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The Sobriety Thread

i've been sober a lot recently. its not that i'm trying to stay sober, i'm just trying to save money so with that comes sobriety... heh, its not really that bad tho
 
Yeah - there are some real advantages to periods of sobriety - good for saving money, good for getting some good nights' sleep, good for us skinny guys to put on a little weight.
 
ive been sober 14 months and its a fucking trip........ i am a drug addict and being sober is the hardest thing EVER EVER EVER!


Staying sober is not easy whoever says its easy holy shit
 
Wellllllll...................

Today is my first day on methadone....I had the craziest weekend from fri-tuesday, it was like it jus kept gettin worse n worse....Ive told the story in a couple other places on BL so far but ill put it here since its definately on topic.

Friday....

I was goin out to cop with my hot BL friend when my ex called me up threatening to tell my family that im a heroin addict. I was like fuck...but i said fuckit, ima just get reallll high tonight and not go home tomorrow so i might as well enjoy and binge out for my last couple days of dope use before my shit blows the fuck up. then he called me back and said nevermind, i didnt actualy go to ur parents, so dont worry. i felt alot better after that.

So we went down to the spot and copped and afterwards we go to pickup my homie and his nigga on one of the main streets and we pullin out of the hood about to go home and get high, but then i got on the highway and the second i hit the fuckin highway i got pulled over by 3 cars with 5 cops total. it was a undercover in a white tinted out civic, a black dodge ram truck with tints, AND a sheriff car. so there is 4 of us and 5 cops on us. i was tryna play but then they knew EVERY SINGLE PLACE I had been at. they had been havin me on surveillance for the whole fuckin time, since we copped. all over everywhere i went they knew every fuckin spot, i guess they was tapin me or had cameras on the dope spot or somethin. who knows , but they knew i had the dope cuz they watched us cop it and said if they had to search to find it id go in county over the weekend and i didnt wana be dopesick up in there, so i just gave them the few bags that i had,They found the sets, and they got me and my boy for possession of heroin charges. but the good part was i had other dope back at the crib n still had some for me and my boy to share when we got home, so at least after all that we got ROR'ed n got high.

Saturday....
i was drivin on Rt 4 n some cunt was stopped on the highway cuz the guy in front of her was stopped. so i hit her in the ass becuz my brakes wasnt too good, and totaled my car. the bitch BEGGED me not to call the cops and said she didnt have time to wait for the cops to come. said i would just pay for her damage, we dont go thru insurance, etc, so i said fine lets bounce.

Sunday....
i aint got no car, no more money or dope, and i get the call from the bitch that i hit, her man is threatening me saying i did a hit and run! The fuck?? Why would the bitch have my info, if it was a hit and run? tell me that yo. he was tryna say that *I* was the one who didnt want the cops to come and he made up a story saying that i threw drugs out the window when i hit her, which i fuckin 100% didnt. in no way shape or form. He straight up lying and callin me non stop makin threats to me. so we had to go to the cops n file the report n shit. im in the car wit my folks on the ride down to the police station and they be like...ur ex told us whats up. Youre a heroin addict. this n that. bla bla.

Monday....

I jus slept all day. i got pills from the ER cuz i got hurt in the accident so i stay sleepin on them percs. My parents knows im a dope feen but they still dont know about court. I ask my ex for a ride to court on tuesday.

Tuesday.....
my ex shows up to my house to give me the ride to court, and my moms asks where were going, and he goes IM TAKIN HER TO COURT!!! The fuck!?! This mutha fucka, cannot keep his fuckin mouth shut. So i was like whatever...I told them i was alone when i got arrested. i didnt want em to see my boy in a bad way cuz he was wit me. so i was like fine im goin, ill tell you how it goes. then im waitin in line and they fuckin SHOW UP to court, and see that its me and my boy, BOTH with charges, and that i had needles in the car, so now they know that I was shootin it, AND that my boy is a dopehead, when i told them that he was clean and was helping me get clean. so now they think that he got me doin dope, etc etc and its jus fucked. I didnt want them comin, so they wouldnt hear the charges against my boy read so tehy would see him as good peopels, cuz he really is a good guy and helps me out alot with gettin clean.

Wednesday.....

