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The Sad Thread (Anti-Snoo)

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man i cant believe this shit, my parents have just went away on holiday for the week and i have absolutely no money or anything .... After me telling them im sick of being alone in teh house with fuck all to do on saturday when they were going out also ... man this blows big time
 
my friend started pinning for the first time two days ago, and did a snowball at my house for the first time the other night. he said he didn't want to do it alone so came mine. I'm sad and worried for him. He said it was just a once in a while thing. I'm trying to distance myself from this stuff but most of my friends are users so knock on me to share a score with me. been good today and been clean, but that's as i only been awake 6 hours after using i slept for 16 hours and missed Wednesday. my boyfriend would leave me i ever pinned and there also no way i could do it. anyway waffledone. . i needed to vent that. tramadol and film time.
 
cherrycolouredfunk said:
my friend started pinning for the first time two days ago, and did a snowball at my house for the first time the other night. he said he didn't want to do it alone so came mine. I'm sad and worried for him. He said it was just a once in a while thing. I'm trying to distance myself from this stuff but most of my friends are users so knock on me to share a score with me.
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If you don't stop them using in your flat, before you know it you'll have to move cities to lose your association with the drug. But you know all this you crazy girl - GET A GRIP CHERRY. If you lose your flat & laptop you won't be able to post here any more and we'll miss you.

I know its bad form to follow someone round berating them for drug use so I'll stop now, but reading your posts has put a serious downer on my day cherry. Sorry for nagging, I'll say no more on the subject :| <3
 
I know I know, I lost my temper on Tuesday night, I'd had some friends staying over for the weekend, they were quiet! They left on the tuesday afternoon. Then Tuesday night, some friends came in (2 of them) to have a smoke with me and my boyfriend. Then another turns up to score, and one of them's on the phone DESPERATELY trying to sort out. I just snapped and told them to all fuck off and get out they didn't need to be on the phone talking loud where my neighbours could here and that I wasn't a fucking hostel or a crack house!!!

I'd finished all my drugs, and was sick of hearing his desperation. He'd already ticked me once as i'm skint, and was trying to get me to tick again so he could score, I aint daft.

My neighbours will get fucked off again with the trapsing in and out of people up my stairs at all hours of the night. I think the extremity of my snap will keep them away for a while.

The friend i'm worried about came back half hour later, just to ask if he could pin up as he was scared to do it alone. Me being me, let him come in as i'd never be able to forgive myself it anything happened to him and i'd said no.
 
A girl with a flat living on her own - perfect. You'll wake up in a months time and the world and his dog will be sat on your couch or hammering on the door 24/7. Everyone likes a nice place to use, if its got a sofa & kettle even better. These people aren't your friends cherry, you're vulnerable and they subconciously know that. let them fend for themselves even if you feel you want their 'friendship'. The stream of visitors will become constant and you'll be out of there so fast. Your neighbours aren't stupid.
 
^ Ah no no, they are not randoms!!! They are friends of my boyfriend, not homeless, have jobs.....well one of them ;)

The other night just got out of hand, as I was wasted myself, and too many of my BF's mates came in, and I was already sick of having a houseful as I'd let some Latvian mates stay as they had nowhere else.

I don't let anyone I don't know in!
 
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im sad because i want to get fucked up but i seem to have this strange sense of responsibility thats preventing me from doing it.
 
badandwicked said:
A girl with a flat living on her own - perfect. You'll wake up in a months time and the world and his dog will be sat on your couch or hammering on the door 24/7. Everyone likes a nice place to use, if its got a sofa & kettle even better. These people aren't your friends cherry, you're vulnerable and they subconciously know that. let them fend for themselves even if you feel you want their 'friendship'. The stream of visitors will become constant and you'll be out of there so fast. Your neighbours aren't stupid.
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Wise words.

I had to move to the other side of the city because every user in the hostel across the road became my 'best mate'. Such good mates that one of them tried to rip me off even though I'd been generous with sorting him.

It's easy to fall into, but difficult to get out of. I know you've got more than enough sense, so be sure to let it prevail, okay? :)
 
Lazyscience said:
im sad because i want to get fucked up but i seem to have this strange sense of responsibility thats preventing me from doing it.
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I wish I had that sense of responsibility, perhaps if I did I would still be employed and independent instead of free loading at my mama's with nothing to do but wait for the postman to deliver more stuff, damn.8)
 
once again in the sad thread

depressed as fuck once again.. again i dont know why but i just had to write it just to get it out of me ....
 
yeah they are back tomorrow i think

just heaps of stuff bothering me tbh , i hate the fact i need drugs to be happy but i dont want to stop doing them although they are probably hat is causing the unhappiness even though i am only on meth , but still i sit and think i want to get off of it but at the same time i know i will just end up with a habit again

I think yeah i will be happy when i get a job but only so i can buy drugs and i know this is not why i should be wanting to work, then i think when i finally get my own place i will end up alone and in a shit hole cos i will spend it all on drugs

Before when i was younger i didnt give a shit about it but now im 30 im like ffs 30 and staying with my folks with nothing to show for all the years that i did work my arse off

i just feel like sitting getting in a to complete mess, i guess a distructive mode of heaps of valies and gear is what i would love right now

i had the chance to do a full rehab project and turn my life round and i done a runner after a month even though my parents paid for the first month then i managed to get funding which is like gold dust in aberdeen,, no one from aberdeen city gets funding any more so i threw away a golden oppertunity by running away just like i always do

When i first came out that place i was so happy and a different person and that was only with one month so if i stayed the full 8 months i think it was god knows how i would be now .. i was so damn stupid with the things i done after getting out of there and now im in a worse place than before tbh for a number of reasons

just heaps of shit in my head that i had sorted out and then went back to the way i was before

i just hate who i am tbh to simplify things
 
Just been talking about angelsmoke and brought back feelings again, been crying again :( Still can't believe it is over. I wish things could have turned out differently, I don't think I will ever get over her. She is/was the love of my life and I don't think that time will make things easier.

Gonna go to sleep now before I get too depressed and upset about the whole thing. Really want her in my life but I know that it can't work right now.

Maybe one day we will find each other again when we are both in the same place and want the same things. I hope so, but I can't expect her to wait for me to sort out my issues.
 
bignbrown said:
sorry to hear all that mate :(

hope everything works out for you, pm if you want a chat :)
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Thanks dude , im gonna hit the sack though and try get some sleep and hopefully wake up in a better mood , ive been sat trying to do art all day and cant produce anything im happy with so time for a film in bed and then sleep

mugabe said:
, I don't think I will ever get over her.
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Been in alot of relationships that i end up in the place u are now thinking the same , although you dont think you will it will come a day when you think ah i feel better and will move on ... we all think like that at the beginning of a break up but believe me it will pass in time
 
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