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The Sad Thread (Anti-Snoo) 2 - Tory Britain in Flames

Eh, where'd that come from? 1) I'd never be glad that anyone was in a mess and 2) I do actually like you. *peer*
 
Just got the feeling I wasn't on your Xmas card list.
Sorry if it came across as being rude, it wasn't meant badly. Have a good night.
 
starting to think I need to lay off drugs significantly. It seems like I'm perpetually on a comedown or hungover these days. It feels like 90% of my time is spent waiting around til I feel 'normal' again and it fucking sucks. The good times are good no doubt but it's just the same thing over and over again now, the same old clubs and bars, the same old cuddle fests and generic loved up shit talking. There's a few new people around and stuff, but it's not as fun or exciting anymore. Sort of feel like my love affair with drugs is coming to an end, the comedowns are getting worse and starting to outweigh the good times. I think I need a month or two to take it easy, relax, focus on my uni work, girlfriend and sorting my head out a bit.

will always take decent psychedelics I think but stuff like MDMA and cocaine I'm going to leave for special occasions, and certain stuff like mephedrone I'm going to cut out entirely. Just want to explore what life has to offer outside of getting fucked up all the time. Which probably sounds really lame but like I said it's just starting to fuck up my body and brain too much.
 
Pagey said:
Thanks Bodda. Yeah PAWS are an absolute nightmare. Was doing so much better and ever since they've come back I've just wanted to put a gun to my head. Fuck this.

If my dad dies this time I just...Ah fuck.
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Shit mate, really hope things take a turn for the better :( Hopin for you both <3

edit: rest of post was pointless to anyone but me. don't wanna re-read that when I'm happy. finally accepted I'll never have a stable relationship with my mother because she is proud of holding grudges and harassing people. I'm not like that and that's why it hurts so much, but I'll be out of here soon. I hope. Family defined by blood isn't always family.
 
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Snolly, I thought I'd never have an adult relationship with my parents. Got to say though that after 23 years away from parental hell I have absolutely no quarrels with them whatsoever. I wouldn't want to live with them again, I was planning to do just that but I've come to my senses. For a start their choice of TV programmes is beyond the inane. I had to sit through an Inspector Montalbano episode last night, it was like one of those dramas you watch at school when you're learning French (it's Italian but I didn't do Italian!), except it was almost soft porn and it went on for two fucking hours. "Your dad's favourite programme". Fucking hell I was bored stiff.

So yeah my parents mostly bore me to death nowadays but that's better than feeling got at and constantly criticised :D
 
My mum and stepdad watch those awful Game shows like Bruce's Price is Right and all the rest of them like spin the wheel and all that crap, they get really into it with all the "higher" and "lower" type stuff. I really cant stand it. My Dad is a bit more like me in his tastes, ive kind of distanced myself from him for a while, but we are gettting along better now and communicating more often. Im not sure how I'll deal with it when his time comes, presuming i dont do anything daft to myself first, ive yet to experience loosing anyone i was/am close to, so theres a fair amount of dread there. Sorry to be so morbid.
 
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Does anyone have any direct experience with a close relative and Dementia (Vaslcular).

I could see this starting a good few years ago but medical treatment has only recently been sougth, I thought I'd kind of grieved this person a long while ago for complicated reasons now all those feeling are coming back again and I have other relatives unwilling or unable to acknowledge the quite well advanced condition.

It breaks my heart to see this person this way, I've lost them over and over throughout my life and now they have been lost to this illness and any opportunity to really talk has gone, everyone thinks I'm OK with all this but I'm not, so many things never resolved so many things I needed to understand that will never be.

He was/is a fine man, but he is slipping away and I can barely reach him anymore, fuck knows how I can go through what could be years of this:|
 
That sounds very sad, Allein. Fortunately none of my close relatives have had this disease. My brother's mother in law has been in slow decline to senile dementia for a few years. Sometimes it's very funny, like I was visiting once and we went to her house for a meal (she lives at home with her husband, in a literal mansion like Albion's place, with an estate, dunno where that came from) and she spilled some wine on the table. Rather than getting a cloth she bent over and slurped it off the table. Couldn't help laughing.

Although maybe that wasn't her disease :sus: anyway other times it's just tragic. :\
 
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Snolly, I thought I'd never have an adult relationship with my parents. Got to say though that after 23 years away from parental hell I have absolutely no quarrels with them whatsoever. I wouldn't want to live with them again, I was planning to do just that but I've come to my senses. For a start their choice of TV programmes is beyond the inane. I had to sit through an Inspector Montalbano episode last night, it was like one of those dramas you watch at school when you're learning French (it's Italian but I didn't do Italian!), except it was almost soft porn and it went on for two fucking hours. "Your dad's favourite programme". Fucking hell I was bored stiff.

So yeah my parents mostly bore me to death nowadays but that's better than feeling got at and constantly criticised :D
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You philistine Montalbano is one of the best serie of the last decade. Try read the books, they're brilliant
 
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Found out at 4.30 pm today I am sanctioned again :(
26th October - 24 January 2014 it runs for.

On a Google search on my legal rights etc I found this place which some may like to read

Skint and angry: Angry rants from the world of unemployment
http://skintandangry.wordpress.com/
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Things like this make me more fucking angry than sad.
The amount of sanctions handed out are very useful to the government as a way of saving money and I think sanctioned people are not included in unemployment figures.
1000 sick people have died in 12 months after being passed as 'fit for work' by those ATOS nazis.
http://unemploymentmovement.com/forum/unemployment-and-job-centre-plus
Good place to find out all the latest info to do with Jobcentre,sanctions etc. Well worth checking out Bodda
 
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maxalfie said:
Things like this make me more fucking angry than sad.
The amount of sanctions handed out are very useful to the government as a way of saving money and I think sanctioned people are not included in unemployment figures.
1000 sick people have died in 12 months after being passed as 'fit for work' by those ATOS nazis.
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A study conducted by the DWP in 2006 showed that around 130,000 claimants in total were subject to sanction referral in a year. These latest figures are seeing figures of over 110,000 in a single month.
http://dpac.uk.net/2013/06/jsa-benefit-sanctions-sky-rocket-under-coalition/

tbh Maxalfie I really am thinking of leaving the UK atm, I am kind of lost as I feel my world has stopped.
Of course I have that thing for over Xmas I spoke of on Facebook but that's not for a while.
 
It's a national disgrace the number of people in this country that are reliant on food banks and it's not just the unemployed either due to folks wages being so low.
Check that link out I added to my previous post when you get the time as some interesting information on there.
 
Bearlove said:
Oi! Is that creative speaking?
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No, it's not. I don't see why. I don't.

NightsEpiphany said:
what why?

genuinely?
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Cuz...I dunno. I don't love my boyfriend anymore. I don't love my friends. I hate myself, I don't even know who 'myself' is. My dad is dying and said he wishes I were instead. I want to hurt myself. I'm disgusted in myself. I hate everything about myself and I want 'me' to be gone.
 
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