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Bluelighter
A collection of my poetry. Or, what I can find of it.
Feel free to ask questions, comment, or critique.
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1
Ahead looms the fate which has been sealed for me,
Faster and faster it accends to greet me,
As if a hallucination it transcends as my brother,
Dark and viscuss it flows to form my mother,
For eternity it seems I fall to her,
Slower and slower as time goes on,
Until she stops, I'm still moving,
But never going anywhere, and she becomes another,
My love I see staring back, blind and dumb,
I shall be frozen here, alone and trapped and musing,
Like lightning it lances my being,
Stabbing through with blinding pain,
Probing forever probing for the memories,
Though my life, never was I sane,
Whips of blood and gore abound,
Torn apart, my body now unwound,
I see rivulets of life,
Draining away all the memories of strife,
Shattered and bloody, my deamon is no more,
Glass abound and bloody, now upon the floor,
Through heaven I flew eternally,
Until the day of death had come at last,
Death himself evades me yet,
For the pain, unending, boils through,
Through the church I'd fallen,
The revelers stand and scream,
All eyes on the crimson stream,
None come to aid the dying man,
None but my love you said, "You can, you can"
But I can't, and do die bleeding, upon the churchs floors...
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2
The blood, cold and lifeless,
In death we find bliss,
Grasping us in its icey palm,
Before the storm, the calm,
Stoney collums stand and wait,
We are trapped within our fate,
The undertaker, grim and cold,
stifling aroma of the old,
Told we transcend to a better place,
Darkness, staring us back in the face,
Buried and forgotten are their memories,
Of you and your activities...
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3
Dark and cold, the night we see,
Told now are our secrets,
Never knowing, what we could be,
Memories dug from the crypts,
And spilled before us now, they are,
wondrous are the lovers secrets,
As if they were a star,
Deeper still, into darkness tossed,
Under it's veil I kiss those lips,
Under the stars our souls are lost...
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4
Through pages, old & new,
Forgotten are the countless,
Remembered are the few,
Deemed today as hopeless,
Tomorrow is today anew,
Knowing we are helpless,
We are flying through,
Space, itself at unrest,
Nothing is longer true,
Thinking we are best,
Knowing what we through,
Nothing but a pest,
Our time is due...
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5
Sick & wicked are my thoughts,
Jumbled like a labyrinth of slender boughts,
Misguided in which things I sought,
Things that should not be...
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6
Alone & confused in his solum place,
Trapped & musing in that filthy cage,
absolutely nothing staring back in his face,
Darkness unfolded like an empty page,
Hatred anger & lust constructed this hardened case,
Doomed himself to die lonely in old age,
The throbbing never slacks its pace,
Uneventful like an empty stage,
All the light he seems to waste,
Buried alive & with demons chased,
Alone & confused in his solum place...
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7
Laid down without a care,
Warm blood everywhere,
Flowing freely as I stare,
Gushing out of that pair,
Those shredded arms of mine,
Draining wicked thoughts from mind,
Together the life I had once pieced,
Numb now from this life, I ceased...
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8
Fleeting glances here & there,
Quickened smiles through her hair,
Eyes like emeralds of the night,
All the more gorgeous while in my sight,
As if desending form the stars,
To release me from these wreched bars,
Pure & innocent like the dove,
Unbeknown to her she is my love...
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9
Red is hatred & disgust,
Blood bile & mistrust,
Scars scabs & rotting dust,
Anger love & wicked lust...
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10
Blue is sorrow & the sky,
Clouds & stars above you & I,
It's deceit, it is a lie,
The second thing to see when we die...
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11
Green is your envy & your pride,
It's the rotting flower that you hide,
It's the garden through which I spied,
It's hunger & things that died...
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12
White is the innocence that you boast,
The wedding gown & the wine thats toast,
It's another virgin, pure like most,
It's the rose, blooming on the coast...
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13
Black is loneliness & the gloom,
Flowers that will never bloom,
It's the heart that never loved,
It's the light around the moon...
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14
Embers from our souls,
Sparked from cinders in the dark,
Golden blood pours from the coals,
Stains the ground & leaves its mark...
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15
She's all the colors in the world,
Green eyes shimmering like little waterfalls,
Through those gems all my love is swirled,
Skin soft & flawless, as if a dolls,
Light & perfect like a goddess of the snow,
Lips smooth & flushed like some princess,
All my secrets I have for her to show,
She has the body of my goddess,
If only for a little kiss,
Sweet whispers in the darkness,
Aiming for my only chance, And I miss...
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16
Soft like light from midnight stars,
Warm as a mothers heart,
Fun as driving exotic cars,
Wonderful from the start,
With it we empty thoughts,
Setting busy minds at rest,
Darkness surrounds like iron pots,
My own I like best,
Although limits I do now test,
As if smaller than slender cots,
Some plagued with demons,
Others with fragrant flowers,
Sketched on paper with pens,
So the memory never sours,
Sleep, love, forever sleep,
Your soul the night will keep...
