Venting The Vent/Rant Thread Vs. You Silly KnuckleHeads Can Go Fly a Kite!!

[Jerry Atrick]

Would you feel better if I de throne as admin so to can infract me? Lol. I still remember that. I hated you but by God I love you now brother.

I've realized everyone seems to be having such a difficult time like fighting this that or the other, the one I admire the most is @Tronica , not trying to get brownie points or what kids call the damn things these days but ever since I've met you, you always seem to have your shit together, besides the regular stuff you deal with when you actually become (in my words) an Adult, and thats being 100. I want what shes got. Stability and compassion.
Now where is my happy birthday??

HBD's!!

 

[Robi]

Happy birthday @D's !
That's a super kind comment.
Mostly I have my shit together but maybe it's because I have 2 kids and one on the way, and they know how to press my buttons better than anyone. Certainly not perfect but working on increased stability and increase compassion !
But also miss being more crazy and having less responsibility, like 20 years ago, when I stumbled across this site

 

[Robi]

if my neighbor floods my yard one more time, im gonna .......wait im getting my lawn watered for free! water is liquid gold in my parts $$$$$$$$$ NEVERMIND

 

[Ds]

Wow, so this dude whom i thought would think 'outside the box' when it comes to helping someone but god damn man, define AA nazi and there he is, it's either AA.(which a couple if the steps are great don't get me wrong, just don't fuck with my AA step 2, fucking finally, after being beat the fuck down, now what? Lord help me. Fucking done. I didn't have to research shit!) The dude said in not helping people my ass, i sent him Bluelight.orgs page said I was one of our fucking amazing admins whom work tirelessly not for attention (unless its to troll a troll)adminAbooz . But for an AA nazi , where i haven't had a single drink yet, in nearly six years. Suck my cock if you think just because i so called don't help people IRL doesn't mean i care about others online where if your my friend I'd gladly do whatever it would take, fucking step down as admin together and hike the fucking Appalachian trail not for fun but because we give a fuck about places outside the rooms of AA. What a dick. I might unfriended him. My ass. I might troll you,but its either i like you or i know you're a troll, about to get banned and im having a time of my life fucking with this idiot,but have everything under control (was on ketamine though so i can sai i tried youTriedStar & get a somewhat where my upstairs aka brain aka 'gerbil wheel' re-attaches it's self to my spinal column and would eventually ban the far left right back fiward obtuse , and case i forgot i made a role lmao. Anyway I wanted to vent that thank you for listening.

 

[Robi]

Wow, so this dude whom i thought would think 'outside the box' when it comes to helping someone but god damn man, define AA nazi and there he is, it's either AA.(which a couple if the steps are great don't get me wrong, just don't fuck with my AA step 2, fucking finally, after being beat the fuck down, now what? Lord help me. Fucking done. I didn't have to research shit!) The dude said in not helping people my ass, i sent him Bluelight.orgs page said I was one of our fucking amazing admins whom work tirelessly not for attention (unless its to troll a troll)adminAbooz . But for an AA nazi , where i haven't had a single drink yet, in nearly six years. Suck my cock if you think just because i so called don't help people IRL doesn't mean i care about others online where if your my friend I'd gladly do whatever it would take, fucking step down as admin together and hike the fucking Appalachian trail not for fun but because we give a fuck about places outside the rooms of AA. What a dick. I might unfriended him. My ass. I might troll you,but its either i like you or i know you're a troll, about to get banned and im having a time of my life fucking with this idiot,but have everything under control (was on ketamine though so i can sai i tried youTriedStar & get a somewhat where my upstairs aka brain aka 'gerbil wheel' re-attaches it's self to my spinal column and would eventually ban the far left right back fiward obtuse , and case i forgot i made a role lmao. Anyway I wanted to vent that thank you for listening.

 

[neversickanymore]

Wow, so this dude whom i thought would think 'outside the box' when it comes to helping someone but god damn man, define AA nazi and there he is, it's either AA.(which a couple if the steps are great don't get me wrong, just don't fuck with my AA step 2, fucking finally, after being beat the fuck down, now what? Lord help me. Fucking done. I didn't have to research shit!) The dude said in not helping people my ass, i sent him Bluelight.orgs page said I was one of our fucking amazing admins whom work tirelessly not for attention (unless its to troll a troll)adminAbooz . But for an AA nazi , where i haven't had a single drink yet, in nearly six years. Suck my cock if you think just because i so called don't help people IRL doesn't mean i care about others online where if your my friend I'd gladly do whatever it would take, fucking step down as admin together and hike the fucking Appalachian trail not for fun but because we give a fuck about places outside the rooms of AA. What a dick. I might unfriended him. My ass. I might troll you,but its either i like you or i know you're a troll, about to get banned and im having a time of my life fucking with this idiot,but have everything under control (was on ketamine though so i can sai i tried youTriedStar & get a somewhat where my upstairs aka brain aka 'gerbil wheel' re-attaches it's self to my spinal column and would eventually ban the far left right back fiward obtuse , and case i forgot i made a role lmao. Anyway I wanted to vent that thank you for listening.

