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Greenlighter
I would be afraid to have surgery because the pain management they propose may not work, considering what you’re already taking…having built a tolerance. I had a procedure done during the days of my opioid abuse, and they ended up giving me the max dose of Demerol, and it STILL was extremely uncomfortable. Be careful, buddy.Ugh, I don't like tapering. But sudden is worse. Every time I move, the world spins clockwise or down, I nearly met the carpet face first going to the loo last night.
Of course I keep thinking it's covid or something deadly. I've another tumour to be removed at the end of September, I'm shitting myself as usual, scares me, but I need to do this.
First I need to be safe in hospital and not going into withdrawal infront of them. Second, I'll need the pain relief to work for real physical pain and not just my personal needs, which wouldn't impress the doctors much.
Probably not a dangerous tumour, I've had one before, but this is in the roof of my mouth, so will hurt afterwards.
My cat died from mouth cancer, I'm sure humans get it too.
Only had 5g of pods yesterday and a bump of buprenorphine. My use had crept up to 25g-30g a day average over the summer. Had a good big cup this morning, yesterday's big drop was to shock me into realising I'm doing this. Not quitting, just reducing as much as I can manage, those are both on long half lives and I'm drinking grapefruit to hang onto it longer.
My problem this time is my tolerance for weed is ridiculous, I vape 20% stuff and a gram a day isn't even touching the sides. I don't want to go back to concentrates for tolerance reasons, so again I must reduce or it will never work for me again.
As it is I spent this summer trying to recreate some of the bliss of last summer, or was it the summer before, either way it just isn't happening.
I've got to get a grip on all this at some stage, then I disagree with myself and think, "Why bother? It's not as destructive as pills" I wonder if that's true.
Weed isn’t as bad as pills to me.