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Mental Health The Rant Thread Vs. Really? How Does That Make You Feel?

I see nothing but evil and stupidity around me. I believe all I ever had was being briefly kept ignorant against peoples intentions. I love you, syd.
 
Once I went into a strangers apt and literally saw a piece of shit blowing meth smoke into a dog's face.
 
Turned 41 on Sept. 22, of this year. Mom planned to take me out and we were both going to get piercings...she higher ear piercings swing low earlobes, and myself another ubela piercing or just something... She had a cracked tooth, got an implant today, totally unexpected...And being on the autism spectrum, it just yea, I'm holding back angry tears, but it just is a floating dumpster fire on the inside...

I want to be outside the house on my own. I've done so much better in the last two years after being off birth control... I'm probably just going to make the commute to Regent University, which is a bridge tunnel and one hour away, but at this point the environment I thrive in is a brick-and-mortar face-to-face academic environment.

I'll need to find employment perhaps at the school itself and come home intermentally. Sleep in my car? No idea. no dice on autism support groups, as I've had just straight-up persecution for being a Christian. That's a bit odd, Ferdan the bull. Just let me stay under my cork tree and smell the freaking flowers, please.

What's worse, and the most gut-wrenching, is the flack I get from those within the damn autism community just for saying I'll pray for them, or agreement with an amen...I'm sorry. When did this become a crime? Uh, I know you're offended easily.

No idea? OK, LBGTQ whatever never spoke a word of disrespect to each their own. But for some reason the passion I have for biblical study, ironically those that are in the autism community, or others just acting like the Sadducees and religious dogmatic leaders in Jesus's time...

I mean what? wow...I know I'm a minority within one, but dang...female with high functioning autism, who's a Jesus freak...heaven forbid others assume it's the highway to hell for them...it's weird and frankly unsurprising...callback to being in high school...

"What are you?" not "Who are you?"

Might be just me? But it's the anthesis of inclusion, and frankly expected... blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness sake for theirs is the kingdom of heaven...Think it not strange when you encounter a variety of trials, those that are for Jesus and those that are not—it's beyond the physical, a war for souls, or an offensive stench in the nostrils of others.

Other things could be mentioned, but I'm so damn tired. Just yeah...anyway, thanks for reading...
 
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This coppa wuz likes...you've gots to pey for your cough syrups like and I was likes no coppa I ain't its a simple currency system right
 
I have 2 cracked off fucking teeth and i need dental work badly but i have very minimal dental insurance that only covers extractions. I wanna get nitrous but the estimate i got on that was under 600 fucking goddamn dollars :mad:. Why the fuck is nos so expensive at the dentist? If i just wanted to get high i could buy it much cheaper myself.

Having to pay for dental in Canada is fucking bullshit though. We can afford to fund 2 wars to 2 fascist governments but we cant afford dental insurance for people. That is some fuck shit. So much for Treudea being a supposed Communist then according to stupid right wingers. Fuck that guy, fuck neo liberalism, fuck Canada and double fuck capitalism right up the ass with 2 dildos.. Any civilized country should atleast cover dental along with health. The basic function of a government should be to provide services for its citizens.

This is pissing me off hardcore and for all i know i may need dental surgery as i dont know if theres enough of my tooth left for them to pull out. I sure as shit cannot afford that
 
I almost got my cough syrup I stole stolen at walgreens....by the security guard who literally poked my jacket. As I walked out.. too bad I literally rely on them for life saving meds at the pharmacy....luckily there's another walgreens down the street. I hope they don't post my photo up at all locations. What do you think? I mean they just poked my pocket....I can't take care of myself anymore
 
Okay...well apparently I could still go to cvs.

Just another day of mentally retarded sociopaths loudly abusing me over electromagnetic sound torture
 
paranoid android said:
I have 2 cracked off fucking teeth and i need dental work badly but i have very minimal dental insurance that only covers extractions. I wanna get nitrous but the estimate i got on that was under 600 fucking goddamn dollars :mad:. Why the fuck is nos so expensive at the dentist? If i just wanted to get high i could buy it much cheaper myself.

Having to pay for dental in Canada is fucking bullshit though. We can afford to fund 2 wars to 2 fascist governments but we cant afford dental insurance for people. That is some fuck shit. So much for Treudea being a supposed Communist then according to stupid right wingers. Fuck that guy, fuck neo liberalism, fuck Canada and double fuck capitalism right up the ass with 2 dildos.. Any civilized country should atleast cover dental along with health. The basic function of a government should be to provide services for its citizens.

This is pissing me off hardcore and for all i know i may need dental surgery as i dont know if theres enough of my tooth left for them to pull out. I sure as shit cannot afford that
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You can always get the tooth pulled at the hospital. It’s not ideal, but it’s better than living in extreme pain. I know a few people who have gone this route. I think it was around 100$? Something like that. Could be worth looking into.
 
Yeah yeah yeah take all the fentanyl then meet a murderer

Your drinks are literally two good luck
 
pixies+ said:
You can always get the tooth pulled at the hospital. It’s not ideal, but it’s better than living in extreme pain. I know a few people who have gone this route. I think it was around 100$? Something like that. Could be worth looking into.
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They dont do that here. If you go to the ER here the best you can hope for is to get some antibiotics. I did have to go to the ER in Toronto once when i had a infected tooth and they where nice enough to give me antibiotics and tylenol 3's. Back then i had no opiate tolerance so i got nicely high off the codeine. Here in Newfoundland you aint getting no codeine though. Usually here there is such a wait time that you dont go unless your completely fucked and cant treat it at home. Also with covid now i am not waiting around in the ER.

I may be forced to just take some shit before i go to the dentist. Some zopiclone or enough clonazepam before i go in may chill me out enough to sit in a dentists chair. I only have to pay for the nos not the extractions.

I have 1 fucking tooth hanging off by the root here. Surprisingly its not hurting right now. Fucking hell i need to see a dentist bad this shit aint good
 
The federal fucking government is threatening me with hackers breaking my phone "for not doing what they said to do"
 
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