Your doing great things and helping many people. So don’t let a hardcore piss you off. It’s not their fault and maybe the hardcore fellowship way has shown them the best and all they need to know. Thinking outside the box will not sit well with hard core in the box influenced people. The fellowships are a path to recovery that’s based off a get in this specific box path.. they even have steps to jump in. They use psychological techniques to indoctrinate members into their programing. It works for some people alone. Crocks.. quoting the bloody big book like the churches do the bible. It’s fanaticism, but the program is designed to that end and some really benefit from this.

There is the other AA take.. “take what you need”

When I attended inpatient rehab, fully AA based in the CO mountains in Estes… we had a Sunday speaker.. can’t remember his name.. but he was truly an enlightened holy roller. That’s what they said.. staff and everyone was freaking out they got this person to stop by. No shit, he turned out to be the real deal.

He did an amazing speach.. really just being in the same are as the guy had a pretty profound effect on the entire population of the rehab.. clients, staff cooks etc.

He made a strong point that what we were doing.. the fellowship approach was important, but he almost closed with use it for now, but make sure to move forward.

Hard core fellowship people can be come fanatic about the program and the program can be the miracle that changed and saved their entire existence. It may everything to them and that’s amazing as I’d love to find everything. For others it’s just a beginning or a stepping stone. Some peope see different side paths.. fellowship thought is bipolar by design.

The worlds not bipolar. It’s radiates energy consciousness thought color lesson and ultimately experience in infinite ways.

Thanks for all you do for BL!! and I think you just may be looking at things from a different level then this person. I would just disengage with them.

 

[Ds]

i like speakers, whom you wouldn't even think it, judges and shit, be crack, heroin and alcoholics, and say they would pull their car over by a popo to get a DUI's, but ur a judge lmao, god damn talk about a get out of jail free card. u better be doin good shit for that county.

 

[Ds]

Your doing great things and helping many people. So don’t let a hardcore piss you off. It’s not their fault and maybe the hardcore fellowship way has shown them the best and all they need to know. Thinking outside the box will not sit well with hard core in the box influenced people. The fellowships are a path to recovery that’s based off a get in this specific box path.. they even have steps to jump in. They use psychological techniques to indoctrinate members into their programing. It works for some people alone. Crocks.. quoting the bloody big book like the churches do the bible. It’s fanaticism, but the program is designed to that end and some really benefit from this.

Thanks for all you do for BL!! and I think you just may be looking at things from a different level then this person. I would just disengage with them.

Be honest, when you first infracted me were you thinking like 'oh fuck not another troll', ' or were you like this idiot might be the Kwisatz Haderach?

To be honest back then I wanted others to like me for some silly shit, *crosses that line* turned into silly shit turned into life turned prison (where maybe 3/4th of ya'l wouldn't make it & that's just being real) , aka court pre-trial, then own ward to big boi court where you should have taken the pre trial diversion. fed trial where you serve nearly all your time. sentences, court-appointed rehabs-overdoses, 'son you are a fucking disgrace to this family and no you are not welcome to your favorite grandparents funerals''.
what would you do in that situation? drink yourself stupid and stagger to the Ohio river bridge, shoot a fucking bird to the sky while funneling jack. dive head first.
that's where my life was at 2015. before I stopped drinking alcohol.
you guys heard, after a night of mixing hand sanitizer and packet Hawaiian punch mixed drinks, i woke up with DT's and couldn't stomach those beers. not a good feeling when you are going in and out of alcoholic seizures, hospital trip and the rest was history. aug,22,2016. is when i decided that who fucking drinks like that besides alcoholics?
haven't had a drink since. yet.

 

[deficiT]

I can't find the "say something you can't say to their face" thread, so I'm ranting here.

You spoiled, ungrateful brat. I do absolutely everything for us, and you respond by trying to gaslight the fuck out of me and tear me down emotionally.

Things have gotten better and we get in less fights, but holy shit idk if I can even do it anymore if this is how our fights are gonna be.

I don't know what else to say. I bit the fuck out of my tongue today. I'm grateful I'm more capable of doing that, but I honestly shouldn't have to. Stop fucking drinking. You become an angry fucking asshole and say hurtful as fuck shit. You tear me down and it hurts because I expend so much energy just trying to float us. But it's never enough. I think I fucking hate you. Idk.

