i iv'ed dope for the first time
was harm reductive and played it safe pertaining to the amounts used...was retarded though for winging it based on what i've read and have witnessed in films that have accurately displayed IV use in a passable manner....but no personal instructor, just don't know any
honestly, this experience may have saved my life in a GOOD way
fucking IV use is such a disgusting game of extreme pain in the ass inconvenience and chance of pussy assed acidentical suicide
fuck that
iv'e got what it takes
i'm going to start playing 'run like hell type' pick up basketball, i miss it, considering i played twice a week every week years prior and i'm also returning to the sexual active lifestyle again, but this time it's actually going to be a challenge because damn well i'm obeying to a strict diet of borderline straight edge woman who support my sobriety, i don't feel like i should hide my (hopefully past) use to new woman i meet, no you won't see me in SLR and i kind of already have a woman who could be this lol indeed
i want money again god dammit, i'm finally fucking making some decent 40 hour a week kind of cash,living rent fre and most meals given to me, yet i'm wasting it all selfishly to get high, and suddenly i'm all jacked up in sweet ass debt for first time in my life.. owe money to the bank, no way in hell, not even closest friends to i ask for or allow them start some kind of open loan
if i continue this bullshit, the following is without doubt not happening:
i've always dreamt of starting my own family, but breaking all the rules and shit, like the relationship lasting as something that is a genuinely really awesome experience, for at least 25 years, because i will give a shit, would be be a kick ass dad(coaching sports teams, go fishing a lot, teaching basics to most sports with(kind of a test too, if the kid isn't into this shit he may not be mine),openly display love around the house and most importunately spending most of my money towards their happiness(this sounds like mission impossible if you're kids don't live with you), plus several other essential kick ass dad traits
commit to an overly impressed wife who enjoys awarding me in lovely ways it(you may see me in SLR one day for this) and i really need to get away from unhealthy real family, even though they are fucking awesome people
no way that kind of shit deserves or happens to a junkie....
i only tell you guys this kind of shit because i feel like if tell mom-bl'ers this info it would undoubtedly cause unwanted drama and TDS is filled with pedos and trannies(i might have exaggerated a little) and for the most part you're all friends of mine who just happen to be pretty damn anonymous
if you say anything, let it be something else besides 'go see a professional'; cause i will be soon
now please make light of me being a more than likely gigantic wack job