Haven't checked in here in a while, been quite busy. My busy life consists of hanging out with my lady friend on her days off, and hanging around potheads or otherwise reading about world war 1 or perhaps playing some guitar. Smoking off a qp it's a nice way to end the summer. The beginning of my summer was pretty shit. Well I was hooked on heroin most of this year and I was clean for a long while over a month, feeling great, even getting ambitious and applying for jobs. But then I got my pharmacy script, took some percocets and the withdrawal from around 80mg oxy a day for a week has been fuckin torture. It's just like I can get higher easier now off pills, giving me easier access to abuse, and the lower doses hit me hard now; doses I couldn't feel before. It is dangerous a little as I took 150mg the other week at ounce and almost had to make a hospital call (I was totally out of it, she was debating it but I was still breathing). Close call.
I'm still getting my shit together but I relapsed today on my 4th day clean. It sucked, I've taken 40mg oxycodone today. Really not happy about that since even though it was a short relapse I have been extremely irritable (but remaining active and forcing myself to get outside and chill with friends, see my girl, and of course smoke green in a chronic manner... sex, nature, music and weed will keep me sane. Just thought I'd check in... I've had a few slip ups but I'm generally on the right track and I'm really happy with my new relationship. She is definitely a cutie and total fox in my mind. We have been really enjoying each other, I have a lot to lose if I go back to opiates because even that one week on percs fucked us up a bit. She could tell and didn't like it, and I didn't like it because my tolerance was so low I kept getting totally wasted instead of that stimulating and euphoric sweet spot. I'm really enjoying learning about world war 1. I'm reading a book called 100 Days to Victory and I don't know much about history, it's really great and thought provoking so far... just about 50 pages in but it's a topic in history I really want to delve into.