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the question no one wants to admit!!!

Ok, so where were you and more importantly, what were you on when you first realized that you were HOOKED.

Benzodiazepines, opioids (heroin included), cocaine (crack included), methamphetamine, MDMA, MDA, ketamine, marijuana, Soma, prescription amphetamine (methylphenidate included), 4-Methylaminorex, peyote, phenobarbital, GHB, nitrous oxide, psiloybin, PCP, LSD, inhalants (shame on me), DXM, DMT, methcathinone...I'm sure that there are some research chems that I haven't given a try, just 'cuz I know jack shit about 'em. Other than that...I've done it all

--are you still rockin the boat

Like fucking? Opioids and benzodiazepines kinda keep me from it but MDMA and stimulants allow. ;)

--are you in control

FUck no

--any regrets

Fuck yes
 
everyone in this thread so far that feels bad about mentioning a marijuana addiction, please don't. it's just as real of an issue as anyone else's.

i've just come to realize (again) that i have an alcohol problem after i nearly lost my SO this last weekend. once i was forced to stop and think about how many times i've had to set "rules" for myself and then not be able to stick to them, i began to understand that my drinking was out of control.

here are some examples of the "rules" i'm talking about:

- only X number of drinks per sitting

- only drinking on the weekends

- only drinking on non-school or non-work nights

- only drinking for 'special occasions'
(this one is the most ridiculous; you can make an "occasion" out of just about anything.)

- no drinks for X amount of days/weeks/until a set date/whatever

when i looked back on how many times i'd set guidelines for myself to help me moderate my use and still hadn't improved, it became clear that i just had to quit altogether.

i'm sure plenty of you can relate to many of the "rules" above if you substitute 'drinks' or 'drinking' for using your own drug of choice. the struggle is similar despite the substance in question, so please don't belittle someone else and their story by saying their drug isn't "hard core" enough.

as of now, no, i don't rock the boat. i understand that i can't rock it even a little bit without totally capsizing.

so far, i'm in control, but things change every day.

regrets are plenty and not appropriate for this thread.
 
I have never had a problem with hard drugs. I have always been too wary of possible problems so have moderated my usage very carefully.

However not so with alcohol, which I have no problem to admitting that I'm addicted. Fortunately it doesn't have any major negative affects on my life, but I do need to get drunk at least once or twice every week.

This week has been has been a big one, totally shitfaced Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday nights. Its Friday today and I am going to the pub for lunch and that will get the cycle for the weekend.

This type of behaviour isn't typical, but does happen from time to time. I typically don't drink (much) during the week.

I have tried to give up the drink several times for one month to help let my body recover after a particularly large binge. My best effort is about 10 days until the cravings get too much and I need to drink.

So that’s the monkey on my back.

[Edit]: Forgot to mention my only regret is all the money I have pissed up against the wall. But I think thats normal for most people.
 
I've been smoking cigs for about a year (3/4 pack a day on average) and I've done coke quite a bit in the past year too, both substances that everyone hears are so addicting. I haven't done any coke in almost 3 months but I think about getting some almost every day. I haven't smoked a cig in 4 days and I'm doing just fine.
 
I think addiction to weed isn't physical or mental, but habitual. If you break down a stoners Lifestyle, you'll see that weed is integrated very delicately into their lives, it fills their time, empties their stomachs and puts their heads to rest.

In this 'lifestyle' sense I am addicted to weed, however the consequences of a weed addiction are far from tragic comparitively. Im just glad that I just THC as my poison and not another substance that has more serious implications from heavy use.

A bloke I met a few weeks ago has a meth and alcohol addiction, not only did he talk drunken shit, he talked A LOT of it.
 
i'll admit it that i am addicted to weed. both physically and mentally. i'm stuck in the stoner lifestyle. i hang out with stoners and i hang out with non-stoners yet even around the non-stoners i have to be high. i barely ever eat anymore unless i am stoned and i cannot sleep without weed.

Are you still rockin the boat?

fuck yeah i am, and i'm not going to cut down until school starts (late august). i'm just glad i have the money

Are you in control?

no, but i'm glad that i am not really big in any other drugs because i have an addictive mindset

Any regrets?

not yet no
 
Cigarettes... when I first started smoking I used to go the whole work day without a smoke and then rush back home after work and light up and get quite high off that first cig. It turned into a ritual... when i started coming home early from work just to light a cigarette I realized I was hooked. No regrets. About being in control.. .well I dunno.. I can't go without so I guess i'm not in control..
 
Tri-nity said:
smoking weed can be quite addictive, I dont know how and it's not physical at all, not really mental either, maybe it's a 3rd kinda addiction.
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All drug addications are classified using the same standards. If you look in the DSM-IV, they will list all 9-10 characteristics of addition (depending on how many on the list apply to you, depends on whether or not you can be diagnosed for an addiction.)

The confusion over this issue comes down to withdrawal. Pot is one of the only drugs that does not cause physical withdrawal. It may cause irritability if you do not smoke it every day, when you are used to...but, you aren't going to be puking because your body is craving pot!

So, despite popular opinion...Pot is addicting...
Food for thought
 
I first realized i was an addict after a night of heavy drinking I woke up with a hangover and just reached for my bottle of rum and started drinking it straight. I stopped for a while after that because it really scared me. Alcoholism runs real strong in my dad's family and I was afraid it was finally catching up with me.

I still drink, but not a whole lot and only on Friday or Saturday night. NEVER both nights in a row.

I am in control of myself now and I've only lost it once since March, and that was over a girl.

I have a few regrets, not many, but enough....
 
realized that there may be an addiction to certain opiates & benzos of choice when I would not even plan on using one day, but as soon as someone mentions the remote 'possibility', i couldn't get the idea out of my head and would have to, even if said plans never went though.
Also, when the using went from only once a week, to stretching to twice, three, four, then almost daily....finding simple reasons to "celebrate", and then really needing no reason at all...

I am rocking the boat, yes. Tolerance keeps increasing, though I have cut back to four nights a week. It sometimes can be very difficult in those off-nights, especially the second night sober when i get a runny nose, mild muscle muscle cramps and insomnia.

I believe I am still in control, but don't yet see a purpose to stop. I am tapering now, and will soon be down to using only once or twice a week. Once I am back in school I know that is all I will really be able to handle (both my mind and my wallet).

Not many regrets pertaining to use... kind of wish I would have stuck to lower doses at first, and maybe that I had more hobbies that would bring me to a desired level of happiness on their own instead of resorting to using to bring me there... though some things have been changing... (and for the better, physically and mentally)
 
--are you still rockin the boat

Not today or for that matter the last month. I'm just to broke to afford it. I only get to drink a beer or maybe score a couple of darvocets or other pills every now and then with luck.

--are you in control

No, not really. If I can steal it, beg it, "borrow" it, buy it have it offered or just get lucky and find it I will do it. Whether its H, pills, Meth, or even booze and I prefer it in a point if possible.

--any regrets

Yes, if I said no i'd be a lying son of a bitch. I regret losing money for drugs, losing drugs, giving them away, getting ripped off, not making the best decisions and of course running out of drugs.

And where was I when I realised it was a problem? I can't really remember every time I realised this. It's something that occurs to me several times a year.
 
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When I caught myself scraping baggies and pens, searching the trash, under beds, anywhere I could look several times over, i realized i really was addicted to meth.

Not rocking the boat but I do tweak about every other weekend, I wouldnt say im still addicted bc i dont really think about it alot unless im on it and thinking about another shot. once its gone, its over and i go to sleep, wake up and eat.

i dont regret hitting bottom bc if u can bounce yourself back then it is a lesson well-learnt
 
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