keep not wanting to stop what I know I cannot function as a whole creature with.
 
Whoa where was my head at the vape had me gone this morning psychologically speaking now it is gone lost it going to lunch should take it as a sign to withdrawal and quit now before it happens again and again and again
 
Yo I am such a THC junktard I just tried to hit this disposable vape I threw in the sump pump last night I should not use any cannabis products
 
Accidental. Thanks for the kindness. I've had enough of straight world people sticking their noses in the air and looking down at them. He was older. Went out in a multi drug binge. I wish he hadn't . Can't stop crying. That's the last one of that old group gone. Fucking fent. Fucking booze. Fuck.
 
I'm going to have to steer clear of the sober hoardes of part time wine drinkers and cigarette smokers "talking shit about stuff they do not know anything about" as he would say...He drank as much as Keith moon, shot everything he could find (that preloaded rig he found in some drug house he was staying at and did up one time making me furious.he survived that one..). People wanted to party with him....until they did...He was a freak of the best kind. Generous, ( just not with his drugs, lol) kind and caring. Now I've no one left. Meant to be working. Can't.
 
if it helps i cry almost 24/7 from those I have lost and the damage I have done in past lives.
Ya wanna talk about tears...? I am an expert at that. not by my choosing.
ill hang with ya and if ya want we can chat on the side just start a conversion on my user page one-on-one.
i know the pain of loss very well and living with it every day of my life,
love always
jody
 
This woman here just told the Laundromutt 🐶 lady on the phone her mother in law referring to my mother but we aren't even a couple that is absurd

She is an adoptee though who lost her adoptee mother before she was middle age so I cannot scorn her for it
 
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