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17
Warped like old wood,
Bent out of shape,
As if it could,
Stay together with tape,
Wrapped and bound tight,
Letting none get away,
Never started the fight,
But forced to pay,
Like mules we trudge,
On through endless nights,
It refuses to budge,
So we must fight,
War was never ours,
Twisted are their ways,
Checking off the hours,
Now turning into days,
For finally speaking out,
Like so many stars,
Millions without a doubt,
Government is our enemy,
Resist or be enslaved,
Already coursing through me,
Revolt and be saved,
Anarchy rising in thee...
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18
They are just names & nothing more,
Petty things for us to store,
Cleaning them is such a chore,
Meaningless down through the core,
And most are such a bore,
Smashed, into pieces many more,
With the hammer of a god called Thor,
They are just names & nothing more...
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19
Tossed around like a switch,
Bright & dim your headlights flash,
Life is such an ugly bitch,
It's throat I'll someday slash,
The happy sprite, a little whore,
Before or after, you always pay,
The slut has had her merry way,
You hear the receding laughter,
It cleaves you to the core,
To see that nymph with another,
The happiness you had is no more,
Life & glee & no other...
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20
Quit forcing these things on me,
I'm opening another door this time,
A door to a place I want to be,
But my place is better you chime,
It's not my place & I will not go,
Through my own life I now climb,
All your wonders for you to show,
Leave me, I'm not your damn mime,
Through my place MY life will flow,
I'm not flowing into that life,
That muddy river of conformity,
To be cut down with man's own scythe,
I'll live my life just as I want to be...
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21
God, man made it up,
To ease his troubled mind,
Confiding fears in nothing,
They pray to their god,
Always unanswered, they still believe,
So they will never be alone,
While ending they think they fly,
Fly to nothing in a realm of nothing,
The body dies, the spirit is nowhere,
It never was, only a thought,
Something to explain something,
Something that means nothing,
Oh, its something they cry,
And they die, still hoping for something...
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22
Innocence is like a little star,
Its lost before we see its birth,
So distant we can only see its death,
Understanding is lost the more we stare,
Boggled by its massive girth,
And again by its violent death,
Wonder we will forever, about its innocence...
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23
Like some lovely little cherub,
She's plucked from me a smile,
Like some cursed shining scarab,
I turn myself to bile,
I've saved her from me,
From that thing I could be,
Twisted at my very core,
I'd rape her fragile mind,
Leave it naked on some shore,
No one should be with my kind...
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24
I want to take you away with me,
To the beautiful place where I like to be,
Such a wonderful place, I want you to see,
I'll open your doors with this wonderful key,
Doors to a place you would love to see,
This place that you'll always want to be,
After you leave it all and come with me...
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25
Look at all this shit you're doing,
We're lying to ourselves everyday,
Look at all this shit you're chewing,
You're teaching the children its ok,
To lie and cheat and steal and kill,
For looks, they're everything today,
Make problems go away with another pill,
Look at all these things you say,
How its ok to hide behind that mask,
That thing you built with make-up,
It's weird to hear someone try to ask,
Little things for you to take up,
So you won't need that ugly mask...
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26
Blankets of gold in winters sunfall,
Silver sheets in the moonlight,
Grass buried if not too tall,
Trees fear not their plight,
Skeletal collums in the night,
Cold & lifeless some to fall,
Old & strong some do fight,
They stand to see the next sunfall...
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27
Birds morning song stirs the soul,
Awakens the angels from their slumber,
Our fires blaze with added coal,
Alive now like cats for thunder,
Searching for more lovely shining plunder,
To add into that little hole,
In this nest the babies blunder,
Safe up high on their pole...
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28
Like peering into a volcanic kaleidoscope,
The joys of childhood surface again,
Looking through these wells of hope,
To look away would be sin,
Sparkling bubbles of love & joy,
Sharpened pins would never burst them,
Everyday like a brand new toy,
Your eyes, my love and joy...
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29
She is soft moonlight, filtering through,
Into my darkened forest of thought,
The dancing shadows are my only clue,
To finding all the things I sought...
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30
Who are you, what do you want from me,
I see you there, sitting, staring back,
Are you me, or am I you,
You look like me, but you speak not,
Your just a mime, as if my lost twin,
Am I a mime to you, can I step through,
I'm trapped here & you're trapped there,
What will happen if I break you,
Will you break me in my world too,
Or simply cut through me,
Will you die if I end my life,
Or just sit & stare, like a smart mime...
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31
My head is a thunderstorm,
Lightning flashes of insight,
Seen only as it's born,
Illuminates my dark night,
Gone before it's seen,
Rumbles shake my shelves,
Razors aren't so keen,
Memories are scattered everywhere,
Left in the dark now,
To clean this mess it's made,
Until insight brings it down again...
