lol. Thanks man. I'm doing well now, the DMT mellowed me out and I talked to her on the phone for about an hour. It's cool we're gonna take it easy and rip some bong which I could really use. I gotta a list of fun things to bring over hehe... just like tea and stuff, books, movies, box of condoms haha. Dude I'm having panic attacks because I don't have any opiates. It comes from years of abuse I guess. It was like, nothing is even wrong and she chilled me out too so actually the DMT shifted my perspective. Really calms me down most times.
This is always when I relapse, I can't handle the anxiety but it would be a damn shame if I did this time. I don't really think I have any chances left. I've exhausted myself and yeah today should be great! I freak the fuck out in post-acute withdrawals man. I woke up infuriated man and I don't even know why and I began to freak. Needed to get out of my mind for a bit and I kinda found the answers I was looking for. I'm good though man I am getting through this shit. I get realllllllllllly nervous with women I think are this cute and it's like, I always had heroin and now it's just me.
I agree about the psychedelics too. 7 grams of shrooms, 1.5 milligrams of al-lad and 40mg 4-ho-met has been enough. DMT is so short acting man and it feels healthy for me. Like I could smoke that shit every day like shatter man. That's the only one I will continue to use and only in times of crisis because it is serene, tranquil, sedating, enlightening... just mellows me right out. Getting off heroin is fucking tough it's exhausting me. Every day is different like yesterday was pretty awesome.
keeping had a good suggestion. Please be careful with the DMT, you don't have to carry the load all on your own in the real world outside of this forum. There are people who can help you filter through the underlying anxieties & withdraw.
I recently has a family member trying to kick his heroin addiction on his own w/ DMT & it took him to a place he can never come back from & all of the people who loved him in a world of pain.
I'm not trying to ruin your vibe just be careful & know that you don't have to kick it all on your own.