Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
I'm letting myself cry and grieve. It's painful but I'm blessed to be allowing myself to go through this pain.![]()
((((Capt)))) xxxx
I'm letting myself cry and grieve. It's painful but I'm blessed to be allowing myself to go through this pain.![]()
Have you seen a counsellor over this? grief counsellor?
No
I keep it to myself
I don't like going to professionals just to talk. It doesn't really seem to help me.
That might seem really ridiculous considering I'm trying to go back to school to be a therapist, and I take helping others seriously, and I think talking about problems really helps.
There's nothing a professional could say that woulld help me feel any better because of what I have done, what I didn't do, and the nature of ethics and morals.
I could lie to myself and say "oh it's OK Cpt., anyone would have done the same thing, you're not a horrible person..." but that's just a lie and I know it.
I know guilt is a useless emotion and I know beating myself up WILL NOT HELP!!! But I'm not going to pretend like I'm a saint. Hold the S because I am an aint.
So yesterday it was seven weeks to the day since I lost my beautiful son. I thought I was doing ok but then the reality suddenly hit me like a ton of bricks.. I didn't just cry I howled like some kind of wild animal! I've never felt pain so intensely like that before. I'm so desperately sad, life has no joy any more..I know I need to be strong but it's so hard!
I am so terribly sorry. There are no words i can say. It is good that you cried. You needed to get that out.
I'm so terribly sorry for your loss
((((Happydaysover)))) xxxx
So yesterday it was seven weeks to the day since I lost my beautiful son. I thought I was doing ok but then the reality suddenly hit me like a ton of bricks.. I didn't just cry I howled like some kind of wild animal! I've never felt pain so intensely like that before. I'm so desperately sad, life has no joy any more..I know I need to be strong but it's so hard!
i'm missing my grandmother so much today. today marks 5 years since she passed and since my world has been flipped upside down.
"Hugs ac" so very sorry...
I bet she's looking down on you n wishing you to be happy though honey.
Evey
I just wish I could talk to her. Take her advice..![]()
i'm missing my grandmother so much today. today marks 5 years since she passed and since my world has been flipped upside down.
No
I keep it to myself
I don't like going to professionals just to talk. It doesn't really seem to help me.
That might seem really ridiculous considering I'm trying to go back to school to be a therapist, and I take helping others seriously, and I think talking about problems really helps.
There's nothing a professional could say that woulld help me feel any better because of what I have done, what I didn't do, and the nature of ethics and morals.
I could lie to myself and say "oh it's OK Cpt., anyone would have done the same thing, you're not a horrible person..." but that's just a lie and I know it.
I know guilt is a useless emotion and I know beating myself up WILL NOT HELP!!! But I'm not going to pretend like I'm a saint. Hold the S because I am an aint.
!.....a 2 line PM from Herb is not to be belittled, such succinct insight
Herb????
Evey