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32
Cascades of life,
Flowing from me,
Ending the strife,
Can you see,
All this pain,
I am drowning,
Nothing to gain,
Temples are pounding,
The crimson pool,
Will not stop,
Such a fool,
Veins went pop,
As the blade,
Passed through them...
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33
Azure as summers sky its base,
Cap of green like ivy leaves,
Crowned with gold from the sun,
Without eyes watches every move,
It evades every unseen blow,
Blind to the hand that bore it,
At night the candle watchs unseeing...
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34
I'm at that place again,
Floating, feelings encompassing,
Taking in, all of it, everything,
Sinking weightless forever,
The walls seem ethereal,
I see everything, all of it,
None of it, even matters anymore,
Silent thoughts overflowing,
Spilling over dream walls,
Of that place I'm in,
Floating, feelings encompassing...
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35
I'm at that place again,
It's dark, and cold, and threatening,
Rushing in, through everything,
The pain, boiling up forever,
The walls are closing in,
I can't see anything, not a thing,
None of it, even matters anymore,
Tortured thoughts overpower it,
Spilling over all the walls,
Of that place I'm in,
Floating, feelings torturing...
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36
Run, run my little angel, run to me,
Let me wrap myself within your heart,
Until I'm tangled up throughout you,
Run my little angel, run to let me in,
Let me, into your shimmer, called life,
Just one look, one touch, one taste,
That's all I need, one taste of you,
I feed, off your sensual touch,
Like a serpent, I long for more,
Forever more, tangling myself up,
Just one glance, one look, one smile,
That's all I need, that sweet smile,
It sets me off, longing for you,
Bring me into, that sparkling aura,
That thing you call your life,
Run, run to visit me, let me in,
Let me, intwine myself in your flesh,
Loose yourself to the feelings, called life,
I taste you, and you begin to feel alive,
Just one look, one touch, one taste,
That's all I need, just a taste of you...
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37
Who wants a piece of this,
Do you want a piece of me,
I'll come and tear you down,
Beat and leave you bleeding,
Broken and twisted in a ditch,
You just can't fuck around,
I'm here to eat you up,
Rip you apart and throw you down,
You're nothing but a filthy beast,
Just a simple minded tool,
Like all of us you're nothing,
A bunch of worthless meat,
So don't you fuck around,
I know you before you know yourself...
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38
Your brain is just a simple puzzle,
You can't tell because you haven't found the pieces,
All your little puzzle pieces jumbled,
I seem to know the answer,
Without ever seeing all your pieces,
Everyone has the same puzzle inside,
I think I've solved most of mine,
Enough to solve most of yours too,
Yet most don't know the puzzle is there...
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39
What what, what do you think you are,
What could you possibly be to everyone,
We're all a bunch of overcomplicated worms,
The worst of the vast multitude of everything,
Too many simple things fixed to each other,
Linked in a simple way in too many ways,
The sum of it all adds up to chaos,
Nothing gained anyway it's looked at...
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40
It came from me in sleep,
Flowing out onto virgin sheets,
Like warm sticky syrup it clings,
Matting and clotting on everything,
Staining a once clean bed,
With rivulet fed pools abound,
It's my blood that flows tonight...
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41
Passion consumes the soul,
A fire devours the body,
It's waves ravage the mind,
Pins & needles probe the insides,
Tickling & rippling throughout,
Shivers down the spine that never end...
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42
Blind to everything people wander,
Darkness overpowers all of them,
Like pins of light on a dark night,
Glimpses of life are like gazing,
Into heaven & opening the mind...
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43
What do we do now, what now,
The man of the house has left,
Left us without saying a word,
We're here without a thing to do,
All alone with each other & everyone,
Muttering & squawking with 'em all,
Conversing to entertain ourselves,
Because there is a seeming lack,
A lack of things for us to do,
To do & do & do again & again,
Keeping our little brains busy,
Busy doing simple little things we do,
Entertaining our itty-bitty- brains...
I do it all without speaking,
Because I found something else,
Another little simple thing to do,
Writing all these simple words,
Words I'll have others read later,
Creating something for us to muse,
Over at a little later date,
Almost like sacrificing the now,
For another thing for later times,
Fuck, I'm quitting because I
Keep on repeating everything.
I hate it, I'm done writing,
Damnit why am I still going,
I need to fucking stop now,
Stop writing the same old shit,
Like I'm stuck in a rut,
Writing about not being able
to stop writing all this crap.
End of page, done finally.
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44
Wish you, would come back from your dream my friend,
You've lost touch with all of us, lost within yourself,
Come back, to your friends, your family, your life,
We've lost you, lost you in a terrible nightmare,
Deamons plague your soul, draining away everything,
Bleeding you out, staining everything you pass through,
Like some old withered wraith, leaching off the living,
Come back, back to those that truly care for you,
Wake up, slip out, fall through, open that door...
