Captain.Heroin
Bluelight Crew
Much
everyone

CH, that 41 days clean has taken monumental effort, especially when you are struggling in other ways. Take it one day at a time and get out in the sunshine.![]()
primarily a lack of money, but a combination of everything i guess
yep chronic pain is back full force probably hyperalgesic as well. I feel as sick as I did the first few days. Nothing seems to be getting better. I'm so bipolar it's insane rapid cycling I feel like I'm going through menopause and like I drank bleach.Tricomb
I had no idea you were quitting too man
I am proud of you
Stay strong brother. You'll be happier in about a month. Things aren't normal for me yet but I am glad I made it this far. I know we both deserve to be without opiates.
And I know you have a medicinal use for them I am sure, so it is unfair we live in pain but I am sure you will be happier one day too.
You can PM me if you'd like.
I'm giving up....... On trying to kill myself. I can't no matter how hard I try I defy the laws of nature physics science logic and medicine. So I guess I better get used to living life. Especially now that for the first time in my life I'm at my record for no opiates, I cold turkeyd and still at 15 days I'm feeling just as sick as day 3. I took opiates for half of my life. Guess that's why. No more needles either.