Doomed2pain
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- Aug 15, 2011
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I'm running on adrenalin, having problems with my son's sperm donor dad (ex, abusive asshole) and I'm having a weekend away which is going to be awesome and I'm so worried he's going to show up and cause problems for my carer. Can't even turn my phone off over the weekend incase there is something wrong at home. I've been alternating by feeling rage at what he's been doing over the last year (harassment and a load of really bad serious stuff that I'm not allowed to talk about) fear he might show up drunk (ex h addict turned alcoholic who is no longer sober) and make a scene and disturb the neighbours as I'm in one of the richest/nicest areas of where I live, and fear he will try and kidnap my son from school, cut a few days ago as I was so wound up. He says he's going to take me to court, if he got custody I would give in to the suicidal thoughts and just jump, I'd have nothing to live for then. Argh it's so fucked up someone (probably him) keeps calling but saying nothing all from a withheld number started about 40 minutes ago that's all I need will never sleep. I hate him wish he would just F.O.A.D