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45
Delicately cooked like grandma's pie,
Dried and cut to serve it out,
Fast as light the pans are dry,
Slung out and about to everyone,
All who crave our grandma's pie,
Fiends & friends & kiddies too,
We'll sell it all to anyone,
Without a third glace at them,
Be they worm or wyrm or gnat,
If the have the fucking greens,
We'll hand them anything at all,
That's how they work their magic,
Buying cheap and selling crazy high,
They're relying on our stupid nature,
To pay way too much for everything,
But how goes the game when the
pieces start to change faces,
New blood comes in & new blood
gets kicked the fuck out,
It's a hard ass wall to get in,
With conflict ever growing harsher...
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46
Devil spades & acid hearts, turtle clubs & square diamonds,
These are what we're left to work out everything with,
Solving not the meaning, but life in and of itself,
Life without meaning must be solved within a lifetime,
Without meaning, life becomes the void we're trapped in,
Voids are worth nothing, just as a life should be,
Because of it's vast abundance, voids have neither meaning
or even the smallest amount of worth. Life, like
void space is everywhere and meaningless, thus is
worth nothing. Have I just solved life and found it equals 0?
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47
So come on dance with me out into moonlight,
Through a foggy limbo, just made for me & you,
Sleep, love, dream & forever walk with me,
Our very souls here, for the night to keep,
Sleep, love, dream & forever dream with me,
No more than a whisper, no more than a peak,
No more than a shiver, no more than a peep,
Reach & embrace strips to unreal to feel,
A web floats ethereal, as a phantom,
To cling or caress on bits of the real,
Fantasy reality everything dreamt now,
Subversive emotion feelings dreamt as well,
Silence & peace, shattered realities & dreams,
Come sleep, love, & dream tonight forever,
All our little secrets, loosed for night to keep,
She hides a dreamers whispers well,
Like the dark conceals a lover's coo,
Beautiful dreams born in a limbo for two,
Shivers follow fingertips while they wander in the dark,
So come, sleep, love, dream & walk with me,
Into tomorrow, I'll lead to you my eden,
No more than a whisper, no more than a peak,
No more than a shiver, no more than peep,
Because tonight I do invite you to a treat,
It will be our secret, on the night will surely keep,
So come on dance with me out into moonlight,
Come dance a dance no one will ever see,
Out under clouds all dozing into sleepyslumber,
Beneath waves of nimble moonlight's velvet tide,
And stars flickering their tiny pricks of light,
One to hold ever dreamers silent secrets...
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48
A spiral into heaven without bounds,
Endless oblivion seems to full & fun,
Empty images of creation unfolding,
Opening and blossoming into the spiral,
Beauty radiates it's fusing bloom,
Auras of an ominous forboding slip,
Slip & cascade into a chaotic matix,
A labyrinth of insanity down the spiral,
Still husks of a million different heavens,
Crashing into & washing over themselves,
Spider web strung & waiting to ensare,
Net & feed upon all those unaware,
To suck at & drain away an angel,
From falling down a spiralling oblivion,
To snatched & used to feed upon,
By some famished silent waiting beast,
A hundred barren hells assemble life,
To tear the weightless dreamers free,
Out of that cascading hollow heaven,
Screaming along foggy loops of infinity,
Always deeper within the spirals maze,
Onwards toward nothing but another bend,
Tranquility smashed by the violent flood,
Filling, flowing, & quickly raging on,
Chaos reigns king to the everchanging,
The unpredictably curling twists,
Winding out into some placid void,
Injecting hollow angels in a spin,
Through & out the spirals dive,
Just another path into empty space,
A fruiting seed implanted in the hole,
Angels sowing a fertial plot of infinity,
Imparting & unfolding images of innocence,
An aura of heavenly energy radiating,
Out along its cluttered corkscrew path,
Past light from the most distant stars,
Where not even empty dreams reside,
This is what heaven is unfolding in,
Clouding vapor tendrils snake & fill,
Torrent overflows & the spiral spills,
Spreading out the angels silky fogs,
To put emotion where once is empty,
Weave a beautiful maze of chaos,
Out between the curls of tranquility,
A garden filled with blooms to spiral,
Their entirety to grow & fill it all,
Everything found along the corkscrew,
As it invades an unknown emptiness,
A sea without ripples to sail upon,
Pushed by a tightly pressed coil,
A spring of chaos sprung inside,
Along the massive spirals maze,
And held within everyone's insanity,
Fermenting impulses finally crumble,
Freeing chaos in a new rush of action,
Moving & reacting to the dreamer,
Wandering in the boundless void,
Setting sail upon a virgin sea,
On water sill untouched by ripple,
Now spin into vortex water rushes,
Once just a dreamers dreams,
Now balanced in the mighty spiral,
It's labyrinth coils on in the haze,
Clouding all incompassing the chaos...
