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thats the thing with us dudes, we dodge and go around all the goodgirls and like a moth on a lamp we find that one insane chick? least it was a good fuck?
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thats the thing with us dudes, we dodge and go around all the goodgirls and like a moth on a lamp we find that one insane chick? least it was a good fuck?
mrflowers00
Ex-Bluelighter
definitely a good fuck but i want more than just an attractive good in the sack chick someone i can really get along with
severely etarded
Bluelight Crew
^had that for 5 years. .. now she smokes crack and it's over. I suspect she's fucking her dealer 
Captain.Heroin
Bluelight Crew
^had that for 5 years. .. now she smokes crack and it's over. I suspect she's fucking her dealer
I'm really sorry to hear about how your ex's life is going downhill so quick, but my advice is to forget about her.
There's so many girls out there. The sooner you let it go, the sooner you'll have a new girl in your life.
mrflowers00
Ex-Bluelighter
i'm not afraid of death at all the only thing that keeps me alive is the love of my dad and gpa i just couldn't put them though that
Captain.Heroin
Bluelight Crew
What if you ever had a son Mr. Flowers? Wouldn't you also want to live for him?
mrflowers00
Ex-Bluelighter
yeah but i don't want kids at least not right now
Captain.Heroin
Bluelight Crew
Please post about what's on your mind man. You know the second you do, you'll feel better. Just be careful not to post triggering material (or if you aren't sure if it'll be triggering to others, put it in NSFW tags with a "warning - could be triggering" warning), and just be careful not to bring up serious crimes you have committed, until the statue of limitations is passed. Anything else I would say, please post - we are here to help.
The second I talk about something that is bothering me and I've gotten it off my chest, I instantly feel better, even if the only thing has changed is that someone listened to me.
No need to be sorry man.
mrflowers00
Ex-Bluelighter
i find myself getting really excited and nervous when i'm about to pick up a script and i remember feeling that way when i would talk to a girl i liked for the first time i wish i could feel that way about other things than drugs again
i realy dont know what to do, for about 30 mins i thought i was going to be able to turn things around. get back on my ativan quit drinking or at least cut back. then of course they tell me i cant get my meds til i see a doctor at cms in like a fuckn week, i feel so pathetic i mean right after i get out of the hospital i go get som some wine, at least i have plenty of vodka. im just gettting tired of this shit and the only option right now i can see is just to fuckn end it
hey its my first time on here...i don't know who to talk to my girlfriend that I've loved for almost a year just recently dumped me. I miss her so much all i want to do is be with her and talk to her and now i can't. to make things worse, last night her friend started picking on me and instead of standing up for me she just sat there and laughed at me it got to a point where i finally just cursed the kid out so he would leave me alone and she would stop laughing at me. my ex responded by calling me retarded and a psyco. now that she no longer wants to talk to me i no longer want to live. i dont know what the point is anymore. she was the only person i know that cared about me and at one point loved me and now i have no one because i screwed it all up.no one loves me no one cares about me i just want to die and not ever have to think about her loving another guy like she used to love me until i messed it all up like i always do. i just really need someone to talk to she was the only person i trusted and now i have no one i can talk to
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severely etarded
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pretty much story of my life but it was almost 5 years. sorry to hear. things will get better you just have to tell yourself that and believe it. everything happens for a reason. my ex started smoking crack with her friend and just stopped caring about me. hydrocodone and weed are good friends when I have nobody else
Captain.Heroin
Bluelight Crew
You should share your hopes of being able to be excited for non-drug things again with a therapist, I'm sure they can help you get that. You should definitely try dating if that's something you want for yourself.
Stay strong glitter_kiss!
I know it's got to be hard when you're turning for help and are not getting it. Just stay strong for us, I'm sure you can make it through this.
You can always PM me if things get any rougher.
I believe this even though I know other people who disagree with me.
Captain.Heroin
Bluelight Crew
Want to share what's on your mind? I've felt this way for a long time, but I've actually gotten to a point (this year) where I am now thankful to be alive, and I hope that everyone here can one day feel the same way.
Want to share what's on your mind? I've felt this way for a long time, but I've actually gotten to a point (this year) where I am now thankful to be alive, and I hope that everyone here can one day feel the same way.
I'm so happy for you that you've gotten in that mindset keep it up!!! however i cannot seem to stay happy for more than 10 seconds becausemy girlfriend who was also my best friend and the only person i really trusted dumped me last week calling me retarded and a pysco and doesnt want to talk to me or be seen with me again. the pain of having the one who i loved most in this world say those things to me and losing her forever is too much for me to handle
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