PsiloSubNaut
Bluelight Crew
Listen up kiddies
Well the scene definately has a high turnover. People are usually in and out within a year or two, it just takes so much out of you. You go through the honeymoon period of 'omg pills hard dance raving!' where it seems like the most amazing thing ever. You keep hitting party after party, weekend after weekend, the amount of drugs you're taking goes up and up but the amount of enjoyment you're getting out of it starts slowly going down and down. Eventually after a few years you hit the point where you get sick of the sketchiness and the bad comedowns and being broke all the time, and it seems like the same clubs are playing the same music to the same people on the same drugs, week in week out.
Some keep going, and they're the ones who seem to end up at 35 with a shitty job, fried brain and nothing to look forward to but partying with people a decade younger than them, some manage to cut back and go out once every so often, with or without drugs, and keep enjoying it for what it is. But most drop out of the scene, become jaded, hang up the phatties, put the candy in the back of their drawer and move on with life.
Theres no reason that it ever has to get old, or tired. But 'kids these days' go out too hard too fast too soon and you lose your shiny happy magic very very fast when you do...
yeah high turnover is right.
i met this kid at transmission last year. he'd pretty much just turned 18, he was off guts, he'd had a pill..
saw him a few times out, always pulling a hard gurn.
saw him late last year out at a club. spoke to him. in the space of 6 months he's now droppin 6 in a night.
then all of a sudden i dont see him out anymore.
and the whole thing about most dropping out of the scene. i go from time to time, then go every week, then dont go for ages.
i've just turned 25 and i'm already older than 99% of the people out
i'm really preferring crankin the music at home and hitting the acid or the speed.
nothing like tripping balls at home with your housemates, cranking skazi and making your neighbours hate you
could be just a sign of my age. but i cant even be arsed going out this weekend, and think i'm gonna stay at home with a mirror, a rolled up note, a suspicious bag of whitey yellow powder and a copy of resident evil 5.