Feel free to ask questions, comment, or critique.
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1
Ahead looms the fate which has been sealed for me,
Faster and faster it accends to greet me,
As if a hallucination it transcends as my brother,
Dark and viscuss it flows to form my mother,
For eternity it seems I fall to her,
Slower and slower as time goes on,
Until she stops, I'm still moving,
But never going anywhere, and she becomes another,
My love I see staring back, blind and dumb,
I shall be frozen here, alone and trapped and musing,
Like lightning it lances my being,
Stabbing through with blinding pain,
Probing forever probing for the memories,
Though my life, never was I sane,
Whips of blood and gore abound,
Torn apart, my body now unwound,
I see rivulets of life,
Draining away all the memories of strife,
Shattered and bloody, my deamon is no more,
Glass abound and bloody, now upon the floor,
Through heaven I flew eternally,
Until the day of death had come at last,
Death himself evades me yet,
For the pain, unending, boils through,
Through the church I'd fallen,
The revelers stand and scream,
All eyes on the crimson stream,
None come to aid the dying man,
None but my love you said, "You can, you can"
But I can't, and do die bleeding, upon the churchs floors...
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2
The blood, cold and lifeless,
In death we find bliss,
Grasping us in its icey palm,
Before the storm, the calm,
Stoney collums stand and wait,
We are trapped within our fate,
The undertaker, grim and cold,
stifling aroma of the old,
Told we transcend to a better place,
Darkness, staring us back in the face,
Buried and forgotten are their memories,
Of you and your activities...
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3
Dark and cold, the night we see,
Told now are our secrets,
Never knowing, what we could be,
Memories dug from the crypts,
And spilled before us now, they are,
wondrous are the lovers secrets,
As if they were a star,
Deeper still, into darkness tossed,
Under it's veil I kiss those lips,
Under the stars our souls are lost...
_________________
4
Through pages, old & new,
Forgotten are the countless,
Remembered are the few,
Deemed today as hopeless,
Tomorrow is today anew,
Knowing we are helpless,
We are flying through,
Space, itself at unrest,
Nothing is longer true,
Thinking we are best,
Knowing what we through,
Nothing but a pest,
Our time is due...
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5
Sick & wicked are my thoughts,
Jumbled like a labyrinth of slender boughts,
Misguided in which things I sought,
Things that should not be...
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6
Alone & confused in his solum place,
Trapped & musing in that filthy cage,
absolutely nothing staring back in his face,
Darkness unfolded like an empty page,
Hatred anger & lust constructed this hardened case,
Doomed himself to die lonely in old age,
The throbbing never slacks its pace,
Uneventful like an empty stage,
All the light he seems to waste,
Buried alive & with demons chased,
Alone & confused in his solum place...
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7
Laid down without a care,
Warm blood everywhere,
Flowing freely as I stare,
Gushing out of that pair,
Those shredded arms of mine,
Draining wicked thoughts from mind,
Together the life I had once pieced,
Numb now from this life, I ceased...
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8
Fleeting glances here & there,
Quickened smiles through her hair,
Eyes like emeralds of the night,
All the more gorgeous while in my sight,
As if desending form the stars,
To release me from these wreched bars,
Pure & innocent like the dove,
Unbeknown to her she is my love...
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9
Red is hatred & disgust,
Blood bile & mistrust,
Scars scabs & rotting dust,
Anger love & wicked lust...
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10
Blue is sorrow & the sky,
Clouds & stars above you & I,
It's deceit, it is a lie,
The second thing to see when we die...
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11
Green is your envy & your pride,
It's the rotting flower that you hide,
It's the garden through which I spied,
It's hunger & things that died...
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12
White is the innocence that you boast,
The wedding gown & the wine thats toast,
It's another virgin, pure like most,
It's the rose, blooming on the coast...
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13
Black is loneliness & the gloom,
Flowers that will never bloom,
It's the heart that never loved,
It's the light around the moon...
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14
Embers from our souls,
Sparked from cinders in the dark,
Golden blood pours from the coals,
Stains the ground & leaves its mark...
_________________
15
She's all the colors in the world,
Green eyes shimmering like little waterfalls,
Through those gems all my love is swirled,
Skin soft & flawless, as if a dolls,
Light & perfect like a goddess of the snow,
Lips smooth & flushed like some princess,
All my secrets I have for her to show,
She has the body of my goddess,
If only for a little kiss,
Sweet whispers in the darkness,
Aiming for my only chance, And I miss...
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16
Soft like light from midnight stars,
Warm as a mothers heart,
Fun as driving exotic cars,
Wonderful from the start,
With it we empty thoughts,
Setting busy minds at rest,
Darkness surrounds like iron pots,
My own I like best,
Although limits I do now test,
As if smaller than slender cots,
Some plagued with demons,
Others with fragrant flowers,
Sketched on paper with pens,
So the memory never sours,
Sleep, love, forever sleep,
Your soul the night will keep...
