Well I am writing again my back hurts so fucking bad right now. Fuck. It is horrible I haven't had a rest in like 14 hours.
Girls don't seem to mind me. I'm sure a pretty one will scurry along my way one day and hop up in my ride. More important I gotta get a job and then I make friends. Smoke a backwoods with my weed guy. Dispensary weed sucks here it's way too expensive and I'm scrounging for money so often I see him for weed like every 2 or 3 days to keep stoned, lo, but we are oldschool with weed meetup switch upl. Since we grew up with it being like that having to be super secret. It's funny shit like why not buy a half ounce... well when I had the money to do so, I just smoked more weed.
It's sweet that I got a mmj card!!! I'll still be meeting up in parking lots LOL. Serious, but I might try cbd or thc caps on top of that. Gotta rip that bong and this guy is fun we always have a good time chillin. He's real chill, skinny younger dude dresses in black like me def legit and we both love weed so much and are always so fucking blitzed. So we gotta smoke a backwoods he says and yeah like he's always within a few hour time period. usually like 1. There are people in my life who despise my cannabis use. This gives me some protection from that and definitely strong weed. Since, the doctor who referred me is like for our whole family and she is very prudent lol my mom would never have me go to the most slightly suspicious doctor ever. And then she was like you still smoke weed I'm like yeah I''m stoned right now she's like there's this medical program... cbd and stuff but really the bong is for me. Those heaviest bong tokes that just get ya.
Ow. Seriously. owy owy owy. Good thing I'm not getting weed for a couple hours my entire back is locked up. Any of you ever try those peppermint oil based sprays, or like there are natural essential oil blends that sooth the muscles. They actually work. I find myself doing stuff like this constantly, I'm on my massive heating pad right now cause it hurts so dammn bad I literally can't move. But I'm trying to strengthen my back like get used to it. My body will begin to produce more natural endorphins the more amount of pain I am in, and then I will be in less pain. Like yoga isn't painful but definitely releases endorphins so I get hooked on something healthy.
Hope you are feeling better Larimar. Withdrawal sucks. I will be there again. Not with opiates though, I really hope not. I'm almost at 9 weeks now. The benzo withdrawal actually sped up the process and I had bulked up a bit so my body weight is fine, didn't get too skinny or lose much flexibility. Fuck does my back ever hurt though like talk about agony. It's a good thing I just snuck out to the trails and ripped a .15 gram bong toke that hit me real nice after 6 hours.
I'm so stoned. I'd smoke three of those when I wake up in the morning and hardly feel it. There are days for that too though, haha. I am getting so stoned it's a distraction, like typing, and lil peep, and anything but my damn spine. I need another toke but it's my last one and traditionally I reserve my last bong rip for just before I go and grab more weed. That was some nice og kush it's time to grab some grape krush. I am liking these indica dominant hybrids it varies a lot though this indica sativa thing there is a lot to it.
Oh did I mention this!!!!!! This made my whole entire week amazing. While spring cleaning I came across a heritage collection banana republic hoodie. with a zip down. It's grey and has three buttons with a lil foldover at the neck and it fits my shoulders perfectly. My tea buddy friend even commented on it lol it's an expensive piece of clothing but totally my style too since I wear lots of black and this grey is a really nice one. Dark grey, with a gold coloured zipper, and white pants go well with it too. It's so damn awesome and I remember where it comes from.
My only friend who it possibly could. My oldest friend too. A true, generous and hilarious friend who is very similar in height and weight and strength to me. He is a hell of a fighter. Dude's still hung up on his high school ex we're like 30. He is wealthy though, and wore nice clothing like this I totally remember him leaving it when I was away at school or something like that and just being like whatever. I never wore it, or thought about it much at all whatsoever. I have lost so much clothing over the years, so much clothing it is insane that I have this when I don't even wear it. Fuck. It's possible when he came over here the one time last year we usually meet up elsewhere anyways maybe he left it here then.
No, though. No way. I remember having this I know I do. I thought it was old and didn't fit but it's long which I like and fits my shoulders and stuff sooooo nicely. lol, and the hoodie is great too. I am wearing it the 3rd day in a row. I asked them at banana republic if they could recognize my sweater, and they couldn't. Serious, I swear this thing is like 15 yea old banana republic heritage collection like something I'd actually buy myself that appeared out of nowhere. Like my friend is watching over me, it is his pisces season too. It's just crazy how much I like this sweater lol I might switch up the white jeans for black tonight. Yeah. Totally doing that. True religion jeans of course. lol. I don't wear any other types of jeans ahaha but always find them cheap.
