Today is Saturday, May 29th, 2010 and it is now 1004 AM here in Cebu, Philippines.
The show, till' now:
Learning that the "love of my life," Jackie, had a secret baby and had not told me the truth about several major facets of her life. We were still on an ocean going ferry, heading to Cebu City, on Cebu Island and Jackie was literally begging me not to end our relationship when I ended the last entry...
Rachamim: Jackie, whether-or-not you realise it, things could never be the same for us...not even close. Even if I agree to stay with you it would not be what we had before. Honestly? At the moment I have absolutely no desire for you.
Jackie: Raki, you swore you would never leave me! You SWORE!!!
R: "Jackie, that was made to a woman I thought I knew. Since you are NOT the woman I know THAT promise is no longer valid."
J: "NO! You promised! You swore!"
R: "Sigh. Look, you just not getting the message. Go home, go be a mother and a wife, I am not going to break up anyone's family. EVER."
J:"You didn't break up anything, I was alone before leaving and even if you leave me now I will never go back."
R: "Be that as it may be, at least I will have a clear conscience."
J: "My sister knew my marriage was over. Muhammed was living in camp (his FOB, army post). Whenever he came I wouldn't let him near me!"
R: "Jackie, you had a baby! What does it matter WHERE he slept after?"
J: "As I said, the baby was a mistake."
R: "He didn't rape you Jackie. Whether you regret it or not is not relevant, you had relations.
Since you did, it shows that at least at that point in your relationship you had an ongoing sexual contact. I am sorry but 2 months, as in the 2 months between having that baby and you and I beginning this relationship are nowhere as much time as is needed.
Also, the fact that you and I were friendly during the time you got pregnant and all through that pregnancy leads me to believe that you had had an ulterior motive, since you never once mentioned that you were pregnant, had given birth or even that you had seen Muhammed and he was living with you!"
J: "What do you mean? I don't really understand your point."
R: "When people are friends, or friendly, they share things like a 9 month pregnancy Jackie. You never even mentioned it remotely.
As you have always told me, when pregnant with the girls you had awful sickness (Morning Sickness). As you said, 'When I am pregnant I get sooooo sick'.
In other words, you were sick while pregnant with Ibrahim, I am sure but never mentioned it? You hid it from me Jackie."
J: "I hated the pregnancy."
R: "That is not my point. The point is that you fucked your ex! You understand now? You fucked your ex, telling me how you dislisked him, how u felt nothing for him, even as you and I were working on our friendship!
You were decieving me and really had no reason to. I wasn't even involved with you.
What bothers me much more? Since we weren't involved, and since you purposely kept it from me? And as you were fucking him? It draws a picture of you making a conscious choice to deceive me and since you willingly had sex with him it makes me wonder what your motive might have been in this deception, because for sure it was not affection for me.
Why are you with me?"
J: "I love you!"
R: "No! Why did you start our relationship? Your sister says you borrowed a lot of money from Noevermber up until April 28th, what was your reason?"
To be continued...
The show, till' now:
Learning that the "love of my life," Jackie, had a secret baby and had not told me the truth about several major facets of her life. We were still on an ocean going ferry, heading to Cebu City, on Cebu Island and Jackie was literally begging me not to end our relationship when I ended the last entry...
Rachamim: Jackie, whether-or-not you realise it, things could never be the same for us...not even close. Even if I agree to stay with you it would not be what we had before. Honestly? At the moment I have absolutely no desire for you.
Jackie: Raki, you swore you would never leave me! You SWORE!!!
R: "Jackie, that was made to a woman I thought I knew. Since you are NOT the woman I know THAT promise is no longer valid."
J: "NO! You promised! You swore!"
R: "Sigh. Look, you just not getting the message. Go home, go be a mother and a wife, I am not going to break up anyone's family. EVER."
J:"You didn't break up anything, I was alone before leaving and even if you leave me now I will never go back."
R: "Be that as it may be, at least I will have a clear conscience."
J: "My sister knew my marriage was over. Muhammed was living in camp (his FOB, army post). Whenever he came I wouldn't let him near me!"
R: "Jackie, you had a baby! What does it matter WHERE he slept after?"
J: "As I said, the baby was a mistake."
R: "He didn't rape you Jackie. Whether you regret it or not is not relevant, you had relations.
Since you did, it shows that at least at that point in your relationship you had an ongoing sexual contact. I am sorry but 2 months, as in the 2 months between having that baby and you and I beginning this relationship are nowhere as much time as is needed.
Also, the fact that you and I were friendly during the time you got pregnant and all through that pregnancy leads me to believe that you had had an ulterior motive, since you never once mentioned that you were pregnant, had given birth or even that you had seen Muhammed and he was living with you!"
J: "What do you mean? I don't really understand your point."
R: "When people are friends, or friendly, they share things like a 9 month pregnancy Jackie. You never even mentioned it remotely.
As you have always told me, when pregnant with the girls you had awful sickness (Morning Sickness). As you said, 'When I am pregnant I get sooooo sick'.
In other words, you were sick while pregnant with Ibrahim, I am sure but never mentioned it? You hid it from me Jackie."
J: "I hated the pregnancy."
R: "That is not my point. The point is that you fucked your ex! You understand now? You fucked your ex, telling me how you dislisked him, how u felt nothing for him, even as you and I were working on our friendship!
You were decieving me and really had no reason to. I wasn't even involved with you.
What bothers me much more? Since we weren't involved, and since you purposely kept it from me? And as you were fucking him? It draws a picture of you making a conscious choice to deceive me and since you willingly had sex with him it makes me wonder what your motive might have been in this deception, because for sure it was not affection for me.
Why are you with me?"
J: "I love you!"
R: "No! Why did you start our relationship? Your sister says you borrowed a lot of money from Noevermber up until April 28th, what was your reason?"
To be continued...