_________________
17
Warped like old wood,
Bent out of shape,
As if it could,
Stay together with tape,
Wrapped and bound tight,
Letting none get away,
Never started the fight,
But forced to pay,
Like mules we trudge,
On through endless nights,
It refuses to budge,
So we must fight,
War was never ours,
Twisted are their ways,
Checking off the hours,
Now turning into days,
For finally speaking out,
Like so many stars,
Millions without a doubt,
Government is our enemy,
Resist or be enslaved,
Already coursing through me,
Revolt and be saved,
Anarchy rising in thee...
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They are just names & nothing more,
Petty things for us to store,
Cleaning them is such a chore,
Meaningless down through the core,
And most are such a bore,
Smashed, into pieces many more,
With the hammer of a god called Thor,
They are just names & nothing more...
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Tossed around like a switch,
Bright & dim your headlights flash,
Life is such an ugly bitch,
It's throat I'll someday slash,
The happy sprite, a little whore,
Before or after, you always pay,
The slut has had her merry way,
You hear the receding laughter,
It cleaves you to the core,
To see that nymph with another,
The happiness you had is no more,
Life & glee & no other...
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Quit forcing these things on me,
I'm opening another door this time,
A door to a place I want to be,
But my place is better you chime,
It's not my place & I will not go,
Through my own life I now climb,
All your wonders for you to show,
Leave me, I'm not your damn mime,
Through my place MY life will flow,
I'm not flowing into that life,
That muddy river of conformity,
To be cut down with man's own scythe,
I'll live my life just as I want to be...
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God, man made it up,
To ease his troubled mind,
Confiding fears in nothing,
They pray to their god,
Always unanswered, they still believe,
So they will never be alone,
While ending they think they fly,
Fly to nothing in a realm of nothing,
The body dies, the spirit is nowhere,
It never was, only a thought,
Something to explain something,
Something that means nothing,
Oh, its something they cry,
And they die, still hoping for something...
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Innocence is like a little star,
Its lost before we see its birth,
So distant we can only see its death,
Understanding is lost the more we stare,
Boggled by its massive girth,
And again by its violent death,
Wonder we will forever, about its innocence...
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Like some lovely little cherub,
She's plucked from me a smile,
Like some cursed shining scarab,
I turn myself to bile,
I've saved her from me,
From that thing I could be,
Twisted at my very core,
I'd rape her fragile mind,
Leave it naked on some shore,
No one should be with my kind...
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I want to take you away with me,
To the beautiful place where I like to be,
Such a wonderful place, I want you to see,
I'll open your doors with this wonderful key,
Doors to a place you would love to see,
This place that you'll always want to be,
After you leave it all and come with me...
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Look at all this shit you're doing,
We're lying to ourselves everyday,
Look at all this shit you're chewing,
You're teaching the children its ok,
To lie and cheat and steal and kill,
For looks, they're everything today,
Make problems go away with another pill,
Look at all these things you say,
How its ok to hide behind that mask,
That thing you built with make-up,
It's weird to hear someone try to ask,
Little things for you to take up,
So you won't need that ugly mask...
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Blankets of gold in winters sunfall,
Silver sheets in the moonlight,
Grass buried if not too tall,
Trees fear not their plight,
Skeletal collums in the night,
Cold & lifeless some to fall,
Old & strong some do fight,
They stand to see the next sunfall...
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Birds morning song stirs the soul,
Awakens the angels from their slumber,
Our fires blaze with added coal,
Alive now like cats for thunder,
Searching for more lovely shining plunder,
To add into that little hole,
In this nest the babies blunder,
Safe up high on their pole...
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Like peering into a volcanic kaleidoscope,
The joys of childhood surface again,
Looking through these wells of hope,
To look away would be sin,
Sparkling bubbles of love & joy,
Sharpened pins would never burst them,
Everyday like a brand new toy,
Your eyes, my love and joy...
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She is soft moonlight, filtering through,
Into my darkened forest of thought,
The dancing shadows are my only clue,
To finding all the things I sought...
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Who are you, what do you want from me,
I see you there, sitting, staring back,
Are you me, or am I you,
You look like me, but you speak not,
Your just a mime, as if my lost twin,
Am I a mime to you, can I step through,
I'm trapped here & you're trapped there,
What will happen if I break you,
Will you break me in my world too,
Or simply cut through me,
Will you die if I end my life,
Or just sit & stare, like a smart mime...
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My head is a thunderstorm,
Lightning flashes of insight,
Seen only as it's born,
Illuminates my dark night,
Gone before it's seen,
Rumbles shake my shelves,
Razors aren't so keen,
Memories are scattered everywhere,
Left in the dark now,
To clean this mess it's made,
Until insight brings it down again...
