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The Sad Thread (Anti-Snoo)

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First time i've slept alone in my flat in 6 weeks, and ever since someone tried to climb my wall and into my living room window a few days ago, every noise i've heard I've thought was someone in my flat! Grrr! Broken sleep, that I really needed was broken up even more.
 
Bit browned off and anxious at the moment. Applied fir a job and went down to the recruitment agency on Wednesday with ID to finalise things. Girl said basically you start next Wed and I'll ring later that day or Thursday to confirm. Heard nothing so rang yesterday and one of the girls said she'd get back to me.

I'm bricking it to be honest I need this, been outta work near a year. Gonna ring later, you just fell like a fuckin begger fs.... probably just forgot (I hope)
 
cherrycolouredfunk said:
First time i've slept alone in my flat in 6 weeks, and ever since someone tried to climb my wall and into my living room window a few days ago, every noise i've heard I've thought was someone in my flat! Grrr! Broken sleep, that I really needed was broken up even more.
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so sorry to hear that cherry!! i've been a bit of an ocd mess about noises ever since a similar thing. i dunno if its the same in yours too but our walls are really thin so its hard to tell if people walking around next door are in my house or not! is your window secure? is there anything you can do to make it moreso?
 
its nice to read this and see that im not the only sad one about.

anyway tomorrow i got another job interview and it makes me sad to think that i might actually get a job and have to work. working is shitty especially washing dishes all day in a hot sweaty kitchen.
 
Been feeling truly terrible for the past few days I can't stop crying or thinking about this girl.
Never felt this way before, both good and bad, happy or sad.

I thought we both felt the same way but I can only think that my words and feelings where/are true.

Shes with someone else, he doesn't make her happy but is seemingly attached to him.

I've always been the other man, but she made it clear she wanted to be with me.

Now she won't even talk or text me like she usually does :(

I feel so low and depressed and don't know what to do. She knows how I feel about her, I truly love her and was going to move miles away from my friends and family to be with her.

I just want her to come back to me like before, it was only days ago she was saying deep things and now she won't even text me.

I've been heartbroken before but this pain is so much worse. I don't want to text her or tell her how broke I feel because she will only take pity on me and that's not what I want.

How do you stop yourself thinking of someone 24/7?
 
How do you stop yourself thinking of someone 24/7?
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You can't :(

Try and involve youself in as much activity as possible, preferrably exercise as that will knacker you out and your thinking capability will be diminished.

I still think of Angelsmoke 24/7 but I try and distract myself, it works for a few hours at times but always comes back.

I have heard that time is a healer. So I guess that maybe true.
 
Sorry to hear about you and angel smoke mate.

As said I'm no stranger to heart break its happened before after an intense 3 year r.ship.

It is true time is a healer however I don't want to be without her, even if its just talking I want her in my life...it's just the fact shes off with me (no texts from 100's a day)and with her bf more now...I feel pushed out and neglected. I always thought about her before but it was in a good way, now its negative.

I feel shes avoiding me as she's trying to give her bf another ago, I want whats best for her but he doesn't treat her right and that's just as hurtful.

Hard to keep myself occupied as I'm out of work, I will just have to wait and see what happens.
 
Also taking lots of drugs again, I had sorted myself out...cold turkied opiates and a long big benzo habit as well as tramadol!! (hell) but now I'm on them all... had all mentioned today and an alarming 1000mgs of dhc :O which hasn't affected me :S
 
Lazyscience said:
what? how come?
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It's a long story. He was in supported housing for homeless, was waiting to be housed. He has social schizophrenia, and some idiot was seriously messing with his head, and had been pushing him and pushing him for weeks. Eventually my mate snapped, and beat him up. So, he got kicked out of supported housing, went awol for a while, then he showed up last week looking really healthy and together, it made me happy. It was lovely to spend some time with him. But, now he's been sent to prison. I'm still waiting to find out how long for.

We'd all assumed he'd either been sectioned or sent to prison, so it wasn't that much of a surprise when I found out. I'd rather they'd have sectioned him.
 
I've been layed up for the last 2 days with stomach cramps and other unpleasant gastro related problems.

Fuck these SSRIs and its got the cheek to be a bank holiday:|
 
My OP in this thread about my sadness about it being two years since I first came to visit Angelsmoke had the dates wrong. Have been reading through old texts from two years ago on my old phone and it turns out that today was the day that I first came up to visit. I would have been at her flat for about an hour exactly two years ago today. Was a great day, good memories, just sad reading through all the old texts which I should probably stop doing :(
 
^^^

Dont really know what to say to you mate, other than I feel for ya, I really do<3
 
mugabe said:
You can't :(

Try and involve youself in as much activity as possible, preferrably exercise as that will knacker you out and your thinking capability will be diminished.

I still think of Angelsmoke 24/7 but I try and distract myself, it works for a few hours at times but always comes back.

I have heard that time is a healer. So I guess that maybe true.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ic7KH1PpbMY

i find misogynistic hip hop helps break up woes

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Th0V-fxo9CE
 
^^^^

Please dont take this the wrong way but why are byuo still living at home with your folks?
 
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