The pill or the people = depression?

[daytryptr]

2nd Post

Mixing "your cat" and first person doesn't really help get what your trying communicate across. Using swim, a foaf, animal names, etc offers no legal protection as well. you'll find alot of people are abrasive to others using it, for good reason, just keep in mind it only serves to make posts harder to read/understand, and is useless. Just write naturally and don't try and obfuscate who your talking about, theres no point.

I've had my fair share of disappointing mdma experiences, for one reason or another that totally kills the afterglowe. Sometimes it was the set/setting, other-times from taking too much or too often. Sounds like you just had a shitty night in general, with no lack of people around that aren't really productive in the mdma mindstate. Tapping into savings to buy overpriced pills, getting ripped off by a friend, harassed by jackasses. Even mdma won't make you impervious to that shit.

Not to psychoanalyze or anything, imho its prob just the issues you had the night before, combined with the emotional volatility that (at least ime) follows a mdma experience comedown. If i had a disappointing mdma experience, or felt like it was a waste of time/$, was around assholes the night before, i don't think i wouldn't be depressed the day after. Not exclusively from the next day side-affects from mdma i experience, or the set/setting, but the synergy of the two. I think of mdma as an emotional amplifier, and if you just have a really bad time, no matter how impervious you usually are under its affects, thats going to play into the next couple days. Have a productive, and wonderful time the night before, and the emotional amplification lasts a few days in the same respect. At least in my experience.

Hope the funk your going through works itself out in the days to come, imho its most likely just being caught off guard after usually always having that anti-depressant afterglow many grow to expect from mdma fucked up from a bad set/setting. It sucks bigtime, but usually its just temporary.

Welcome to bluelight

 

[Xxkm]

1st Post (this person is OP)

Over the weekend that just passed, I went out with some friends to a different city to party and have a good time. For the Saturday night I bought two ecstasy pills (which caused me to tap into my savings to buy them as they were a bit heavily priced). Some time that night I ran into this guy I had been having a thing with. After a few hours I decided to take my second pill. I was a bit wastey from a combo of my first pill + alcohol so the guy told me he would cut it in half so I can just take half at a time incase it's too much for me. He pretended someone was coming and said he couldn't cut it in time and shoved half into my mouth saying it was still whole. At the time I didn't suspect a thing. I could definitely feel effects coming on and told him about it and he had a little laugh to himself (knowing i only had half). It wasn't until the next morning that I realised it was only half of a pill (I realised it was definitely a much weaker dose and it was so obvious to a more sober me what had happened). I texted him to ask him about it and not only did he pretty much admit to it, but he was also just a big dick in general. Not only did I feel like a fool because I thought I had taken an entire pill, but it's even worse that I overpaid for it and then got half stolen. My friend even offered to buy the whole thing off me and give me half prior to the incident but I rejected her offer. Might also throw in there that we ran into these douchebags at the end of the night who kept yelling abuse because they were completely misunderstanding a situation. It really sort of ruined my night and I normally always have a good time no matter what ):

Anyways, I now feel pretty depressed two days later. I'm not sure if its because of the drugs itself for the people I ran into. Normally after taking e I feel really happy and love life for days afterwards. What do you think?

 

[Darksidesam]

Whoops the posts ended up wrong order, i moved that response post in here lol

Being on the rave scene for a couple of years, i notice that high doses of mdma or even moderate ones and a negative thing happening (even losing your keys) can mess your head up for a few days, you keep going over and over it again and again.

What i would say is, make sure you get plenty of rest and eat well (get some bananas, some cheese, some turkey, some chicken, some egg, some milk, in ya!) and hang out with friends and try and change the subject on your mind.

It's much easier said than done, but i dont think you are going to find your resolution by arguing it out in your head, but you need to think forward.

You've got a negative afterglow, so you need to help your mindset.
Try drinking some green tea too, it might make you feel a little bit better. (don't drink loads of it though. Caffeine in it remember)

Chin up mate, it's only half a pill
Also it might have been too much for you you do not know,
Things have a way of working themselves out.

Ive bought a wrap of sugar in a sketchy alley kinda scene before for £20, think how pissed i felt lol
But you get over these things. Dearest gram of sugar ive ever bought haha

 

[Xxkm]

Ive bought a wrap of sugar in a sketchy alley kinda scene before for £20, think how pissed i felt lol
But you get over these things. Dearest gram of sugar ive ever bought haha

Now that you mention that, I actually remember a time that I bought what I'm almost positive was crushed up painkillers for £25 :/ haha. So now that I take that into consideration I think it's the fact that this guy (who I thought was a good guy) stole it off me and fooled me!

Thanks though. I feel like eating right and going for a run might be able to help a bit.

 

[Darksidesam]

Yeah exercise will do you the best of all!

Just do what i do when it comes to drug deals from now on then, Don't trust anyone lol
Good guys are hard to come by in the dealing world..
Also if you want to learn about an 'e-diet' to occupy your mind here it is : http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/entries/...equire-lower-dose-and-lessen-have-no-comedown

One of my friends personally lives on it and he is what i would consider a 'successful drug user'.
In that he raves it up, still works and enjoys hes life well.

 

[laugh]

wow, this thread is a trip...should move it over to psychedelics haha?

 

[Darksidesam]

I tried to move posts lol i dont know how to rearrange them.

 

[laugh]

nah its better like this, keeps one on their toes

the cats and the dogs had me spinning...