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Cascades of life,
Flowing from me,
Ending the strife,
Can you see,
All this pain,
I am drowning,
Nothing to gain,
Temples are pounding,
The crimson pool,
Will not stop,
Such a fool,
Veins went pop,
As the blade,
Passed through them...
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Azure as summers sky its base,
Cap of green like ivy leaves,
Crowned with gold from the sun,
Without eyes watches every move,
It evades every unseen blow,
Blind to the hand that bore it,
At night the candle watchs unseeing...
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I'm at that place again,
Floating, feelings encompassing,
Taking in, all of it, everything,
Sinking weightless forever,
The walls seem ethereal,
I see everything, all of it,
None of it, even matters anymore,
Silent thoughts overflowing,
Spilling over dream walls,
Of that place I'm in,
Floating, feelings encompassing...
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I'm at that place again,
It's dark, and cold, and threatening,
Rushing in, through everything,
The pain, boiling up forever,
The walls are closing in,
I can't see anything, not a thing,
None of it, even matters anymore,
Tortured thoughts overpower it,
Spilling over all the walls,
Of that place I'm in,
Floating, feelings torturing...
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Run, run my little angel, run to me,
Let me wrap myself within your heart,
Until I'm tangled up throughout you,
Run my little angel, run to let me in,
Let me, into your shimmer, called life,
Just one look, one touch, one taste,
That's all I need, one taste of you,
I feed, off your sensual touch,
Like a serpent, I long for more,
Forever more, tangling myself up,
Just one glance, one look, one smile,
That's all I need, that sweet smile,
It sets me off, longing for you,
Bring me into, that sparkling aura,
That thing you call your life,
Run, run to visit me, let me in,
Let me, intwine myself in your flesh,
Loose yourself to the feelings, called life,
I taste you, and you begin to feel alive,
Just one look, one touch, one taste,
That's all I need, just a taste of you...
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Who wants a piece of this,
Do you want a piece of me,
I'll come and tear you down,
Beat and leave you bleeding,
Broken and twisted in a ditch,
You just can't fuck around,
I'm here to eat you up,
Rip you apart and throw you down,
You're nothing but a filthy beast,
Just a simple minded tool,
Like all of us you're nothing,
A bunch of worthless meat,
So don't you fuck around,
I know you before you know yourself...
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Your brain is just a simple puzzle,
You can't tell because you haven't found the pieces,
All your little puzzle pieces jumbled,
I seem to know the answer,
Without ever seeing all your pieces,
Everyone has the same puzzle inside,
I think I've solved most of mine,
Enough to solve most of yours too,
Yet most don't know the puzzle is there...
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What what, what do you think you are,
What could you possibly be to everyone,
We're all a bunch of overcomplicated worms,
The worst of the vast multitude of everything,
Too many simple things fixed to each other,
Linked in a simple way in too many ways,
The sum of it all adds up to chaos,
Nothing gained anyway it's looked at...
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It came from me in sleep,
Flowing out onto virgin sheets,
Like warm sticky syrup it clings,
Matting and clotting on everything,
Staining a once clean bed,
With rivulet fed pools abound,
It's my blood that flows tonight...
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Passion consumes the soul,
A fire devours the body,
It's waves ravage the mind,
Pins & needles probe the insides,
Tickling & rippling throughout,
Shivers down the spine that never end...
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Blind to everything people wander,
Darkness overpowers all of them,
Like pins of light on a dark night,
Glimpses of life are like gazing,
Into heaven & opening the mind...
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43
What do we do now, what now,
The man of the house has left,
Left us without saying a word,
We're here without a thing to do,
All alone with each other & everyone,
Muttering & squawking with 'em all,
Conversing to entertain ourselves,
Because there is a seeming lack,
A lack of things for us to do,
To do & do & do again & again,
Keeping our little brains busy,
Busy doing simple little things we do,
Entertaining our itty-bitty- brains...
I do it all without speaking,
Because I found something else,
Another little simple thing to do,
Writing all these simple words,
Words I'll have others read later,
Creating something for us to muse,
Over at a little later date,
Almost like sacrificing the now,
For another thing for later times,
Fuck, I'm quitting because I
Keep on repeating everything.
I hate it, I'm done writing,
Damnit why am I still going,
I need to fucking stop now,
Stop writing the same old shit,
Like I'm stuck in a rut,
Writing about not being able
to stop writing all this crap.
End of page, done finally.
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Wish you, would come back from your dream my friend,
You've lost touch with all of us, lost within yourself,
Come back, to your friends, your family, your life,
We've lost you, lost you in a terrible nightmare,
Deamons plague your soul, draining away everything,
Bleeding you out, staining everything you pass through,
Like some old withered wraith, leaching off the living,
Come back, back to those that truly care for you,
Wake up, slip out, fall through, open that door...
