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Hang in there, sweetie and if you they start making you feel worse notify your doctor IMMEDIATELY. You're strong and you'll get through this. <3
 
I can't decide what day this week, but a day this week, I'm probably going to commit suicide. I should have died Thursday morning, this last week is just my bittersweet opportunity to say goodbye to the loved ones.

I need serious help. Help that isn't there.
 
curioushat, help IS available, please reach out. It's not your time to go yet, please keep fighting <3
 
I would be scared to death of a psych ward, especially the patient abuse that goes on in there. I would get thrown in a padded room and given a small scoop of oatmeal. I think I'd rather do that than die though.

I feel bad because as we speak I am sleeping next to two little male cousins, age 10 and 8, they just lost their father not that long ago to drug od, then there's me, the lost cousin, the one who dies at age 20, it is a sad story.

I'm thinking psych ward, although it would permanently destroy all that I have in life, at least it is life. This life sucks but too bad there are no others either
 
almost all the psych wards don't put you into a padded room with a straight jacket they usually do group therapy and get you on medication that seems to help at least in their eyes so the meds are hit and miss and they will try to get you to open up and take a good look at whats really bothering you
 
mrflowers00 said:
almost all the psych wards don't put you into a padded room with a straight jacket they usually do group therapy and get you on medication that seems to help at least in their eyes so the meds are hit and miss and they will try to get you to open up and take a good look at whats really bothering you
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That's exactly what I'm looking for, if only it were without group therapy. I absolutely cannot take group therapy, I am uninterested in everyone else's problems, and hate focus on other people. Makes me seem selfish, I know. It is a great recommendation though, and definitely sounds like a good resource if I am completely in crisis.

Thanks mrflowers00.
 
I am in so much emotional pain it is almost unbearable. I am catatonic. I can't eat. I can't go outside. I can't do anything.
I could never leave my loved ones behind, but I am just hurting so much, I feel like I can't take much more.



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and definitely sounds like a good resource if I am completely in crisis.
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If you are planning to end your life soon, I would call that a crisis <3 It will be easier for you to get help now before things get any worse.
 
n3ophy7e said:
I am in so much emotional pain it is almost unbearable. I am catatonic. I can't eat. I can't go outside. I can't do anything.
I could never leave my loved ones behind, but I am just hurting so much, I feel like I can't take much more.
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Please talk to someone if you're feeling this way. You're a great person and I'm sure a great number of people care about you. You're capable of a lot of good and you deserve to be happy. Please feel free to PM me if you need someone to talk to.
 
n3o, would it help to go stay with your family for a while? I worry about you being alone when you feel this low.<3 Do you think that you could call your therapist and tell her how you are in crisis? Just like you advised curioushat, these are unmistakably the outward signs of being in a full crisis. Something inside is making you feel so much fear that it is overwhelming you. When you are in that state everything begins to be colored by panic and the natural reaction to panic which is that complete catatonic shutting down state you are experiencing. Don't wait for an appointment, sweetie, call and let someone know that you need to see someone now. We can skype, msn, facebook or PM any time of the day or night. You know I mean that.<3<3<3<3<3
 
n3o :( You know you have a ton of people here that love you and support you. If you ever feel like talking, I too am here for you. These feelings will pass, my dear. <3 <3
 
blahman, herby and spork <3
Thank you so much for your support, I really appreciate it. I am feeling much better today. I just reached the point of complete and utter desperation the other day. I'm back on Wellbutrin though (as of Saturday), and feeling a lot better already.
I love you guys, thank you <3
 
Wellbutrin rocks the town. Potent NDRI with some anti-manic mechanism.

Stock up on all drugs before even thinking about ending it. Psychiatrists who know you are suicidal will do all in their power to help. As will basically anyone else with a smidgen of humanity.

We are all alone in the end. No amount of hearts can change that. This provides me with security. Find yourself in this vomitus world.
 
i really dont give a fuck anymore.
my mom n dad split @ age 13 so was left to my self 2 deal with shit on my own, wasn't able 2 talk to mom n dad @ the shit that was going on @ my age, liked drtugs/drunkingh, they nver understood why i did it.
this is the note that i tell them,
mom, wish you woulda never left my side after going into rehab, i needed help, you never saw that i had a problem with drugs and alcohol after years later. not all i got is fucking memories of you throwing the bottle across the room and going 2 bed with me left at age 7 not knowing having to brich the alcohol off my pokemon cards off, not knowing why you and dad faught so so much, later i relised why so i drank and did drugs 2 cover up the pain of why you 2 faught, worry me smiln havn a G n my pocket ever worrying pour out some liquor 2 the fam that ever gave a fuck?
RIP
last ones left,
as it happened for a G..... life goes the fuck.
all i got left are fucking memories, life goes on, no matter what the fuck. %@#@#@#$@#@#$#@$@#$!! thug till i die, RIP young nigga
 
D's I've been wondering how and where you've been. I wish you were in a better place right now. :( Your mother has made some mistakes, but I'm sure she still cares deeply for you. Please remember that there are a lot of people on Bluelight and I'm sure in your life that care a great deal for you as well. Your life can turn around and you have the power to help make that happen. Please hang on and give life another chance and make new memories for yourself. The world is better with you in it <3
 
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