So now i am stuck at the crib wit no whip no money no drugs no nothin, im in the clinic so i cant piss dirty (thas another reason Ima try n do suboxone, cuz i need to smoke my weed) and my shits allll fucked up. So im guessin Ima be sober for a lil bit now huh.

Gettin arrested, wreckin my car, havin my family know what I been doin, then them findin out about court, then the hit n run charges, and the pressure from the clinic to get counseling n all this bullshit that I dont fuckin need, is alot on my mind right now so Ima try n keep it right and take one thing at a time, but damn now this shit makes me feel a LOT better about all those nites i would be on here bitching like "aw no one pickin up they phone i cant get high tonite" well now i would trade anything in the world, to be not gettin high becuz i couldnt get a hookup for that one day , instead of by force. *SMH*


Sorry for such a long post yall, i definately aint even expectin nobody to read all that, it jus felt good to write it all out and get it down on paper like that u kno? Anyways....Day 1 of sobriety is up n runnin. lets see how that shit goes.
 
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I think being sober is a trip in itself, and perhaps a very interesting one. I can really appreciate it, now, after years of epic drug binging, when I look at, say, a tree, and perceive it with my brain chemistry totally unadulterated ... or think normal, sober thoughts. I'm almost done with a Suboxone taper, not really drinking alcohol, smoked pot once in the past few weeks, and doing no other drugs. It really, truly is a fascinating state of mind, this sobriety...
 
Yeah - I am going to try to stay sober this entire work week even though I have a few small rocks of crack left from the weekend. Even though those little fuckers are calling my name I really really wanna try to just let them sit there until next weekend. I need to focus on work this week and work some overtime and not get fucked up. Hope I can pull this off.
 
7months Sobriety! Not forced, but I was sick of being homeless and or locked up. Drugs are a bitch.

Edit: Anyone in this thread who has posted "OMG SOBRIETY IS SO HARD ITS MISERABLE" If your doing it right, its the best thing in the fucking world. I'm 21 and sober, I live 2 blocks from the beach.

7months ago I was homeless in mid December living in a box in Manhattan. Where else can you see a turn around like that? So yay sobriety. If your fighting for everyday sober and your not in early sobriety, you might wanna check what your doing.
 
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I want to get sober... i just get bored and drugs cure boredom.
Must learn to be at peace with boredom...
Must learn to be at peace with boredom...
Must learn to be at peace with boredom...
 
Sober for over a week and it feels really good - putting on weight, enjoying eating, sleeping great, have lots of energy and this is also good for my finances - - yeah, will party again in the not too distant future but the break is doing me good. Need to plan these breaks and stick to it more often
 
Sober since 9/24/08

definitely not voluntary, but im doing it for my gf. =/

what can you do, eh. i certainly dont have a drug "problem", but some people just cannot be convinced that drugs can be used responsibly.
 
I don't know if I want to be sober-sober, but I would like to have a few days a week where I don't ingest any substances.

I've just about completely (still a little bit to go) transitioned off of suboxone. Now I got to start working on cutting back my weed usage and cutting down my caffeine usage.

I can't wait for a day where I feel good and I don't smoke weed, take caffeine, drink alcohol, or consume any other drug. :)
 
Ex-head said:
who the hell wants to be sober
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I do. Haven't had a drink in 2 1/2 years, and haven't used cocaine in 15 months.

I sleep great, and spend my waking hours relaxed and happy. I wake up without an alarm clock at 5:30 each morning, fall asleep within 1-2 minutes after I close my eyes between 9:30 - 10:30 each evening, and haven't has so much as a sniffle, sore throat, or headache in two years.

My wife loves me and we have a great relationship; we will be married 20 years next March. My kids respect me, and choose to spend time with me. I am involved in there lives every day, and find joy in every moment I spend with them.

I have no secrets, and live my life without fear, anger, and resentments.

If I get high again, I risk losing all of that and more.

FC
 
Nice FC!

I still remember that post about you ODing in the backseat of your brothers car. Glad you're doing well! :)
 
GenericMind said:
What kind of stupid question is that?
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i have a better time in my miserable life with drugs than without them thank you so i never want to be sober and im sober 2 times a week
 
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