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45
Delicately cooked like grandma's pie,
Dried and cut to serve it out,
Fast as light the pans are dry,
Slung out and about to everyone,
All who crave our grandma's pie,
Fiends & friends & kiddies too,
We'll sell it all to anyone,
Without a third glace at them,
Be they worm or wyrm or gnat,
If the have the fucking greens,
We'll hand them anything at all,
That's how they work their magic,
Buying cheap and selling crazy high,
They're relying on our stupid nature,
To pay way too much for everything,
But how goes the game when the
pieces start to change faces,
New blood comes in & new blood
gets kicked the fuck out,
It's a hard ass wall to get in,
With conflict ever growing harsher...
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Devil spades & acid hearts, turtle clubs & square diamonds,
These are what we're left to work out everything with,
Solving not the meaning, but life in and of itself,
Life without meaning must be solved within a lifetime,
Without meaning, life becomes the void we're trapped in,
Voids are worth nothing, just as a life should be,
Because of it's vast abundance, voids have neither meaning
or even the smallest amount of worth. Life, like
void space is everywhere and meaningless, thus is
worth nothing. Have I just solved life and found it equals 0?
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So come on dance with me out into moonlight,
Through a foggy limbo, just made for me & you,
Sleep, love, dream & forever walk with me,
Our very souls here, for the night to keep,
Sleep, love, dream & forever dream with me,
No more than a whisper, no more than a peak,
No more than a shiver, no more than a peep,
Reach & embrace strips to unreal to feel,
A web floats ethereal, as a phantom,
To cling or caress on bits of the real,
Fantasy reality everything dreamt now,
Subversive emotion feelings dreamt as well,
Silence & peace, shattered realities & dreams,
Come sleep, love, & dream tonight forever,
All our little secrets, loosed for night to keep,
She hides a dreamers whispers well,
Like the dark conceals a lover's coo,
Beautiful dreams born in a limbo for two,
Shivers follow fingertips while they wander in the dark,
So come, sleep, love, dream & walk with me,
Into tomorrow, I'll lead to you my eden,
No more than a whisper, no more than a peak,
No more than a shiver, no more than peep,
Because tonight I do invite you to a treat,
It will be our secret, on the night will surely keep,
So come on dance with me out into moonlight,
Come dance a dance no one will ever see,
Out under clouds all dozing into sleepyslumber,
Beneath waves of nimble moonlight's velvet tide,
And stars flickering their tiny pricks of light,
One to hold ever dreamers silent secrets...
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A spiral into heaven without bounds,
Endless oblivion seems to full & fun,
Empty images of creation unfolding,
Opening and blossoming into the spiral,
Beauty radiates it's fusing bloom,
Auras of an ominous forboding slip,
Slip & cascade into a chaotic matix,
A labyrinth of insanity down the spiral,
Still husks of a million different heavens,
Crashing into & washing over themselves,
Spider web strung & waiting to ensare,
Net & feed upon all those unaware,
To suck at & drain away an angel,
From falling down a spiralling oblivion,
To snatched & used to feed upon,
By some famished silent waiting beast,
A hundred barren hells assemble life,
To tear the weightless dreamers free,
Out of that cascading hollow heaven,
Screaming along foggy loops of infinity,
Always deeper within the spirals maze,
Onwards toward nothing but another bend,
Tranquility smashed by the violent flood,
Filling, flowing, & quickly raging on,
Chaos reigns king to the everchanging,
The unpredictably curling twists,
Winding out into some placid void,
Injecting hollow angels in a spin,
Through & out the spirals dive,
Just another path into empty space,
A fruiting seed implanted in the hole,
Angels sowing a fertial plot of infinity,
Imparting & unfolding images of innocence,
An aura of heavenly energy radiating,
Out along its cluttered corkscrew path,
Past light from the most distant stars,
Where not even empty dreams reside,
This is what heaven is unfolding in,
Clouding vapor tendrils snake & fill,
Torrent overflows & the spiral spills,
Spreading out the angels silky fogs,
To put emotion where once is empty,
Weave a beautiful maze of chaos,
Out between the curls of tranquility,
A garden filled with blooms to spiral,
Their entirety to grow & fill it all,
Everything found along the corkscrew,
As it invades an unknown emptiness,
A sea without ripples to sail upon,
Pushed by a tightly pressed coil,
A spring of chaos sprung inside,
Along the massive spirals maze,
And held within everyone's insanity,
Fermenting impulses finally crumble,
Freeing chaos in a new rush of action,
Moving & reacting to the dreamer,
Wandering in the boundless void,
Setting sail upon a virgin sea,
On water sill untouched by ripple,
Now spin into vortex water rushes,
Once just a dreamers dreams,
Now balanced in the mighty spiral,
It's labyrinth coils on in the haze,
Clouding all incompassing the chaos...
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