Fuck me man, fucking why me?

 

[deficiT]

I can't find the "say something you can't say to their face" thread, so I'm ranting here.

You spoiled, ungrateful brat. I do absolutely everything for us, and you respond by trying to gaslight the fuck out of me and tear me down emotionally.

Things have gotten better and we get in less fights, but holy shit idk if I can even do it anymore if this is how our fights are gonna be.

I don't know what else to say. I bit the fuck out of my tongue today. I'm grateful I'm more capable of doing that, but I honestly shouldn't have to. Stop fucking drinking. You become an angry fucking asshole and say hurtful as fuck shit. You tear me down and it hurts because I expend so much energy just trying to float us. But it's never enough. I think I fucking hate you. Idk.

Fuck me man, fucking why me?

As a PS, I ended up leaving and visiting my parents. Had a good talk about everything. My moms doing all this therapy now, and she's basically treating it like she can't help me since I'm an addict. And she can't tell me what to do anymore, I guess because it stresses her out too much and she has all sorts of anxiety disorders. I'm sure it's really difficult for her. She found out about my overdose from looking here and sussing out that it was me. Lol, I was kind of surprised about that, I feel really bad because I really didn't want to share that with her. I guess that's a lesson for me. But it was good to talk to them.

When I got home, she was actually begrudgingly apologetic. She had even mentioned that it would be good to do a detox. I pretty much had said some of that shit to her face in the argument we had, so. I guess we made up. Idk. I just don't know what to do.

 

[neversickanymore]

Fucking taxes

 

[Anonymous Dissident]

I just got the reverse 911 call alerting me that I'm in the pre-evacuation area due to a nearby wildfire. This shit is getting old fast. I lived here for 15 years without being too near a fire to having them within a mile or two several times a year. I think it might be time to look for a house closer to civilization. All these fucking fires are too damn stressful!

 

[neversickanymore]

Library fines.. yes library fines. I feel pathetic even bitching about this.. but how on gods green earth can I supposedly owe three time the original value of books I returned a month late. Kinda guess that’s why I had not been to a public library in years. Cheaper just to buy them. That and the books were ancient and sucked. Smelt like an old spinster just before spring.

 

[Jerry Atrick]

Library fines.. yes library fines. I feel pathetic even bitching about this.. but how on gods green earth can I supposedly owe three time the original value of books I returned a month late. Kinda guess that’s why I had not been to a public library in years. Cheaper just to buy them. That and the books were ancient and sucked. Smelt like an old spinster just before spring.

 

[Robi]

Library fines.. yes library fines. I feel pathetic even bitching about this.. but how on gods green earth can I supposedly owe three time the original value of books I returned a month late. Kinda guess that’s why I had not been to a public library in years. Cheaper just to buy them. That and the books were ancient and sucked. Smelt like an old spinster just before spring.

 

[AbbeyLee]

I want to order something online. It wants my email and password (I have an account). I cannot remember password so I click the "forgot password" thing and it says they sent an email to reset password. No email.. Checked junk.

I actually have 3 accounts because this has happened before. So I've tried with 3 email accounts. Nothin.

The shit is in my basket. I want to give their business my money. But unless I create ANOTHER email address I can't!!

 

[Jerry Atrick]

I want to order something online. It wants my email and password (I have an account). I cannot remember password so I click the "forgot password" thing and it says they sent an email to reset password. No email.. Checked junk.

I actually have 3 accounts because this has happened before. So I've tried with 3 email accounts. Nothin.

The shit is in my basket. I want to give their business my money. But unless I create ANOTHER email address I can't!!

Sorry for your pain.

But that gif, though Lady in the background stood up to look and sat back down like it was that guy's normal behavior.

 

[n3ophy7e]

But that gif, though Lady in the background stood up to look and sat back down like it was that guy's normal behavior.

"Ughh, Kevin's lost it again..."

 

[AbbeyLee]

Sorry for your pain.

But that gif, though Lady in the background stood up to look and sat back down like it was that guy's normal behavior.

I managed to order it by doing the "guest" thing. I was surprised when I put in an email address it didn't say "we already have an account with this address" and reject me.

But it meant typing everything in again.

I HATE inefficiency. I might be a lazy ass drug fiend, but when I do something I'm damn efficient. This is why technology makes me violent (I've come close to that gif guy). Technology should make things easier and easier as it gets more sophisticated. It should also get cheaper. It isn't doing that at all. I know it's because of oligopolies.. It's just so tiring.

 

[cduggles]

My kingdom for an amoral person, preferably an older Eastern European male!